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goofygirlinva

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Thinking of you and your beautiful Harry on his Bridge Day anniversary...

Hugs,
- Kelly
brenrae

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Harry,

The balloon is gone now, so I think that somehow it has reached you in heaven. It is also raining here now. It is funny that it started at the same time that you were pts last year. Perhaps the Angels are crying for you, or for me. I am sure they know how much I still miss you. I love you, Harry

                                                                            Love, Mommy
brenrae

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Harry,

It has now been a year and a week since we had to let you go. I still miss having you here. I was thinking about how you would run around and open the cupboards for whatever reason, I do not know. I guess you did it because you could. You were and are a smart boy. I know you are in a better place now, and that you can have all the things you like. Perhaps I am a bit selfish in wanting you to be here with me. I hope you do not mind the two cats that I have now. I am sure you probably had a hand in me getting them. I do love them, but it does not keep me from wanting you back. You will always be special to me. You are my heart and soul cat. I will always feel honored that God chose me to be you mommy. We had a great life together, you and I. I have to say that I do not think that I will ever get over losing you. I just continue on with my life, because I know that you would want me to. I also know that when my travel down life's road is done, I will see you again. That is a day that I look forward to. To see you, and all my other fur babies that I have loved through the years. I am sure you all are together, even the ones that you did not know.  My heart still cries over your loss. I hope that your enjoying yourself there. I love you, Har Har, always and forever. Until I see you again, sending you some hugs, kisses and cuddles, on the wind. Love, Mommy  
brenrae

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Harry,

We are at another Thursday. You left me on a Thursday, and I still miss you as much now as I did then. I still wish every day that you had gotten better, but I guess it was not to be. I will always want you to still be here with me. To me you was so very special. I still cry every day from missing you. Not as much as in the beginning, but, the sadness is still there. It is hard to imagine how much sadness one can feel by the lose of a special fur baby. But, I try to remember how happy you was with us. You were so very spoiled, though you didn't always get your way, you did most of the time. I want to thank you for the feathers you have left me. You always knew when I needed something to make me smile. Last year at this time, I wasn't sure that I was going to make it through, as sad as I was, but I did. And now, here we are at the beginning of your second year at the bridge. The 12 years that I had you with me, are years that I would never give up. To me, you were the best cat. Yes, you had cattitude, but that was one of the things that made you special. You were so sweet, even when you was angry with us, you would never lash out, you would just stalk off with you cowboy walk. I always loved that walk.  On Monday, I will be taking gabby and Sandy to the vet, but I am going to see a different vet than who saw you at the beginning of your illness. It is going to be hard to take them to the place I took you, but I feel the one I am going to take them to is a good vet. I wish that you could be here still. But, we did have a lot of good years together, and I can never regret those years. I know I am repeating myself, but, I still miss you so much, my special boy. I love you, and I always will. Always and forever. Here is some kisses, hugs, and cuddles for you, and perhaps you can share some with the others that are there, I am sure they would like some, and you always were a giving boy. Love you, mommy. Until we meet again, you will be forever in my heart. 
brenrae

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Har Har, here we are at another week of me missing you. You will always be my heart and soul cat. I miss you every day, but I am trying to live my life the way you would want me to. I know that you would not want me to be unhappy, so I try to do things that I enjoy. Things that i would do when you was still here. It can be hard at times, and sometimes I am crying when I do them, but I know that you would want me to enjoy the remaining days that i have. I will never really get over having to let you go, but I have accepted it as something that could not be avoided. I think that truthfully, I should remember that you had a wonderful life here, and you was happy every day. The one thing you didn't like was going to the vet, and luckily you didn't have to very often, until that last year. I still wish that your last days could of been spent at home, with you doing all the things that you loved to do. That is something that could not be avoided, as you were so sick. If there had been any sign that you would of gotten better, I would of waited as long as it took, but the vet felt you were just getting worse. I did not want you to suffer your life that way, never being able to go to the bathroom. It would not of been right for you. You were always such a dignified boy, and you hated when you had accidents from the bladder infection when you got it in the past. No, I could not let you suffer that way, with being uncomfortable so much of the time. I will always wish there could of been a miracle, and you just got better. You will always be my handsome, sweet and special boy. I love you, Harry. Sending you some hugs, cuddles, and kisses on the wind. Love, Mommy
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Harry, another Thursday. I used to enjoy being off on Thursday's, for then I could take you outside, weather permitting. This Thursday, it is the Fourth of July. I know you didn't care for the big, loud BOOMS, but perhaps, now that you are in Heaven, you can enjoy the wonderful colors and designs. as you look down upon the Earth where I'm at.  I have been missing you so much lately. You brought so much joy to my life. Don't get me wrong, I do love Gabby, and Sandy, but you will always be special. I even miss all the things you would do, that I found irritating. I miss how you would run around and open the cupboard doors, and how if you could find some plastic, you would either stomp on it, or try to eat it. I did find that weird, the fact that you wanted to eat plastic. I even miss how you would claw at my butt when you thought it was time to go outside for a while, or you thought that I should get off the computer and pay attention to you. Yes, I would gladly put up with them all again, just to have you back, I would never change anything about you, for those little quirks is what made you you. I do sometimes wonder if there would of been a chance that you would of gotten better if I had waited, but it seemed like every time there was a small ray of hope, you would get worse. I miss you my sweet, precious boy. To me, you will always be special. Perhaps that is because I am your mommy, and to mommy's, all their children, yes, even the furry ones, are special. You are such a handsome boy. I dreamed of you the other night, and we were here, but you were still a kitten. Perhaps that is how you are in Heaven, though I hope you are grown, and healthy. I know you are better now, and I am sure you are enjoying so much up there. I hope you are not pouncing the others too much, they may not like it. But, I want you to have fun, and one day, we will see each other again. I love you, Har Har always and forever. Sending you some hugs, cuddles and kisses on the wind. Love, Mommy
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Harry, it has been a sad week for me for some reason. I don't know if it is because you have been gone for 13 months, or because we had so much rain. It seemed like every time I was alone, all I did was cry. I miss you so much still, and I still wish that you was here with me. I will never get over having to let you go. I have just had to learn to continue down life's road without you. It has not been an easy journey for me, and I still have those rocky passages. I know that life was not perfect when you was here, but, I was content with my life. Now, I feel that I just pass the days, and they are so long without you. There was so much we would do together, and I miss those things. I miss going outside with you, and just walking around in the back yard while you did your perimeter check. Sometimes I would just stand at the fence, and watch the people go by, and you would be right there with me, and watching every thing also. Then there was times you would lay under your bush, or in the sun,, and I would just be sitting on the steps while you enjoyed napping outside. I miss how you would lay at my feet while I was on the computer, after we had been outside. And I miss having you lay beside me on the couch, and in bed. I just miss you, my sweet boy. If there had been a way for you to get better, I would of done it. I would give almost anything to have you back. But, now, with the illness caused by ticks, I would not be able to give you any outside time, and that would of made you sad. I know that where you are now, you can have all the outside time you want. I love you, always and forever. Sending you some kisses, hugs, and cuddles on the wind. Love, Mommy 
brenrae

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Harry, another week without you by my side, but a week closer to when we will be reunited. I know that it will be many more weeks and years before I will be able to hold you again, but I know that the time will come when we will be together again. Until that time, I will miss you every second of every day. You are my special boy, and no one can take your place. Every day, I still feel sadness when I think of you being gone. But, I do remember you with smiles and tears. All the things you did that was cute and funny, and yes, even the things you did that was annoying, I miss. I miss listening to your purr as I fall asleep, and petting your soft fur. I miss your head toss, as you would answer me when I asked you a question. I miss your patience as you waited to go out. You was always a patient boy, even when we would annoy you, you would take a long time before you would get mad, and most often you would get up and walk away rather than attack. I think about you all the time, and I always wish that you was still here. I don't think that I will ever truly get over you being gone, but I have accepted it. It does not stop me from wishing for a different outcome though, even 13 months later. I will always be grateful for having you in my life. You made life so much better by being here. I guess though, that wishing will not bring you back, but if there had been a way that things could of been different, I would go back in time and make it so. All I ever wanted was for you to come back home, but that was not to be. I guess that we don't always get what we want in life, and I should know that. No amount of time would ever be enough for me to get over losing you. I love you, Har Har. You will always live in my heart, and my memories, for that is all I have now of you. I guess that will have to be enough for now. I love you, until we meet again, here is some cuddles, hugs, and kisses on the wind. Love, mommy  
brenrae

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Hi Har Har, yes, it is me again, your mommy. I still miss you every day, and I still get tears in my eyes knowing that you are gone. 13 months now without you by my side. Who would of thought that I would of made it this long without you, but not a day goes by that you are not on my mind, and not a day goes by that I wish you was still here. There is a little black kitten, too young to be on its own hanging around now. I have been trying to catch it. Last night I opened the window to my bedroom and it came in, but before I could close the window again, it was gone. Its a fast little thing. Please, if you can, try to guide it inside. I am thinking that maybe my sister, Aunt Laura, may want it. I know she misses Cuddles still, as much as I miss you, and maybe the little black kitty will help her by giving her another to love. Not to replace Cuddles, but to help ease the pain I know she feels. If she doesn't want it, I will try to find it a good home elsewhere, or keep it myself. Please help me in my endeavors to find it a safer place than outside. It is too small to be on its own, and it may get hurt. I know that you still watch over me, for I find the things you leave for me, mostly feathers, and I have kept every one that I have found.  I love you, Harry, you will always be my special boy. I miss you every day, even when I am at work, knowing you are gone as put a hole in my heart that only you can fill. Until we meet again, sending you some hugs, kisses and cuddles on the wind. Love, Mommy
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Another beautiful letter to your sweet Harry - I pray the little kitten will listen to him and let you catch it.  I love that you always say "hugs, kisses and cuddles on the wind" to your precious boy - I know he is never far from your thoughts.

Lee Lee's Mama
brenrae

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Harry, Here it is, another Thursday. I still think about you every day, and I still cry because I had to let you go. I still wish that you had gotten better, but that was not the way it was. I guess God needed another furry angel, and He sent for you to join them up there. Did He know how much it would break my heart to have to let you go on ahead of me? You are still my heart and soul cat. You made my life whole, just having you and Jean here with me is all I needed in life. Now, I have neither of you here anymore. Though I know you are never far from my side, it is not the same as having you where I can see you, and cuddle with you. I miss having you here, and all the days we would spend outside. I know there was times that I didn't really want to be outside, but I did because I knew that it made you happy. I wish that you would send me some more dreams of you. I wish that we could be together again, but I know it will be a while before we can. Until we meet again, you will always be in my heart. Yes, though I love the other cats, there is none that can be special like you. You will always have a special spot in my heart. I love you, Har Har. Sending you some hugs, cuddles and kisses on the wind, love Mommy
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Har Har, yesterday was 14 months that I had to let you go on ahead of me. I know that each day brings me closer to my reunion with you. I still miss you every day, and you will live forever in my heart. I cried this morning for you, which I still do several times a week. It isn't as bad as it was, but I still wish you was here with me still. I am sure you are having lots of fun up there with all the other fur angels that are waiting for their special person to come to them. I don't spend as much time outside anymore since you aren't here to walk the backyard with me. That is something I know you enjoyed, and I am sure you are keeping the perimeter up there safe. Now, I have the little black kitten, but I am not sure what to do with it. But, at least it is safe from bigger animals, and cars, and mean people. It still runs from me though. Perhaps you could let it know that I would never hurt it an any way. Thank you for the nudges against my leg, it makes me happy to know you are still near, though I don't see you, I can still feel you. I know that sometimes you go off on adventures there in the sky, perhaps with the brat pack. I am sure that you would enjoy those since you always was adventurous. Sandy decided to show me that he could hunt and brought me a live mouse. I was not thrilled about it. I remember when you caught a mouse and hid it. I found it, and threw it away, so when you went back for it, it was gone. I could see the wheels turning in your head as you tried to figure out what had happened to your mouse. Poor Precious, of course you had to accuse her, and the fight began. You was always a happy kitty, but I think I spoiled you a bit. I could never say no to those big green eyes of yours, and that imploring meow. I guess I was like butter in your paws, huh? I love you, my special, handsome boy. To me, you will always be special, no matter how many years pass. Sending you hugs, kisses  and cuddles on the wind. Love, mommy
brenrae

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Harry, I still miss you every day, and I still wish you was still here. Sometimes when I cry for you, I wonder if it is more for me than you, because i miss having you here with me so much. I wish that you had gotten better. I do enjoy having the cats that you have led me to, or have led my way, but nothing and no one can compare to you. Perhaps I wish for the days when we were all still together, just you, me and Jean, but those days are gone, and I know they can never be again. In a couple of weeks, I will be going to see Jean, before winter and the holiday season comes, because I know that I will not be able to see her anymore until the beginning of next year. I worry about the other kitties that I have, especially Sandy. He doesn't like when I leave for just a few hours, and I will be gone a couple of days. But, I am sure that with you watching over them, they will be fine. Thank you for the little foot tap you gave me last night when I was feeling sad from missing you, it helped to brighten my day. I am glad when you give me these little signs that you are still here with me. It isn't the same as when you was here physically, but it is better than nothing. I love you, my special boy, and I always will. As you know, I was planning to move to Georgia next summer, but now I am not sure what I am going to do, Jean's husband is planning to join the army after he gets back from taking the schooling he needs to become and RN. If so, they may not be in Georgia, so I guess we will have to wait and see, huh? Please stay with her and protect her. I love you, always and forever. Sending you some hugs, kisses, and cuddles, on the wind. Love, mommy
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Happy 1 year Bridge day sweet Harry. Your moms letter to you says just how much she misses and loves you. many ((hugs)) maxsMandD
brenrae

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Harry, You will always be my special boy. Your place in my heart, though scarred now from the pain of losing you, will always be just for you. To me, you were all I ever needed in a fur baby. Next Thursday, I will be going down to visit Jean, before the winter snows, and the holiday season makes it impossible. I know that you will travel with me in spirit, for you love her as much as you love me, and I am sure you will keep an eye on her also. I was thinking yesterday about how it will be another holiday season without you. And, truthfully, I am not sure how I will be able to get through with both my babies being gone from me. Yes, I know that I can talk to Jeannie, but it will never be like it was, with just the three of us against the world. You and her were, and always will be my reason for being here. I never needed or wanted anyone else, because I had all I needed with just you two. And, yes, I do love the cats that is with me now, but none can ever be you, and I wouldn't want them to be. They broke the mold when they made you. I remember how you always went with me to the door when anyone came. I never knew if you was there to protect me, or were just being nosy. You always had to see what was going on. When someone came to fix something, you had to be right there watching. I guess you was supervising to make sure they got it right. I remember how I had to remove things from the entertainment center, if it was in your spot. If I didn't you would take your head, and push it off. I always thought that was funny. I remember how you would wait until I invited you up to the couch, but with Jean, she had to scramble to move things so you would have a place to lay. I also remember how patiently you waited, if I was eating lunch, for me to be done so we could go outside. You always was a patient boy, even if you got aggravated about something. I miss you every day, and you are always in my thoughts. Sometimes, if I hear a certain song, I will think of you, and tears will roll down my face. I don't think there is truly such a thing as getting over this kind of loss, it is more about just learning to survive without that special soul beside you. I will always love you, Har Har. Until I see you again, here is some hugs, kisses, and cuddles, sent on the wind to you. Love, Mommy 
brenrae

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Harry,
 
Another long week here without you. I will never get over having to let you go on to the Rainbow Bridge. My heart still aches for wanting you to be here still. I know that you are now better at the bridge, and I am glad of that, I just miss you so much. I know that is the price we pay when we love so deeply, and it is a price I am glad to pay, for I got to have you in my life for 12 wonderful years. But, I was not ready to let you go, I just knew that I couldn't be selfish and hold onto you here. I would give most anything to have you back with me, but I guess you know that. You sent me 3 cats, and I thank you for that. You also sent me a butterfly on Monday. I knew it was from you, because it landed on the patio window, and just stayed there for several minutes. At least, I would like to think it was your way of saying hi. The other night, I got your things out, and smelled them, they still have your scent on them. And, I can still see your fur on them. I will always keep them safe, though some people may think I am crazy. I just can find it in myself to let another cat have them. To me, they are yours. Perhaps that is weird, I don't know, but that is how I feel. I am sending you this letter early, because I will be at Jeannie's tomorrow, and may not be able to write to you. I wish that you was here for me to cuddle with. I guess, though, that I would be torn about going to see Jeannie, because to me, you were both my children. I would of hated leaving you here alone, though I know that our neighbor would come and take care of you. I will always love you, my handsome boy. I love you, now and forever. I am sending you some kisses, cuddles, and hugs on the wind. Love, Mommy
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Harry,

The leaves are starting to change and fall from the trees. I know how much you always enjoyed playing in them, and trying to catch them as the wind blew them. I think you loved the rustling sound they made as you pounced in them. It is hard to know that another season is changing, and you are not here to enjoy the fresh chill in the air in the early morning hours. That was usually the best time to take you outside, when the air was still crisp from the night. I never took you out when it got dark, because I didn't want to lose you. I think we will have a lot of snow this winter, and it is going to be cold. I know you never much cared for the snow, and if it was too cold, I wouldn't take you out because I didn't want you to get sick. I remember the time when we had some snow on the ground, and you went out to investigate it, and you walked to the back bushes, You got there,, and couldn't figure out how to get back, because you didn't want to walk in the snow back to the house. You meowed piteously until I came and rescued you. You always brightened my day, just by being here, but now, my sunshine is gone. I still miss you every day, and you are always in my thoughts. There are so many wonderful things to remember about you, but most of all is the love you gave to those you cared about. I am sure that with the changing seasons here, there may be some changes there at the bridge, for those that enjoy the falling leaves, and the crisp fall air. I love you, Har Har, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some kisses, hugs, and cuddles sent on the wind for you, One day, I will be there to give them to you personally. Love, Mommy   
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Har Har,

Another Thursday now. I took the little black kitten to the shelter to get it spayed. It is a female. I am sure that you have somehow had a paw in sending these kitties to me that I have now, and I thank you for that. It doesn't ease the pain I feel from losing you, but they have brought with them love and laughter that you can only get from a fur baby. I guess you knew how much I needed that in my life. I still wish that you was here still, but I know you are always close by, for i can feel your spirit when I am feeling super sad. You will always be my special boy. I read a poem, here it is:

Every time I lose a cat
They take a piece of
my heart with them.
And every new cat who
comes into my life
gifts me with a piece
of their heart.
If I live long enough
all the pieces of
my heart
will be cat,
And I will become
as loving and generous
as they are.

Yes, I think that when my time comes, I will have a heart as special as your heart, full of love and generosity. I have to say though that I hate being without you, but, again, I thank you for the ones you have sent my way to keep me company, and to bring with them the love and laughter they share. I am sure that you had a paw in it, for you always wanted me to be happy, and this is the only way you can do it now. I love you, my special boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles and kisses in the wind. Love, Mommy



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Such a beautiful poem, it brought tears to my eyes. They do have the most loving hearts, don't they? So sweet of your dear Harry to send the little ones your way.
Hugs, I hope today is a good day!
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Hi Harry,

 I know you are having a good time with your friends up there. This has not been a good week for me. It seems this is a week of super missing you. I get that way from time to time. You are my special boy, and you always will be. Today, I had to go and have surgery done in my mouth because of a tooth that kept getting infected, That is why I am writing this to you late. The pain pill they prescribed me put me out like a light. This is one of the things that happened after you had to go on a head of me. As you know, I have decided to keep the little black kitten you sent my way. I wish you would tell it that I am a good one, and it is ok for me to pet it. It will every so often, but is still afraid. I also had to take my computer, the one that I have your pictures on, to be fixed. I am hoping they can save the pictures, for I look at them all the time. They aren't the same as having you here, for I can't pet them, and cuddle with them, like I did you. I always loved giving you hugs and kisses. You was just right for cuddling with, and I miss that so very much, my sweet and handsome boy. That is the first thing that I am going to do when I see you again, is give you a big kiss, and some cuddling. Ahh, yes, and I will have to smell your fur. I always loved the way you smelled, it reminded me of spring. I remember how much you always loved to be brushed, you would close your eyes, and we could see the,"ohh, yes" expression on your face. Sandy has started laying under your bush, which is all right. I am sure you don't mind him doing that. I have felt you on the bed with me a few times this week. I felt you behind my leg, and I looked, and no other cat was there, so I feel  that it had to have been you. I also caught your scent yesterday at work several times. I guess you was visiting me. It makes me happy when you visit. I feel that Sandy sees you sometimes, because he is looking up towards the ceiling, and nothing is there. I am sure he sees something anyways, so I feel that it is you. I love you, my handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses, sent on the wind. Say hi to the others up there, for I am sure they are all with you.
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Har Har,

I miss you so much still. It has been especially hard these past few days for some reason. I don't know if it is because the seasons are changing, or if it is something else. I still wish that you had gotten better, but, I guess it wasn't meant to be. I wish there had been a miracle for you. I know that you are in a good place, and not in any pain, for I know you had some arthritis, which is why we gave you those one treats. It seems like I have been crying off and on for the past few days. Perhaps it is because the Christmas season is coming soon. I know how much you enjoyed helping with the tree, and you sure were a lot of help as I was setting it up. I remember how you would help wrap presents too. It seems like you always knew which wrapping paper I wanted to use, and you would lay on it, so then it was wrinkled, but I guess you was giving it your own special touch. You also enjoyed laying under the tree, and you had to check out all the presents when we put them down there. You always was so curious about things. And, right now, the leaves are falling, and I know how much you enjoyed the fall, with the cooler weather. A friend at work, she had to let her dog go on ahead, I hope that you have been able to greet him, perhaps you could show him around some. I know that you didn't like dogs much, but I believe that all are friends up there. So, perhaps you have a few doggie friends also. I have debated on whether to put a tree up this year, since it is just me now, but I think that the other cats may enjoy it. Although the kitten, Jinx, may decide to climb it like you did when you were younger. I would keep sitting it back up, and you kept climbing it. I'm glad you didn't get hurt doing it. I guess you thought it was fun. I will always love you forever and beyond. Until we meet again, here is some kisses, cuddles, and hugs sent on the wind to you.
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So beautiful to hear you speak to Harry with such love.

Teresa,
Marley's mom
brenrae

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Harry,

Here we are at another week of you being gone, soon it will be another month. I still miss you so very much. I am sure you know that Sandy is sick, and I believe that you sent him to me. Please watch over him as he fights this illness, and watch over me as I continue down life's road without you. My sister and Roy will be leaving in a few days to visit his mom. I won't have Cuddles to take care of, because she is now with you and the rest of the gang. Please watch over them as they make their trip and keep them safe. You was always Roy's buddy, and Laura's Harry Berry. That is what they always called you, and you would always answer them. I don't think you cared what they called you, as long as you got some loving from them. You will always be one of the special ones, just because you are you. Yes, I will always love you, and hold you softly in my heart. Until we meet again, here is some cuddles, kisses, and hugs on the wind. Yes, I know you wasn't too fond of them, but you would suffer through it for a while, with a purr and a smile. I love you so very much, and I always will. Love Mommy
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Har Har,

Another week without you here. Yesterday I decided to watch Puss in Boots, and I was fine until there at the end. His adopted mother told him he would always be in her heart, and he told her the same thing, and that is when the tears starting rolling down my cheeks. That is how it will always be with you, you are forever in my heart, and my soul. I was thinking about how you never liked things on the entertainment center, and you would push them off. That was your spot, not the spot for books, bills, or anything else. I was also thinking about how you would always wait for me to invite you up, but with Jeannie, you would stare at her a few minutes, and she had to hustle to move anything that was in the spot you wanted to lay beside her. I never knew why that was, but it was funny how you always did that. I think about you every day, and I remember all the little things you did that made you so special. You will always be my handsome boy, and my sweet boy. I will always wish that you had gotten better, but perhaps God needed one as special as you for His garden. Knowing you is always a pleasure, and I will be forever grateful that I had you in my life. I love you, Har Har, always and forever. here are some hugs, cuddles and kisses on the wind for you. One day we will be together again. Love, Mommy 
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Hi Har Har, you are still my handsome boy, and my sweet boy. I used to tell you that all the time, and you would look at me with love shining in your eyes, and as if to say, of course I am. You always had a way of just staring when you wanted something. If your litter box needed cleaning, you would give me such a pointed look, as if to say, "Well, you going to fix that problem." You also knew when I usually went to bed, and if I didn't go at the time you expected, you would stare at me as if to say, "Up a bit late, aren't we?" Yes, you really knew how to do a stare down, when things weren't going the way you expected. You also had so much patience, and you were willing to wait of you needed to. Especially on going outside. I would say, let me finish this, then we will go out, and you laid there beside me, or at my feet, and waited, and when I was done, you would get up and run for the door. You always made it easy to get up in the morning. I would say, "Are you ready to start the day?", and you would bound off the bed. I always felt that you understood every word I said, because of how you would act. Yes, to me, you will always be special, and I will always carry you in my heart. I will always miss you every day, until we are reunited. Here is something I read:   Perhaps they are not stars in the sky, but rather openings where our loved ones shine down to let us know they are happy. I would like to think that you are shining down on me with your own special light. I would like to think that you are always watching over me. I do believe that you led me to these ones that I have now,  or led them to me. I guess you knew that I would take care of them. Thank you for these wondrous gifts you have bestowed upon me. I will always miss you, and I will always wish you was still here. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses on the wind.  Love, mommy  
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 #146 
That's a beautiful quote and a nice new way to look at the stars.  Your Harry stories are such treasures.  I love that they can communicate with us so well, even without language.  Thinking of you and sweet Harry.

Amanda
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Brenrae,
All your letter just bring me to tears, I  miss my Bedo very much, it is so special how our beloved pets can communicate with us in such special ways.  My Bedo used to call me when I burned my cooking, I think our strong love connections have made this happened.  I am still hurting and missing my baby so much.  I thank you for the idea of writing letters, this helps as it is important to feel the presence of our beloved babies.  I miss Bedo's cute face, his beatiful eyes, his protruding nose and a mouth that was ready for a kiss...Thinking of ou and your sweet Harry, I think he and Bedo are friends and playing together now, they both know that their mommies love and miss them very very much.

Nance
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Hi Har Har,

Yes, I know this is early. Tomorrow Jean will be here for a few days, and I can hardly wait. Unfortunately, I am sick. Hopefully I will be better tomorrow. I wanted to get this letter to you, because I still miss you as much as ever. I still wish that I could have you here with me, but I guess that was't in the plans. I know you are in a better place, and there is so many bushes and trees for you to explore. I am sure you have so many friends, for you was always social. I know one day we will see each other again, but I am sure you watch me every day. I was thinking about your chair the other day, and how you would get so annoyed when we moved it to put the tree up, but then you discovered how fun the tree was to lay under. You are one of a kind, and there will never be another like you. I love you, Harry, my handsome boy. Yes, that is what I always called you, for you were a handsome boy, and a sweet boy. I love you, Har Har and I always will.  Sending you some hugs, cuddles and kisses on the wind. Love Mommy
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Hi Harry,

Well it seems I have a touch of pneumonia and I had to go to the ER. It isn't too bad for them to keep me, but bad enough that I woke up not being able to breathe, and shivering from being so cold. Its a good thing Jeannie is here to take care of me. I wanted to let you know so you don't worry. I love you always, my sweet boy. Love Mommy Sending you some hugs, cuddles and kisses in the wind.
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Brenrae,
I'm so sorry to hear that you are ill - I am sending up a special prayer that you feel better very soon.  I know your dear Harry is right there beside you keeping a watchful eye on his Mom.  

Take care of yourself...
Melanie (Lee Lee's Mama)
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Dear Brenrae
I hope you are feeling better please drink warm liquids and cover yourself with warm blankets and Harry's warm memories he is watching you from the above
Take care hugs to you and sweet Harry
Bedomom
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Harry,

Jeannie has gone back home, and I have to go back to work tomorrow. I hope I will do all right. I still have the pneumonia, which I know will take a bit of time to get over, and it seems like it takes so  much out of you. I thought I was going to join you Friday, and yes, I would like to be with you again, and I look forward to when the time comes that I will also be in heaven. But, I need to stay now for my daughter, and also to take care of the 3 cats you sent my way. Yes, I am sure you sent them to me in your own way. I worry that no one else will put up with some of their annoying habits. And, yes, you had annoying habits also, but you knew it, but you also knew we loved you in spite of them. When you love, you love them even with their imperfections, just the way you love us. I guess I worry for Gabby due to her potty habits. She deserves more than to be stuck in a cage the rest of her life, and I have found a way around it. Its not the best solution, but it works. She gets the puppy pads, because she can't seem to get in the litter box. Its better than having to clean up the floor every time she goes. And Sandy, with his FIV, most shelters would pts, and he doesn't deserve that. They are both loving cats, and  they deserve to be loved. And Jinx, she's still a bit skittish, but she is a sweet little thing. All she wants is someone to play with her constantly. Yes, I guess you thought I would be a good mom to these kitties, and I will try to live up to your expectations. Thank you Harry for watching over me, and Jean. Here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses in the wind. I love you my sweet, handsome guy. Always and forever. Love, Mom


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Hi Harry,

Last Friday, when I had to go to the ER was my birthday. Good birthday present, huh? A ride in a squad. I believe you was with me and watching over me. Thank you for keeping me safe. I believe you are one of my Guardian Angels, for I know God gives us some to take care of us. Tonight is Halloween. So, I have had 2 birthdays, and 2 halloween's without you now. I remember how you would always have to go to the door with me to see who was there. I wonder what you thought of the costumes. I also remember how gentle you could be with children, never biting or scratching if they annoyed you. You were always a gentle cat, never liking to hurt anyone, even when you were mad. I miss you every day, but I do believe you had a hand in sending me the ones I have now. You will always be one of the special ones, for they broke the mold when they made you. Yes, you are one of a kind. Soon Thanksgiving will be here,and after that Christmas, and I am not sure how I will handle it. They will be my first without you and Jeannie here. It is going to be hard, I believe, without either one of my babies here with me. I know I have my sister, and I plan to go there for the holiday, but it will only be for a few hours. It will never be the same without you both. Yes, I guess I am feeling sad, and a bit lonely without you guys here. I love you, Har Har, always and forever. Here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses for you sent on the wind. Keep your star shining brightly on me. Love, Mommy
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Brenrae,
You are in my thoughts, I know those occasions are hard as they will bring back so much memories... Those joyful memories that we miss dearly and treasure them forever in our hearts.  .I hope you feel better from time to time and take a good care of yourself.  I sincerely thank you for letting me copy the idea of writing to my belove Bedo, writing to him make me feel closer to him than ever before.  I am sure he is playing with Harry....Harry, please send many shining stars for mom, she loves and misses you very much.  Having a happy Holloween with beatiful memories of your beloved Harry embraced in your heart.  Get well soon!
Hugs and love
Bedomom
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Harry, here we are now, at 17 months without you. I don't know how I made it, for I know that I was in a deep and dark chasm for so long. It seemed like I would never climb out. I know you did not like seeing me like that, and so, you sent me some dream visits, and you came and laid on the bed with me a few times. You even touched my back, like you did when you was here to let me know you was near. No, though I could not see you, you always found a way to say, "here I am". I really appreciated it. It helped me to climb out of the chasm that i found myself in, But, every so often, I still find myself there. I know it is because I miss you, and I know that I always will. You will always be my special boy, and I am glad that we got to spend our life together. I will always wish for a few more years, though I know there can never be enough time to make me happy. If there had been a way for you to get better, I would of done it. But, I had to let you go, for i could not allow you to continue suffering, though it broke my heart to do so. Here is a poem I read: To lose someone you love is to alter your life forever...  This hole in my heart is in the shape of you...   No one else can fill it. Yes, my life has been altered from losing you, and the hole you left behind can only be filled when we are together again.  Your spot in my heart will always be just for you, my Har Har. I love you, and I always will. Always and forever. Sending you some hugs, cuddles, and kisses on the wind. Love, Mom
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Har Har, another week has gone by, and I miss you more and more every day. I never thought that i would lose you, I fully expected you to get better and come home. I guess that God decided it was time for you to come home to be in heaven with Him. My sister had a dream with you and Cuddles. i guess Cuddles paid her a dream visit, and you came along. You were both playing together. I guess in heaven you two are now friends, or perhaps you always were, but with you both being alpha cats, it was hard to set that aside/ I am glad that you are having a good time with all your friends, but I would so much want a dream visit from you. I miss my sweet boy so much. Though I can get through the day without crying so much, there is still that hint of sadness in my heart when I think of you no longer being with me physically. I still cry during the week, but not every day, though there are days when I am close to tears. I miss you being here. I know you are in a place full of sunshine, and that you are not sick any longer, nor have any kind of pain, and I am glad for that. It is just that I would love to hold you again, and hear your purr, and your meow. I would love to watch you do your cowboy walk when you was annoyed about something., that always made me smile, and the way you would shove things off the entertainment center. No, nothing could be up there, for that was your spot.  Yes, there is so many things I miss about you. Now, all I have is the memories you left me with, but, they cannot be held physically. I take them out, and they do make me smile. You was always such a character, and you knew what you wanted. But, you also had the patience to wait if you needed to. I love you, Harry and I always will. I am not sure how I will make it through the holidays with you and Jean being gone. I know that things change, and that we can't do anything about it, but it is so hard without you and her being here. I guess though that there are things you have to get used to whether you want to or not. I love you, Harry, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some cuddles, kisses, and hugs sent on the wind. Love, Mom 
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Happy 17th month Harry, I can't believe it's 17 months already Brenrae. It seems like yesterday that it was one year where does the time go? But it does not matter how long we still miss our beloved furbabies as they hold such a special place in our hearts. We know how much you miss your Harry and know he is free of pain. send your mom a special dream Harry she really, really misses you.... ((hugs))  maxsMandD
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Harry,

I started crying today because I found your needles that we used when you got your insulin shots. I guess that I had forgotten that I still had them. I miss you every day, and every day, I wish there had been a way for you to get better. I know that I will always miss you. To me, you was perfect, even though I know you had your flaws, but love does not care about that. To me, you were the best, and all that I ever wanted or needed in my life. You and Jeannie made my life whole. I don't know why people think you can just move on, and act like you never lost anything so precious. That is not how it is. Yes, though I can get through the days now, I still have those moments of sadness. But, I can also be thankful for the blessing I had of having you in my life. I love you, my handsome boy. I always will. I put those needles away, and hopefully I won't find them again. Until I see you again, here is some hugs, cuddles and kisses on the wind. Love Mommy. I will love you always and forever.
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Dear Brenrae:

Your heartfelt letters to Harry always bring tears to my eyes and also a smile.  A great love like that can never die and the memories will be with you forever.

Harry truly knew that he was loved and cared for.  That's what is most important. 

Wishing you peace and comfort and to angel Harry too.

Barb (Brandy's mom and now Miriam's mom too)
~forever~
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 #160 
Dear Brenrae, after Felix went to the bridge, I gave all of his syringes and unopened insulin to the rescue organization. After Oscar back in August, I did the same with his left over meds. Yesterday, I wanted to use my coffee grinder and when I brought it out of the cupboard, it was a mess - I had been using it to crush Oscar's pills so I could put his medicine in little capsules for him. I just stood in the kitchen and bawled like a baby, not because of the messy grinder but because I wanted Oscar and Felix back so badly.

I tell you this because I know there are some things we will never get over, even writing this makes me cry again, for Oscar, for Felix, for you, for HarHar. Take care, Harry is watching over you always,

Sharon

ps - How is Sandy doing?
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