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brenrae

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Hi Har Har,

Well, here it is, 6 years without you. I don't know how I made it. I remember how much I just wanted to die when you had to go on above without me. But, I made it through all the ups and downs of grief. It was a slow process, and, yes, I still have those bad days. I guess it will always be that way. How is it that a person can go on when part of their heart and soul is missing, but, here I am. I hope you enjoy your 6 year bridge day, with your friends, and have all the foods you enjoy. But, please take time out of you day to see me, send me a dream please. Or a sign, anything to let me know you are watching over me. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love mommy.

And here is 2 poems I did for you this year. The first one, Jean and I did together, for you always sent me butterflies. The second one, I was in one of my sad, missing you moods. I love you so very much, Harry, and I always will. Love, Mommy

  

Butterflies from Heaven

Butterflies from Heaven sent from above,
Butterflies from Heaven sent from those we love.

Butterflies from Heaven have a message for you.
Butterflies from Heaven say please don't be blue.

Butterflies from Heaven will give you a kiss
Butterflies from Heaven are a sign not to miss.

Butterflies from Heaven are messengers fair
Butterflies from Heaven let you know they're still here.

Butterflies from Heaven on gossamer wings
Butterflies from Heaven Will make your heart sing.

Butterflies from Heaven give you hope in the night
Butterflies from Heaven whisper it will be alright.

Butterflies from Heaven, from the garden on high.
Butterflies from Heaven, you are always by my side.

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Missing You

I miss you every day,
I wish you never went away.

No longer beside me,
As I lay in bed at night.

No more togetherness ,
For you are out of sight.

I feel the loneliness,
For you are not here.

I cry the tears,
As my soul screams from within.

I miss you so deeply,
I miss you my friend.

EliseT

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Dear Sweetest Angel Harry, 

Happy blessed 6th anniversary beautiful boy! Thank you for watching so closely over your mommy all this time since you went on to heaven. She feels your presence every day and even though the missing never stops, she is thankful for the closeness you still share in your hearts. 

Have fun today with all your pals, eating all your favorite foods, doing all the things you kids love to do and maybe a nice long nap in the sun in the afternoon...

Dear Brenrae, 

With God's help and Angel Har Har, you have made it through these six long years. We know that we can never truly lose them, don't we? That they are always by our sides, unseen and helping us to get past those tough days and onto the next and then the next until before we know it, years have passed and like Melanie says, every day is one day closer to our blessed reunion with the dear ones we love so very much... 

What beautiful poems for your angel...I know they mean everything to him...

(((Hugs)))

Elise, mom to Shiloh and Angel Buddy 
brenrae

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Thank you, Elise for helping me to remember my boy on his 6 year anniversary at the bridge. I am sure that your Buddy, and my Harry are great friends, and I am sure they have explored everywhere up there. I do believe that in heaven, they are all friends, and enjoy playing and napping and exploring together. It seems like it has been forever to me that I have seen and held Harry, but then there are times it seems like just yesterday. I know that one day we will all be reunited, and during the time apart, we will take care and love others, for is that not what our babies would want us to do? 

Brenda, always Harry's mom, now mom to Gabby, Jinx, and Sandy 
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You're most welcome, Brenda...and yes, I know without a doubt that are sweet babies are all great friends and enjoying life in heaven the way that God intended. Our babies are all about love so of course, they want us to show that example and live lives of love as we journey...touching others, being encouragers and lifting each other up when we need it the most. 

Sending hugs and blessings to you, Angel Har Har, Gabby, Jinx and Sandy
brenrae

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Hi Har Har,

It is 6 years and a week since you had to leave me. It has been a busy day, with doctor appointments for me and Jean, and then a dental appointment for me. Then, Jean had to go have an xray for her foot, and we went to eat at a new restaurant. I still sleep with your blanket, and I look at your pictures every night. I don't watch your videos very often, because it makes me sad. I do wish we had more of them though. I miss your meow, and your scent, and the way you would have to touch us when we were sitting next to you. I love you so much, and I miss you so much. Thank you for being my boy here on earth for 12 years, but, I would of liked to have had more time with you. Life has not been the same without you. I guess that is our it is. Yesterday, I had a customer who had lost her husband about a year ago. She said that she never realized how lonely it can be without someone you love. I understand that feeling. It is lonely when you lose a loved one, whether they have fur, feathers, or just skin. But, still we keep going, loving those that come into our lives, for that is what you would want. And, one day, when we least expect it, the grand reunion. And, what a day that will be. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy
brenrae

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Hi Har Har, well, on Thursday I have to have an echocardiogram due to having an enlarged heart, which I have had since I was a baby. But, the doctor wants to check and make sure the blood is flowing good. She wants to make sure that there is no chance of me going into congestive heart failure. She doesn't think there is anything to worry about, just a precaution. Please stay by me as I go through this, my sweet boy. I love you, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy
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Hi Har Har,

Well, I had the echocardiogram done, now just see what the results are. I think things will be fine, because if I was having any kind of problem, I would know it. I wish you was here still, but, you know that. I will always miss you, and you will always live in my heart. But, I do have to say, that having this done has me thinking, because I guess it is always a possibility. We are trying to catch some feral cats, and get them fixed. We were able to get one done. Please help us to get Tiger, because the lady we borrowed the traps from will have to get them tonight. Perhaps if you let him know we mean him no harm, we just want him to have a better life than he would as an intact male. It seems we have a lot going on this week, doesn't it? But, you are always on my mind, no matter what is happening. When the holidays come around, I take time out of the festivities to remember those that are no longer with us. I love you my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent on the wind. Love, Mommy 
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Hi Harry, How are you doing? Well, we have had a lot of storms this past week, and have lost power a few times because of it. Luckily, the storm we had today wasn't one that we lost power on.  I remember how they would scare you, but, you always watched us to see how we would react. I did the same thing that Roy did to you, to Nico. I came in just as thunder  rolled and lightning flashed. She ran, then came back and gave me a nasty look. I remember that you ran, and I was walking up the hallway. You ran into my leg, and kept trying to back up form the "danger" but, there was nowhere you could go, because my leg was there. Then, you realized it was Roy, and went sashaying up t him, with your cowboy walk, tail flowing back and forth, as if to say, I'm all right, I was just kidding. I also remember how it would scare you to have a bath. You would start hyperventilating. We had to let you have your front paws out. I also remember how you would hyperventilate when they would try to take your blood at the vet's. They had to get it from your leg, not your neck. But, I remember all the fun times we had, just walking around outside, and enjoying the air. I miss those times with you, but, when we are together again, you can show me all the good spots there is. I wish you was still here, I miss you, my sweet, handsome boy. I love you, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, kisses and cuddles sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy     
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I lost my beautiful Sara O'Hara one week ago today. I am inconsolable. I cry constantly and regret my decision to euthanize.

You tender letters to Harry help me confirm that though the uncontrolled sobbing and sense of anxiety may ease with time, the feeling of loss never will.

It is a gift and a curse to love an animal this much.

Cheryl
Sara's Mom
brenrae

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Hi Har Har,

Well, here it is, the fifth day of July. It is the day we got Gabby. Did you somehow knew we were meant to have her? Then a few months later you sent me Sandy. It seems like you was always watching out for me, wanting to make sure that I was happy. Did you see the fireworks from where you are? I feel they don't scare you now. I remember how you was afraid of thunder and fireworks, but, you would watch us to see how we reacted, and if we didn't seem apprehensive, then you was all right. I bet there is so many beautiful places to see where you are, and I want you to show me all your favorites. I still miss you, I always will. There is so many times that I wish you had never gotten sick, and that you had gotten to live a lot longer. Yes, I know that I would still grieve as bad, for no amount of time with you would have been enough. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love Mommy
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Hi Har Har,

How are you? I am sure that you can see that we are fostering some feral kittens. I am sure that you are glad we are, and that we are giving them a chance to be normal kittens. Unfortunately, we lost one, little Boots. I am sure that you met him as he crossed over, and you welcomed him to the family, for to me, he was. Please show him all the places you love, and let him know that he will never be forgotten. Though we had him for just a few days, he found a place in our hearts. That is the good thing about hearts, they can grow with the more we love. You know that I still miss you, for you are my boy, and you will always be my boy. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy. Did you send us these kittens so that we can help them? You always were such a caring boy, so empathetic. But, you was always jealous too. I do remember when Baby Kitty had kidney failure, how you let her have the limelight, and you stayed in the background. You knew she was sick, and needed more attention. Thank you, sweet boy. I also remember how you always left your canned food for her to eat, knowing she needed it more that you did. You was a big cat, at 18 pounds. and you had a heart of gold. I am sure that this heart of gold will open up to little Boots, and you will stay with him, and guide him on his new journey in his forever home. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love mommy. 

Always in my heart, and always a part of my soul  
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Hi Har Har,

How are you today? I went to the doctor today, and    I will be having surgery sometime in the future. Not really a major one, so nothing to worry about. I also need to see a heart doctor because my left ventricle isn't working like it should, and I need to see the heart doctor before I have surgery, and be cleared for it. I know any kind of surgery is scary, for there is a lot of things that can happen, lots that can go wrong. But, I have had surgeries before, and always came through them fine. I know that with you and your angel friends watching over me, I will be all right. Perhaps you can talk to your angel friends and ask them to help Slater. He isn't eating, and is having to be force fed by the lady that is helping us. Perhaps you can visit him, and help him to eat. For I know that you can talk to him, when we can't. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, mommy 
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Hi Har Har,

I am not sure what to write today. As you know, I still miss you. I am somewhat afraid about the surgery. It seems some abnormal cells was found, so I guess something needs to be done about that. We have noticed that the one female kitten walks like you. She has a cowgirl walk, and we always said you had a cowboy walk. And, yes, like you it is more pronounced when she is aggravated. Maybe I have nothing to worry about, but, it is in the back of my mind. What if things don't go good. I put on my happy face, but, still, it is there, like a dark shadow. We are still looking to buy a house, and maybe when we do, we may try fostering again, when we have more room, and can have a place better set up for them. We have enjoyed the three we have right now. Their antics, and watching them discover new things. I know we can't keep them, but, we would sure love to. Our friend has a friend that may be interested, but, she would have to fill out paper work first, and be cleared for adopting them. We hope they can got to the same home, since they have so much fun together. I know it may not be possible. Well, now I have told you all the things I have been thinking about, and all my worries. And, you know you are still in my thoughts. If I do have surgery, I won't be able to do my ritual like I do every night, and I feel like I can't sleep unless I do it. It helps me to say my I love you, and tell you good night as I kiss your picture. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love Mommy
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Hi Har Har,

Well, I saw the heart doctor today, and he wants me to do a PET stress test, and also go to a sleep center to see if I have sleep apnea. Seems like a lot of doctors, doesn't it? Right now, we don't have any of the kittens, because they developed a head cold, and wasn't eating like they should. We don't want to lose another one, so we sent them to the lady that has been helping us. She is home more, and can make sure they get the care they need at the right time. We are also still trying to catch the mommy cat, but, unfortunately, she will not go in, or she goes in just far enough to get the food. Or one of the neighbor cats, the same one, goes in. Perhaps you can somehow let her know we are trying to help her. Well, that is everything that is happening right now, except that I am thinking we may have to let Gabby join you up there to wait for us. I am trying to hold off, because I don't want to make a decision like that too soon. I wish you would come and see me in a dream, I sure do miss you. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, and I still wish you was here. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy
brenrae

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Hi Har Har,

I am writing this a bit earlier than I usually do on Thursday. I have a busy day a head of me, but, I would never forget my special boy. Yes, You are still special to me, and I still wish you was here. I always will. When you lose a special loved one, your life may go on, but, it is never the same. There is always an emptiness in your life that was once filled by the presence of another. But, in my heart you will always remain, even though you are no longer with me physically, I am sure that you spirit stays close, especially on my dark days. Yes, I still have those days, even after 6+ years, when the sadness just overwhelms me. All it takes is a trigger of some kind. Words spoken, a scent, finding one of your toys. But, I can now talk about you without the tears, most of the time. I always let people know how special you are. I tell them about your cowboy walk, especially when you was annoyed about something. You always found a way to make me smile. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Please stay with me during this time, as I face the possibility of surgery. I love you, and I miss you. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy
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Hi Har Har,

Well, today I go and have the stress test. I guess they give me a shot which speeds up my heart, just to see how it is doing. I am worried about it, because I have never had this type done to me, so I am going to have Jeannie go with me. We finally got the last cat we needed to have spayed, and she is in the bathroom recuperating. We have a bed in there, plus the carrier so she can hide from us. Hopefully all this running to this place and that place will be done soon. I know that you will stay close by, and watch over me, for, I feel you want to keep me safe. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy. I remember how feisty you was as a little kitten. I remember when you knocked the medicine dropper from my hand, and you was still a little, bitty kitten. Yes, you was a fighter, and I got to know you, and your wonderful personality. All your little quirks that made me smile, and the way you would love so completely. I miss you, my boy, always will. I love you, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, mommy
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Hi Har Har,

Seems like Thursdays have been busy lately with doctor appointments, and today, I had to take Jinx to the vet for her eye. She has an ulcer now, like Sandy had. Hopefully it won't take as long for her to heal, as it did Sandy. She also has an abscessed tooth which needs to be taken care of, so that will be next Thursday. They put us in room five, which is the room they always put us in when we came to visit you when you was there. It made me feel sad, as the memories came over me like a tidal wave. Each time I came, I was always so hopeful that you would be better, and that I could take you home. I always brought the carrier with me, just in case. But, it never happened, did it? It always seemed like my hopes got smashed, like glass against the rocks. I always tried to be happy when I was with you though, even though I was sad that you was sick, and not getting better. But, I also will always feel blessed that you got to be my boy for 12 years. Though I will always wish for more time. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy always and forever. Until we meet again, here s some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love mommy

P.S. No matter how busy my Thursdays are, as long as I live, I will always write to you, for I feel you see them, and you can feel the love I carry in my heart for you.  Love, mommy  
brenrae

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Hi Har Har, 

Well, today we had to take Jinx for what we thought was an abscessed tooth, turned out it wasn't, so the swelling in her cheek may of been due to her corneal ulcer. More medicine for her, and we have her in the bedroom because she is still loopy, and stumbling around when she walks. We had her in the carrier, but, somehow, she got it open. Hmm, another Houdini??? I have also had some scares. Had bloodwork done for cancer, but came back normal. They did it due to some other problems, and next week I go in for a biopsy. So, I guess for now, I will wait and see what comes back from the biopsy. The other night I was thinking about you and your treats. You loved when we would throw them for you to go after. I can remember how your eyes always glowed with happiness. It was always one of the best part of our day. That and going outside with you, and just walking around. Especially in the fall, and you would go after the leaves as they fell to the ground. The crisp, cool air always invigorated you so much, after the hot summer we always would have. For me, that was the best part of the year, that and spring, when the air was just right, not too hot, and not too cold. I hope you have those seasons you love there. I am sure you do. I miss you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. I love you so very much. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind.  Love, Mommy
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Hi Har Har, Today has been another busy day. I hope that all the doctor appointments will be done soon, and I hope that we will be done with taking our cats to the vet. Seems like every day, between work, and running here and there, there is no time to just sit and relax. Jean and I were talking about how each cat has there own unique scent. Your scent always reminded me of early spring when the buds are forming, and just the scent of the earth being reborn after a long winter. I always enjoyed your scent, for it filled me with hope. Sometimes I can smell it, though you are no longer with me. I recognize the scent as yours. Perhaps you are visiting, and somehow letting me know that you are still with me. You know, though I still miss you, it is easier for me to tell others about you. I want people to know what a wonderful boy you are. I sure am glad that I was chosen to be your mom, for, I know that it was God that led me to you. Perhaps He saw that I needed you, and that you needed me. Who really knows, I just know that it was meant to be. I miss you my boy, every day. That has not lessened any. I always will miss you. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy
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Hi Har Har,

I was thinking about all the things you and I experienced during your time with us. When I got you, you was only 3 months old, just a small, handful of kitten, and you grew into such a handsome, big boy. I was thinking about when we moved from Ohio, to Tennessee. A long drive, and due to a problem with the lights on the trailer, we stayed overnight in a hotel. The cab of the moving van we rented only had room for two carriers, and since we also had 2 other cats that was smaller, we put those two in the big carrier, and you had to squeeze into the little carrier. It made me sad to hear you, and your pitiful meows, even in your sleep. I knew it had to be uncomfortable for you. That was our first move, then we did another move, but, not such a long drive this time, and we had a yard. That was the last place you was here on this earth, the place I am still living in. I am planning on another move, if I can get everyone else ready to move. But, this time, it will be without you, and I feel sad when I think about it. Moving from the last place that you was alive, and you will not be going with me. But, you know, as I think about it, I know that though you are not here in body, you are always in my heart, and I will always have my memories of you, for they can never be taken from me. So, as we get ready for this move in the spring, I will have to remember that. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy  
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Hi Har Har,

Well, another Thursday. It has been a busy Thursday, with doctor appointments for everyone. But, at least it is done, and I can now relax. I still do not know if they are going to do surgery or not, and, if they are going to, I would rather they get it done. But, perhaps it would be better when it is a bit cooler, since it gets hot in here at times. I remember the times that the air didn't work, luckily it was summer time, and we could spend the time outside. It was still hot outside, but, there was a slight breeze. You loved going outside, so I always made sure you had time outdoors, though there was times I would of preferred staying in. But, you was and still are, my baby. I wanted so much for you to be happy, and I believe that you was. I wish you was still here, but, that is nothing new. As long as I am alive, I will always wish that. I don't wish for you to suffer though, I wish you was here, and healthy. That is the reason I chose to let you go on ahead. I didn't want you to suffer, though it caused me great pain to make the decision. I kept praying for you to get better. You read of miracles, but there was none for you. Soon after you went to heaven, I read a story of a cat that was severely sick, worse that you, a true story, and the cat got better, seemingly overnight. I cried when I read it, and all I could think was why couldn't there be a miracle for you. But, I guess that you had used all your lives form the time you was sick as a kitten, to the time you got the UTI, but, why could there not be one more life for you. I love you my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, kisses and cuddles sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy
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Hi Har Har,

Well, it is Thursday again. A few more weeks it will be my birthday, which falls on a Thursday, the same as it was when I had to let you go, my birthday feel on a Thursday, if I remember correctly. It seems like that time is a blur for me. Just trying to get through each day, each week, each month, and missing you the whole time. I still miss you, and I always will. Time seems like it goes faster now, than it did then. Perhaps because it was early in my grief. The path was a long and rocky one, with so many curves and mountains. It seemed like I would get over one, to find a deep chasm of despair, and then climb out again, until I am where I am now. Still missing you, but no more mountains to climb, and no more deep chasms. Each day I am here is one more day that I am closer to you. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy 
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Hi Har Har,

Well, yesterday we got some bad news. Your Aunt Laura, my sister, has breast cancer. It is in the early stages, stage 1. So now, she will have to have surgery to remove the mass. On Monday we will  go and hear about the options possible. So something else to worry about. It seems these past few months it has been one thing after another. Please have your angel friends watch over her, and help her to stay strong during this time. And please have Roy, Cuddles and you stay close to her when she has the surgery. You know that I still miss you, I miss you every day. I still wish you was here with me. Sometimes I just need my big boy to help catch my tears. You always brought calmness to my heart with your purr. I miss your purr, I miss you. I love you, my sweet,handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy
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Hi Har Har,

Well, we have a new kitten. His name is Smokey. He is about 4 months old. He belonged to our neighbors, but, they decided they didn't want him anymore, and threw him outside. We even took him over the second night he was out, and they said, no, he wasn't theirs, though we had seen them take him in the house at night. We took him in, and tried to find him a new home, but grew attached to the little guy. Sandy seems fine with him, and the other cats are all right with him. There is, of course some hissing and growling, but, not from Sandy, which was my main worry with him being a male. He does seem to have some food aggression, and I am hoping we can help him get over that. Did you lead him to us, knowing we would take care of him? I'm not sure how we are going to handle 6 cats though. But, I believe we will be losing Gabby soon. Her problems are getting worse, and you can tell she doesn't feel good, and is hurting. I just don't want to make the choice of letting her go. It was hard to with you. I caused my world to turn upside down. If I could of joined you then, I would of. I miss you still, and I always will. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, mommy  
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Dear Brenrae, 

That's so wonderful Har Har has sent you another baby to look after - your boy knows just the right loving home for Smokey. I'm sorry to hear about your Gabby...I hope she isn't suffering and in pain. It is so hard to see our babies growing older and having the challenges that come with that. 

I saw your message over on Buddy's thread...thank you so much for stopping by. I can't believe it is almost the 15th again. 

Take care...I know little Smokey must be so grateful for your love and kindness,

Elise, mom to Shiloh and Angel Buddy
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Hi Har Har,

Well, we had Smokey neutered today, and now he is a sleepy boy. We plan to get him chipped when he gets his next set of shots, so if he gets lost, we will get him back. Last night I wasn't able to look at your pictures, or do my ritual where I say good night to every one. I had to do a sleep study for sleep apnea, and apparently I do have it, and need to go back tonight to be fitted for a mask. But, i do say good night to everyone in my mind, before I drop off to sleep. It is strange not to have your blanket with me. Been a busy day, with taking Smokey for his surgery, and going to pay bills, and shopping. Then, I had to go do some pre-testing for a procedure I will be having next week. Thankfully tomorrow will be a more restful day, and I will be able to relax. I wish it would all be done, and back to what is now normal for me. It took me some time to get used to not having you here with me, almost a year, and to this day, I still hate that you are gone. I still miss you every day, and no matter how busy my life can be at times, I will never forget you. You will always be my sweet, and handsome boy. If you was still here, you would be 18. To me, you was still young, at 12, though people have said that is a good age for a cat. If I had my choice, you would still be here, and still be as you was when you was young. So curious, and so playful, but, I guess that time can be cruel, and we lose those we love, for that is the way with life. We still continue on, though pieces are missing, like an incomplete puzzle, and one day, when we are reunited, the puzzle will be complete, all the pieces filled in. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy   
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 #627 
Hi Har Har,

Yesterday I had my surgical procedure done, and just waiting to see what the results are. On Tuesday, Laura will be having surgery for a lump they found, which is cancerous. Today is my birthday, my second one without you here. It is funny how the time goes by, and there are times that it seems like yesterday, and other times, it seems like forever. Today is one of the forever days. I feel like it has been forever since I last got to hug you, and hear your purr, and your meow. I miss you, my sweet boy. But, that is every day. Though I put on my happy face, I still feel the sadness inside of you not being here. It has sure been a busy month though, with me and Laura getting tests and all for the surgeries. I am glad that I have you to watch over me, but, I also wish that I could be with you again. I guess that for now, it will be something to look forward to. Like the song says, don't give up on me, I will be there when my job is through. And, I still have those here that depend on me, so I will join you when I am done taking care of those still here. I don't know when that will be, but, I know you will be waiting to greet me as I step through the door, and into my forever home up above. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy 
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Hi Har Har,

I am missing you so much. You always brought peace to my life, along with love. There is so many times that I wish you was here, I miss your purr as I would lay my head on you. I was thinking last night that it has been a long time since I have had a dream visit from you. I was wondering if you had forgotten me, but, I don't think you would. Perhaps it has been busy, and you have been having loads of fun, which I am glad of, but, I would sure love to see you in my dreams. I miss you, my sweet boy. It is a stormy day here today, and we have been under a tornado warning, so I wanted to get this written to you just in case we lose power. Smokey is growing so fast, but still has things to learn. I thank you for sending these cats into my life, for they bring us a lot of laughter and joy. I still miss you though. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy
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Hi Har Har,

Another busy day for me. Jean had an appointment, and I had an appointment. My pathology report came back good, no cancer. Thank goodness for that. So now, just regular doctor appointments. It is going to be another rainy day for us. Seems like we have gotten a lot of rain this year. But, I am sure it is all sunny where you are. Sunny with a slight breeze, just the right temperature for you. I was thinking last night about how you let me know when you thought it was bedtime. You would sit and stare at me, until I got up and went to bed. Your inner clock always knew, and you liked having a set schedule. I stay up a little late now, later than when you was here. I guess it is still hard for me at times since you are gone. I love you so much, and I miss you every day. I know one day that I will see you again, but, it seems like it has been forever already. I love you my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, kisses and cuddles sent on the wind. Love Mommy
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Hi Har Har,

Well it is one week until Thanksgiving, and though I have a lot to be thankful for, I still miss my boy. I am thankful for the years we had, and I got to know you for the special boy you are. I was remembering all the things that made you special to me. I remember how you would play fetch, which is weird for a cat, but, you enjoyed it, and how your eyes would twinkle when we would throw your favorite treat for you to chase and catch and eat. I guess it was a bit like hunting. It was a regular routine for you every night. We had to start ordering them for you when we couldn't buy them anymore. But that was all right. We wanted you to be happy, and you was. And, you know what, I would do it all again, though I know the pain I would have in the end, when it came your time to go. Knowing you is one of the best parts of my life. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, but I sure wish you would send me a dream visit, or a sign, and let me know you are near. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy
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Happy Thanksgiving Harry,

This will be my sixth Thanksgiving without you. Life can never be the same without you here. I bet you are having a big dinner up there with Roy, Cuddles, and Baby Kitty, and Precious, and all the rest of our family that have gone before us. I bet that Roy did the cooking. Make sure you get plenty of turkey, for I remember how much you loved turkey. Your lips would quiver as you meowed excitedly when I would offer you some. There is so many memories of you, and though I would of loved to have made more, it was not meant to be. Since today is a day to be thankful, I am thankful for the years we did have. I am thankful that I went down that day, for otherwise I would never of known you. You was so little, and so sick. I am glad that I was able to keep you. You became my boy, and I was your mom. And I was so proud to be your mom. I love you so very much, and I always will. Your place in my heart is safe. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love mom, and Happy Thanksgiving my sweet boy. 
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Hi Harry,

I was talking to a friend of mine today. She had recently lost a couple of her cats, and I guess her mother told her, "At least they weren't a family member." But, to some of us they are family members, and she felt they were family members. We love them the same has we would a human member. Them being an animal does not diminish their worth in our eyes. We grieve their loss, and we feel the emptiness of their presence. I guess some people do not understand how we feel. But, I understand her sadness, and I feel for her, for I know how hard it is. It doesn't help that she also lost her husband around the same time, so triple grief for her. I can see the sadness in her eyes as we sit in the break room together. I wish people would understand our great our loss is, and not diminish it. I still miss you, I miss you every day, and there are times that I tell people about you, and the tears come to my eyes. Yes, that is the way of it, you always miss them, but they live forever in your heart, and you always will. I love you my sweet boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy 
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Hi Harry,

Well, here we are getting ready for the Christmas season. I remember the first one without you, and I just didn't feel the Christmas spirit. I sill struggled through it. This year I don't really feel the Christmas spirit either. I think because it has been hard with me having a procedure done, and my sister's surgery. Makes it hard to buy a few presents, but, I know presents aren't what it is about. I just don't feel the excitement and anticipation like I normally would. I don't know, maybe it will get better as the month moves on. But, I do remember you and past Christmases, and you would lay under the tree, and play with the ornaments, which is why I bought the kind that don't break. It was always fun putting the tree up with your help. You were so helpful as I put up the lights and the garland, and you would be playing with it. It made me laugh at how excited you would get. A new toy just for you.  I love you my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again here is some hugs, kisses and cuddles sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy 
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Dear Brenda,
Such sweet and precious memories of your Harry at Christmas.... I can see him laying under the tree, perhaps on his back batting the ornaments around.  For me, it is just not the same as it once was, the "joy' of the season left with my Lee Lee.  She always "helped" with the tree like your sweet Harry did, and she loved chewing up the cardboard rolls that the wrapping paper came on.... there would be tiny little bits all over the house... I miss her so... and I understand and feel for you my friend.

I hope you and your sister are doing better... and that you make it through this time as best you can. My wish for you is a special visit from your dearest little soul Harry.

Hugs,
Melanie 
~Lee Lee's Mama~
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