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diane772

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Brandy, I miss you so much. You were my best friend and my companion. Everyday was a wonderful adventure because of you. You helped me through difficult times always making me laugh. As I always told you I believe you were the best dog God ever created. I pray you will forgive me for putting you to sleep. I just didn't know what else to do and I never wanted you to suffer. Those last few days you were so unhappy. I don't know if you were in pain because you never complained. I know you didn't feel good and you couldn't act your normal self. You didn't even want to go for your walks. I wish the Vet could have told me for sure what was wrong so I know I did right by you. This house is so lonely without you.I will see you again and that day will make me so happy. Just know that you are loved very much and missed beyond words.
holly0107

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This is such a sweet letter to Brandy.  She was lucky to have you to love her.

Holly


diane772

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Dear Holly. Thank you for your kind words. You are very sweet and your words did make me feel better. Thank you Diane
Rhynoh

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She was very lucky to have you.  I feel the same about having to put Sasha to sleep.  It was last July, and I still think about her all the time.  But I find solace in the fact that she's no longer in pain.  You did the right thing for Brandy.  I know that she and Sasha are playing hard up there, waiting for us. 
diane772

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Dear Rhynoh, That is a wonderful thought. I look forward to the day when I see her again. I am very glad that I could end her pain and suffering but I miss her so much. I still talk to her everyday and I believe she is listening. Thank you for reaching out to me and making me feel better. I know your pain about Sasha and I am sorry for you. God Bless Diane
diane772

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Brandy, It has been 1 month and I still miss you so very much. I still cry everyday but I am starting to think of the good times alittle more. I still can't wrap my mind around the fact that you are not here. You were the best part of my life. I pray you feel how much you were loved and still are. I still tell you everyday that I love you and miss you. Love you Diane
diane772

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It has been 2 months and I'm still not doing very well. One of the greatest help is coming here. I read other grieving parents posts  and it helps to know other people are going through what I am. I still can not believe that Brandy is gone. My guilt has lessened because of the kind words that I have read here. I just wanted to thank everyone for helping me get through this. To Brandy I miss you and love you so much as I tell you everyday. You still are my best friend.
diane772

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Well it has been 3 months and I am still lost. Brandy I miss you so much and I really don't know if life will ever get better. I still think about you all the time, when I have dinner I always think you would like this and I wish you were here to beg for the leftovers. It still hurts so much. I would give anything to have you meet me at the door so happy because I came home. I love you with all my heart. I pray you are happy and I will see you again. Love your mom
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Diane 772 im so sorry for your lose. I too feel a lose that seems to never end. I cant imagine ever getting over this pain. Youve had 3 months and the pain is still there, will we ever see life without this emptiness. I thought i was going crazy because i havent gotten any better. I hope in time you will find the piece that only the good times are remembered. I hope your pain eases. I hope we both simply remember the good ole days . TAke care diane 772
diane772

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Dear Barefoot1, Thank you for your response, I am still having such a difficult time. My days are so lonely that I have looked at other dogs to adopt but my heart still belongs to Brandy. It is such a sad state I'm in, I want a dog to love and to love me but I only want Brandy. I just don't know what to do. Good luck to you and I pray we both find peace. I truly hope that you find dog love again
Barefoot1

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Diane 772,neither of us will ever find a compainon like we have lost. My girl was "miss b" a beautiful mini dachsund,she is still my heart. If i can get another dog and love them half as much as l still love b then thats all i can ask. There is to many dogs out there that need a home, dont go into another pet thinking they will be like your Brandy because they wont. I believe we both have already met our canine soulmate. But we can offer a good home to another dog in need. I dont want to "get over" b,i always want to feel the same love for her. We will see Brandy and B again. Please try ,as i will, to at least find some joy and happiness again. Your freind keith barefoot.
diane772

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Dear Keith, Thank you for your kind words and understanding. I believe that I will get another dog someday and you are right, I won't love it the same. But I do have alot of love and understanding that I will need to share with another dog at some point. I think if a dog touched my heart I would adopt her or him but for now I am looking and putting on a brave face. I pray we all find happiness again but right now it seems out of reach. Your friend also Diane
diane772

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Brandy, today it has been 4 months. Time goes by but the way I feel does not change. It seems like time is irrelevant. I say good morning everyday and talk to you throughout the day. At night I kiss your picture and say goodnight but it is small comfort. I miss you my baby and I will always love you. You will always be my special Brandy, the perfect dog. I love you Mom
JackieTeller

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I know how you feel.  I am so lonely without my Rosie and the grief seems to be getting worse.  It was one month ago on May 18th she died.  I miss her so much!  I don't have a job and I don't even know if I want to stay in Seattle.  I feel like I am doing LuLu and KitKat an injustice by not spending time with them.  I am so depressed and sad.  I want my baby back!  Please God ease the pain.

Rosie's Mom, Jackie
diane772

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Dear Jackie, I know how you feel. I don't work so I am here without my baby all day. I have a cat and I try to make of her everyday but it is not the same. I'm sure Lulu and Kitkat understand, animals can be very understanding. Please try to feel better and give yourself a break. Diane
diane772

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Well Brandy it has been 5 months and it still feels like yesterday. No one knows how much I miss you. Every morning I miss our hugs, how much we both loved them. You would always snuggle right into the hug, it was our way of saying good morning. I will never stop missing you or loving you. I pray that you are happy and at peace. I wish someone would tell me when my heartache will ease because I don't think it ever will until I am with you again. I love you so much, Mom
Barefoot1

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Diane, I dont know if the pain will ever go away i just passed 3 months and i have yet to begin to heal. It does feel as if no one else understands i know thats what it feels like here. That's why we are here for one another,Jackie,Termy's mom and myself. We do understand and are here for you. I am convinced we will never stop missing or loving our babies. i truely don't want to i love the memories of Miss B. Yes they make me sad sometimes but all the good memories make me smile and no one else knows why. I dont know if the heartache will ever go away but i too hope we will see them again. Alaways here Keith
diane772

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My sweet Brandy, I woke up this morning missing you so much. It has been 6 months since I have hugged you, since I laughed at your tail wagging because it was time to eat and then go for our walk. I miss so much being able to pat you as I walked by you in your chair. I miss everything about you or the things we did together but most of all I miss you. I will always love you and miss you. I pray you are happy and I will see you again. Love you forever Mom
diane772

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Brandy, I pray you are happy and pain free. I can see you running around with your new friends. I miss you so much, I still cry whenever I speak your name. I have realized I am just existing without you, one day just runs into the next. I do want to thank you for my new friends, loosing you allowed me to have these wonderful people in my life. Take care of Termy, Miss B and Rosie for us. I have come to realize my life will never have the joy it did have with you. Your bed is still in the bedroom right where it was in case you want to visit some night. I know you come to visit because I dream about you all the time. It is so hard to think it has been 7 months, my life is just a blur now. Always feel my love for you, that will never change. Love you and miss you everyday Mom
cosesmom

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Diane,
I feel exactly the same as you. I also cry when I talk about Termy. I wish that there would come a day when I could speak his name and tell all the good stories that we shared and smile but like you, I haven't been able too. I know how you feel about just existing and not really living. The joy we had in our lives went with Brandy and Termy. When I read that you wanted to thank her for your new friends and you mentioned Termy, Miss B and Rosie, I cried. I just wish we all could find joy, happiness and peace. Keep posting your love for Brandy, she knows how deeply you love her and it's wonderful to let others know that she is always there, on you mind and in your heart. FOREVER!
love and doggie hugs
Termy's mom
Mustlovedogs

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Diane I am so sorry for your loss. I had to put down my soul dog Charlie on Saturday. I feel like my life will never be the same. I cant stop crying or looking for him in all his spots hoping he will just miraculously appear. I cant fathom or come to terms that I will never ever see him in this physical world again. I just cant seem to accept that. I have his best friend Kelly, my other shih tzu, who he was extremely bonded with still. I love her dearly and I have to keep going for her because he loved her so much but Charlie and I still had this special bond.

I hope things get easier but I dont think they ever will. Sending hugs.
diane772

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Bonnie, thank you for your kind words. It gave me great comfort knowing someone else cares and understands how I feel. Brandy will always have my love forever and I will miss her forever as you will with Termy. Your friend Diane
diane772

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Mustlovedogs, Please stay strong. It is a very long process but it will get easier. The pain is still new to you but lean on Kelly and let Kelly lean on you. You are both grieving so help each other, it will make a difference. Take care  Diane Brandy's mom
diane772

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Brandy, it has been 8 months and I can not stop grieving. I miss you still and I want you here with me. My life is so empty although I put on a brave face everyday. I keep hoping it will get better but I don't see it happening. I can see you running around with your friends and I pray you are happy. I will be with you again, it is what gets me through these days. Please keep coming to see me at night, it helps me. Remember I will always love you and I thank God everyday for letting you be a part of my life. I always told you God created the perfect dog with you and it still holds true. Love you always  Mom
Karmacat

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Diane
Your beautiful heartfelt post says everything for me that I want to say to my K cat. I too cannot stop grieving and missing her.

And last night I lay in bed and sobbed and blubbered for an hour or two. "I miss you so much Karma cat... I love you so much.." I kept saying over and over again to the empty space. And later I kept mumbling - "It's too hard, it's been so hard for us both Karma. But we fought as long as we could until we could fight no more... It's been so very hard for us both, Karma cat.." I felt stupid but I just couldn't control these words from pouring out..

Hope you will feel a little better in the days to come, Diane..
JackieTeller

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Karmacat, Diane, Bonnie and Keith...

I posted earlier but it hasn't shown up.  One of the things about our "friendship" is that even though we have never met each other in person and we're on opposite sides of the U.S., we have forged a friendship based on our love for Termy, Brandy, Miss B., Rosie and Karmacat.

I miss my Rosie EVERY day.  But I know she would not want me to be sad all the time.  That is why she sent me Blossom.  She knew I couldn't handle another dog right now.  

I say let us rejoice in our tears!  Believe me, I have shed a river but it shows we are human, we have feelings, we've lost someone very significant in our lives.  It shows we loved them and continue to love them and care!  I am not going to feel guilty about it anymore.  My Sweet Rose has been gone 5 months.  It hurts everyday...sometimes a little twinge; othertimes crying.  But she was my faithful companion for over 15 years and I will continue to follow the path to the place where I can finally hold happy memories of Rosie and smile; not cry.

Love to you all, 

Jackie in Seattle (where it is foggy).
JackieTeller

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Karmacat, Diane, Bonnie and Keith...

I posted earlier but it hasn't shown up.  One of the things about our "friendship" is that even though we have never met each other in person and we're on opposite sides of the U.S., we have forged a friendship based on our love for Termy, Brandy, Miss B., Rosie and Karmacat.

I miss my Rosie EVERY day.  But I know she would not want me to be sad all the time.  That is why she sent me Blossom.  She knew I couldn't handle another dog right now.  

I say let us rejoice in our tears!  Believe me, I have shed a river but it shows we are human, we have feelings, we've lost someone very significant in our lives.  It shows we loved them and continue to love them and care!  I am not going to feel guilty about it anymore.  My Sweet Rose has been gone 5 months.  It hurts everyday...sometimes a little twinge; othertimes crying.  But she was my faithful companion for over 15 years and I will continue to follow the path to the place where I can finally hold happy memories of Rosie and smile; not cry.

Love to you all, 

Jackie in Seattle (where it is foggy).
JackieTeller

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Good Morning Keith, Diane, Bonnie and Karmacat, 

I want to rephrase part of what I said yesterday.  I don't mean to be happy we are all so sad over the loss of our children.  But I was feeling alot of shame because I was and am crying almost daily over Rose.  It has affected LuLu and not in a good way.  

I guess what I meant is let the tears come.  It IS part of the healing process.  There will always be a void in my life because Rose got me through some pretty bad times.  Our tears show we loved our children.  I would rather be crying and depressed than like "oh well, she's just a dog."  I cannot believe how people will abandon their pets for the stupidest reasons.  Like she/he is getting old or we're moving.  That is a family member you are leaving behind.  I don't watch alot of that stuff anymore because it makes me sad and mad.

I believe we will all see our kids again someday.  I have to believe that.  It's one of the things that keeps me going.

Your friend in Seattle (foggy again)
Jackie
diane772

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Brandy, another month has gone by and the pain is still there. I still think of you 1000 times a day and miss you more than I can explain. I want to hug you every day. It has snowed here and I keep seeing you sticking your nose in the snow. You were always so happy no matter what was going on. Pearl is trying to comfort me and make me happy and I thank God every day for her being in my life. I think about your birthday coming up and it will be the saddest day. I will miss giving you a present. I see the dog toys in the store and I always think how you would like that, we could have fun with that one. I still haven't figured out to go on with my life. I will never underestimate the love of a dog and a human because we had the greatest love. I will always miss you and love you more than words can say. Be happy baby [ I pray that every day ], love always Mom
JackieTeller

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Diane, 

I know I just posted but I am so sorry for your pain.  When the time is right, Brandy will direct you to another furbaby.  And I say, GO FOR IT!  You will know when because it won't be your decision by Brandy's.  She is quietly waiting for you to go through your grief.  I don't think we ever get over it.  Just like Rosie brought me Blossom, Brandy will bring you another child.  Brandy can never be replaced but she wants her mama to be happy.  I wish I had your phone number to call but they won't allow it on here.  Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Love, Jackie (snowless in Seattle!)

diane772

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Jackie, thank you for all your support and caring. Love Diane
cosesmom

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Diane,
I know how very hard it is to live each day. It's hard to be happy, I know. Jackie is ever so correct, Brandy will direct you to a new love, when she feels you are ready. Brandy knows how deep your love is and she would want another to experience the love you lavished on her, That's their nature. The pain never truly goes away, it's just gets easier to handle.
Sending peace and comfort
your friend in Pa
Bonnie
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