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cosesmom

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To all of you, my friends,
I see and feel your dis-spare and I wish there was something I could do to help you all. I know how hard it is when your family feels you should be better and move on or you have no one to give you a hug or a shoulder to cry on. I felt so alone a lot of the time after letting Termy go. I keep up on all the posts and sometimes I don't have the time to respond but I want you all to know I care and I am always here for all of you. Keith, Jackie, Diane, Kerry and Jada's mom please know that I am always here for you. I know it's hard to believe that someday we all get better. Each and everyday we heal a mil-second. All of our babies had a wonderful life with us and there isn't a single one of us that would have wanted it any other way. Let us all try to remember that our babies gave us so much and it's our turn to give them peace. Our hearts are broken and the pain really never goes away. I try to think of Termy up there at the Bridge playing with MissB, Brandy, Jada, Gizzy and Rosie. I imagine them all running and playing together and then after they have worn them selves out, they lay around and share stories of their time with us. I try to imagine the love pouring out and the adoring looks they give each other when they remember us. We need to stick together because we all loved them with a passion that the everyday person will never understand. Please let me know if there is anything I can do for anyone of you.
Love and doggie hugs
Termy's mom
(Bonnie)
JackieTeller

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Hello to all my friends...Keith (Miss B), Diane (Brandy), Bonnie (Termy) and Jada's Mom.

I cannot believe all the love, support and compassion I have gotten from all of you.  I went to Thursday's support group here and a gentleman had lost his female Jack Russell, Digger, age 18.  She passed in her sleep while he was out of town.  I gave him the link to this site and hope he joins our little group.  

I am also reading a book called, "Saying Goodbye to Your Angel Animals" by Allen and Linda Anderson.  That is helping alot.  

This morning I totally lost it.  Even though I say I won't ever get another dog there was a dog (young Jack Russell Terrier) that had been abandoned at a park.  Her name was Rosie!  She isn't pure white but she is in the Tri-Cities area (Kennewick, Pasco, Richland WA).  They need someone to foster her.  

I just can't do it.  I cried....again.  

I couldn't do this without you guys.  Keith thank you for your phone number.  We are all here for each other.  I am finally spending less time in bed and more time doing activities.  

I love you all.  My phone number is ***-***-****.  Keith, I know you are in South Carolina.  It would be nice to know where you live Diane, Bonnie and Jada's Mom.  I give you all a big long hug from Seattle, Washington.  



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diane772

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Dear Jackie, I am so glad you are doing abit better. Small steps is all we can do. I live in Rochester, New Hampshire. I think I will look for that book, thank you for the title and authors. I also could not do this without help from all of you. You will always have a friend in NH. Love to all of you Diane
cosesmom

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Jackie, if you are meant to get another pupper, Rosie will have a paw in it. As Diane said take small steps. I won't adopt another unless Termy has something to do with it.  It's just so sad (and I know why you lost it) that there are people out there that think dogs are a throw away, I wish there was a way that they all could be punished. What truly gives me faith in mankind is that there people like us that love them to the end of all time. I wish I had the means to give every unwanted love covered in fur a forever home. I guess one can wish.
So, we have:
Kieth in SC
Jackie in Seattle, WA
Diane in Rochester, NH
And
Bonnie in Erie, PA
Now all we are missing is Jada's mom
It seems that we are all over the US but never fare enough to not be here for one another.
Love to all my dear friends
Termy's mom (always)
Bonnie
Barefoot1

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Hey
Yes we are from all over,but the loss we have all felt is the same. When its been a bad day like today i wish i could just come home and hold MISS B. More bad luck has hit,it seems like everyday it cant get worse then it does. If i just had B i could handle the rest. It makes losing her even worse.sorry ro vent. Love yall,keith.
cosesmom

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Keith,
I am so sorry that you are having a bad day. Trust me, it will get better. You will have a time when the good does out way the bad. I too had a tough Saturday and wish so very much for Termy to be here so I could hold him and cry. Instead I talked to him and told him I wish we were together and I could handle the bad things that came my way but sadly I couldn't and cried. It seems that we depend on the love of our fur kids to handle the bad days. You can vent all you want and we will listen. I know it'll never be the same talking to us but it can't hurt.
Love and doggie hugs and fond memories of MissB
Termy's mom
JackieTeller

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Hi Keith, 

No need to apologize!  We all need to vent and we're all here for each other.  I am sorry you are having a bad day.  I took a nap this afternoon and today is the first day I haven't cried a river.....but the day ain't over yet.  Miss B is there for you in spirit....picture her snuggling in your lap right now.

Well, job interviews  start this week and I am somewhat nervous about that but I need a job.  I understand coming home drained without your little baby to greet you.  

A big hug to you Keith.  You are a kind, compassionate man and Miss B, in time, will direct you to another Miss B.  It won't be the same but you will love her/him just as much.

I have been focusing on Lulu and she is really blossoming since I have started to come out of my major depression.  I hate to admit that she graciously took a backseat to Rosie since I got her 2 1/2 years ago.  Rosie was always top dog and Lulu was very patient and waited.  She's not Rosie but I love her dearly and she has been a major support for me.

Your friend in Washington, 

Jackie
diane772

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To all my new friends, you people are wonderful. You feel the same way I do with good days and bad days. You all touch me with the way you get by and the hopes that things will get better. Just when I think I am getting better I have a bad day or moment. Yesterday was one of those days and it gives me hope to come here and read your thoughts. Jackie good luck on your interviews and I am very happy for you and Lulu. Keith I only wish you the best. I want to believe that someday I will have another fur baby but I will wait until it is right, Brandy will help in my decision and I believe that. You all are always in my thoughts and prayers. Love Diane
Barefoot1

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Hey ladies,
Just had to say good luck with your interviews Jac
kie. Having a job and keeping busy may be just what you need. You know your making Lulu very happy. Bonnie i need to get to the place that you are at. Its just B was my rock. She sat there and turned her head just like she was trying to understand me. Its just really hard without her. Bonnie of course Brandy will help you with another dog. She knows how much love you have to give. Besides we are all dog people and there is alot of dogs that need the love you have. In time though in time. Good to have freinds from all over the country. Thanks ladies,Keith.
Barefoot1

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Ive been reading some of the other post in the grieving section (i think thats the name) and MISS B's last day came rushing back. My angel my love needs to be put to sleep i never wanted to have to make that decision. No matter i am faced with it now. I cant let her go i love her to much. I whispered over and over in her ear B your daddy loves you very much. Then the vet slowly took you feom me,luckily you really didnt know what was happening. We waited (i didnt know we could go back there) then i was told it was over. The love of my life the joy in my day was gone,gone forever. I still love her with all my heart. Damn it B i want you back. I cant stop thinking of you today i dont want to stop thinking of you. You little ball of fur goodbye my dear my sweet little baby girl. I cant stand life without you. Goodbye honey until i can see you again all my love your daddy.
diane772

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Dear Keith, I know you are having a bad day and for that I am very sorry. We have all been there which doesn't help at all but it lets you know we understand. I have often thought it is not fair that we have to play god with our babies. God knows when it is time for us humans to pass on but we have to decide that with little ones that are so close to us.But I keep telling myself that in a way God did let us know it was time. It is the only way I can cope with the grief. You will carry that love for Miss B forever as I will for Brandy. Please take comfort that they are happy, free of pain and will see us again. Your friend always Diane
JackieTeller

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Hi Keith, 

Please take some comfort in that it was Miss B's time.  She was called home to the Rainbow Bridge to comfort all the other children.  My grief comes and goes in waves.  For humor, I stopped wearing makeup, especially mascara, because I didn't know when I would break down and cry.  

Well, today before my interview, I had to put on makeup.  As I was leaving I have a picture of Rosie on my refrigerator.  I took one look at it and had to say STOP! otherwise I wanted to cry and there goes the makeup job.  

It is very, very hard.  I am really stressed with this job hunting.  Plus I keep getting reminders for checkups for Lulu and KitKat from the vet clinic where I feel they should have been more on top of Rosie's heart condition.  But you know what?  Rosie talks to me and she said, don't blame Dr. Martin mama.  He did his best and it was my time to go.  Now here come the tears.  It is incredibly hard.  I loved Rosie so so much.  

You spared Miss B any further pain and you will see her again, I promise.  One plus of living in a big city is the support group at the Humane Society here that I go to every Thursday evening.

Take comfort in the fact that Miss B KNOWS how much you loved her and she will always be with you... in spirit.  

Your friend,
Jackie

JackieTeller

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Hi Keith, 

Please take some comfort in that it was Miss B's time.  She was called home to the Rainbow Bridge to comfort all the other children.  My grief comes and goes in waves.  For humor, I stopped wearing makeup, especially mascara, because I didn't know when I would break down and cry.  

Well, today before my interview, I had to put on makeup.  As I was leaving I have a picture of Rosie on my refrigerator.  I took one look at it and had to say STOP! otherwise I wanted to cry and there goes the makeup job.  

It is very, very hard.  I am really stressed with this job hunting.  Plus I keep getting reminders for checkups for Lulu and KitKat from the vet clinic where I feel they should have been more on top of Rosie's heart condition.  But you know what?  Rosie talks to me and she said, don't blame Dr. Martin mama.  He did his best and it was my time to go.  Now here come the tears.  It is incredibly hard.  I loved Rosie so so much.  

You spared Miss B any further pain and you will see her again, I promise.  One plus of living in a big city is the support group at the Humane Society here that I go to every Thursday evening.

Take comfort in the fact that Miss B KNOWS how much you loved her and she will always be with you... in spirit.  

Your friend,
Jackie

JackieTeller

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Hi Keith, 

Please take some comfort in that it was Miss B's time.  She was called home to the Rainbow Bridge to comfort all the other children.  My grief comes and goes in waves.  For humor, I stopped wearing makeup, especially mascara, because I didn't know when I would break down and cry.  

Well, today before my interview, I had to put on makeup.  As I was leaving I have a picture of Rosie on my refrigerator.  I took one look at it and had to say STOP! otherwise I wanted to cry and there goes the makeup job.  

It is very, very hard.  I am really stressed with this job hunting.  Plus I keep getting reminders for checkups for Lulu and KitKat from the vet clinic where I feel they should have been more on top of Rosie's heart condition.  But you know what?  Rosie talks to me and she said, don't blame Dr. Martin mama.  He did his best and it was my time to go.  Now here come the tears.  It is incredibly hard.  I loved Rosie so so much.  

You spared Miss B any further pain and you will see her again, I promise.  One plus of living in a big city is the support group at the Humane Society here that I go to every Thursday evening.

Take comfort in the fact that Miss B KNOWS how much you loved her and she will always be with you... in spirit.  

Your friend,
Jackie

diane772

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Dear Keith, I hope you are doing alittle better today. I had a few bad moments today but I got through them. Maybe things are getting better, or at least I hope so. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I just had to check in to keep myself going, this place is so special to me. Have a good night Diane
Barefoot1

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Diane,
Yes i am finally doing alittle better i hope you are as well. Jackie thanks for the words about MissB. I hope the job hunt is going well. Thanks to all of you for the support. Have a great night. Keith
JackieTeller

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Hi Keith, Diane and Bonnie, 

I'm sorry my message appeared three times.  It has been a really stressful past three days.  The interview process is exhausting and time-consuming, 2 hour interviews.  I am drained.  As a result, my emotional state has been drained and I miss my Rosie.  I know grief comes in waves but I have really, really missed her the last couple days.  More tears.  I have her bed in my bedroom but I think I will have to move it because when I get ready for bed at night, I see that empty bed and it makes me so sad.  But I want her next to me.  Lulu has been there for me as well as Kitkat, but they aren't my Rose.  My heart yearns for that little pooch.  Today, no job interviews.  I need to take care of myself.  It has been go go go and my emotions are shot.  So for today, I will plant some flowers and take a test for this one company.  I am so torn over the job situation with these three different jobs and of course the recruiters are hounding me non-stop.  I think I'll have a good cry and pull myself together.  I'm afraid the bed is going to have to be moved.  I'm so sorry Rosie.  I miss you so much.  Your Mama

diane772

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Dear Jackie, I'm sorry emotions are taking over but try getting a good rest. Rosie is with you in everything you do, she will always be in your heart. You saying you have to move her bed makes me realize how I have been thinking of Brandy's bed. I can't seem to move it, it gives me comfort thinking how she is still sleeping there. Stay strong, get some rest and spoil yourself alittle. Let Lulu and Kitkat love you a little extra. Your friend Diane
Barefoot1

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Friends,
Jackie hope you did have a good cry. It could never hurt. Yall still have your babies beds where they always were so do i. I have Miss B's bed right by the french door i don't want to move it. I can bare to move it. On another note Jackie your phone # was marked out. If you want text your number to my phone #. To move around even more i hope you are doing well Bonnie and Diane. Have good nights,Keith.
cosesmom

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To all my dearest friends,
I am sending you love and peace today and everyday. I finished putting the remaining flags in my memory garden yesterday of my other fur kids. I hope to post a picture soon.
I hope all of you are getting better and life hasn't sent you in a tail spin.
Today, I miss my sweet boy so very much and found myself crying. I usually only shed a tear but today it was bad. I need him to tell me that the curves life is throwing me will get better. I know as you do that when we are down and we don't have our babies it's harder.
I am reading a book about getting signs from our babies as angels and I hope I can see signs that Termy is sending me. I will keep you all posted.
Love and doggie hugs
Termy's mom
JackieTeller

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Hi Bonnie (Termy's Mom), 

Grief is like a wave that comes and goes.  Last week was really stressful with the job hunting.  I have been really stressed.  As for signs, what happened to me earlier is surreal...

Last night I was feeling restless.  Lulu  kept looking up at a corner of the room.  I strongly felt Rosie's presence.

Almost four years ago, I had to put down my cattle dog/coonhound.  Long story, but Buster attacked people and I had to have him euthanized in Tennessee.  I spread his ashes in Virginia.  When I got back to Washington, I had a memorial for him on the trails where I used to walk him.  I found a blue robin's egg on the trail and a goody hairband.  I always used to ask him if he wanted a "goody".  I released a balloon in his memory and it was gone.

Today I still wasn't feeling right.  I felt that Rosie was trying to send me a  message.  I almost felt ill.  I came home from service and took Lulu for a walk.  We were planning on going further but Lulu is overweight and so we turned onto an abandoned side road that I always used to take Rosie and Buster on.  Halfway down the road I found a blue robin's egg.  This is the first egg I've found since Buster died.  Then a little further down I found a single blue feather.  The significance to me is that she was saying she was free and with Buster.  I cried all the way home.  As I was walking, two bald eagles flew into the tree on the side of the road and sat there while I walked by.  I believe it was a sign from Rosie and Buster.  When I got home, I have a ceramic heart that I placed on the little memorial stand I have for Rosie.  The feather is the same color blue as the blue ceramic heart!  I took the feather and put it on Rosie's decorated paw print.  I am in awe.  Also, as I got home a lady was walking a cattle dog down the sidewalk that looked like Buster!

Your friend in Washington....Rosie's and Buster's mama, Jackie

diane772

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Dear Jackie, you are right, they are always with us. I am so happy for you, you got a sign and you realized it. So many of us just miss the signs or explain them away. I have become more aware of things around me. I pray that all of our new friends are seeing the signs around them. For me they have been very small signs but I truly believe Brandy is letting me know she is happy and thinking of me. You are so lucky to have Lulu, she helps you see the signs because she loves you and wants to help. My cat Pearl knows when I need extra love or a laugh to make me feel better. Animals are true heroes. Your friend always Diane
Barefoot1

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Good afternoon,glad everyone seems to be doing good. I have tried to just put Miss B's death as far back in my mind as i can. I do want a sign that shes happy,that she still loves me. But it still just hurts to much. I hope everyone continues to get better and that someday i will find out how B is doing. Hope everyone continues to see signs from their babies. Hope yall have good days,Keith.
diane772

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Dear Keith, Don't push the terrible memory too far back, I know it is not easy but you need to feel those feelings. Look for the little signs, things that you really love but don't normally see. For instance I was watering my flower garden and a hummingbird came over and just darted through the spray of the hose for several minutes. Now I love hummingbirds and always loved just watching them. Some people would say it was just being a hummingbird and I was there at the right moment but I believe Brandy sent him to me to let me know she was there and thinking of me. It is the little things like that that make me believe. Never doubt that Miss B loves you and is watching over you. Embrace the small things, my prayers are always with you. Diane
cosesmom

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Dearest Kieth,
Diane is right. You need to remember but not dwell on Miss B' s death. I too (for awhile) dwell ed on Termy's last and final day on earth. It tore me up but I have come to peace with my decision to let him go. I have let go of all the negative thoughts and the deep guilt. My counselor stressed that I needed to delete the negative and replace them with good memories. It's hard because guilt and pain keep it up front in our minds. Don't get me wrong I still have fleeting thoughts now and again about the guilt of taking his life but I know deep down I made the best decision for Termy at the time.
She is also correct about signs. They sometimes are so suttle that we don't see them as signs but our angels send us signs all the time. In the formation of clouds, birds that you see, ladybugs, feathers, light orbs, and feeling our pets. I am reading a book called "signs from our pets in the afterlife". It makes me believe that our babies are all around us, we just need to be very opened minded about it. The hummingbird message that Diane received means " they are in essence transporting their unconditional love. This detail symbolizes LOVE conquering anything, even death. I am here with you. After my spiritual reading I am so very open minded about our pets spirits especially after what I was told. Hold onto the thought that MissB is there communicating to you, you just need to recognize them. The book also says to ask for signs but you must believe.
I know Termy is with me, always, as is Miss B is with you. Never doubt that. Their love lives on even after death.
Let me know if you decide to read this book. I think it may help you.
Love and doggie hugs
Termy's mom
Barefoot1

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Bonnie, yes i would love to read that book, i guess i can get it off amazon. That maybe just what i need i wish i could tell if missB was trying to reach me. Im not greedy i just want one sign saying shes ok. Yall are right i probably shouldnt bury the memory of her last horrible day. I should only think of the great times and that's about all we had. Coming home late after working a late night football game or a late overtime detail she was always running around the front yard sometimes it was 2 in the morn,but she was just so happy to see me and i her. Actually we had very few bad times or at least that i rememeber. So then why are the bad times what i rememeber? i still see her little body hurting and her eyes showing the pain she was in. Lord have mercy please show me shes ok ui cant take much more of this not knowing. Maybe thats it maybe shes tormented, maybe shes mad at how she died. Maybe ill never be allowed to know. Thank you though thank all of you. i love you baby B. keith

cosesmom

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Dear Keith,
Yes you can get the book off of Amazon. I ordered it and downloaded to my Kindle E reader. I just finished it and it has opened my eyes. I did ask (as the book says) for messages from Termy. I asked him to send me feathers as a message and when I walking his sister today, on the side walk right in my path was a feather. I thought it was black but when I turned it over it was a Blue Jay's feather so it was blue with a white tip so I looked up the meaning of the color and here is what I read.
Blue: I' m being called to work with Spirit. My psychic abilities are unfolding
White: (because of a white tip) your angel reminds you they are there
Black: (because the back was black) your pets spirit is protecting all of your energy while I awaken to the spirit.You are truly loved.
when a feather appears your pet is there and is always with you and is trying to communicate.
I just wanted you to know that when they leave their physical body their spirit remains. Miss B is with you and always at your side. Ask her for a specific sign, like I did from Termy. You just may be happily surprised. It could be pennies, in the clouds, a certain bird, a dragon fly, or colored orbs. The sky's the limit. This book will give you hope and peace.
Love and doggie hugs
Termy's mom

diane772

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Dear Termy's mom, What a wonderful experience to pass along. I hope everyone feels great hope like I do. I love knowing that all of you are feeling the way I do, it gives me such peace knowing Brandy is still with me. I still have my bad days as I am sure I always will but I talk to Brandy knowing she is listening and it makes me feel better. Thank you again for helping me Diane Brandy's mom
JackieTeller

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Good Morning My Dear Friends Bonnie, Diane and Keith

Well, today is sunny.  I enjoy reading all your posts and can so connect.  I truly believe Rosie is still with me and so is Buster.  The signs I got with the feather and robin's eggs show me they are still here.....but God I do miss Rosie so much and Buster.  

Well, I was going through my phone looking for pictures of Rosie and I found a video I had recorded the night before she died.  In it I am talking to her and she is keenly listening to what I was saying...but in the background you could hear her heavy panting.  I know I did the right thing for Rosie and set her free to frolic in the clouds with Buster but that doesn't mean it was easy.  

I don't look at it like I killed her.  I ended her suffering.  She couldn't do the things she loved and I set her free.  But I so wish I could have had her a little longer.  

Yesterday being the Fourth of July, I look back to last year's Fourth.  She was already going deaf so the fireworks didn't bother her as much, but in the past it was horrible.  Her anxiety was so bad even with my trying to block every sound..it didn't work.  She would have horrible anxiety attacks and I would be up all night with her.

So my dear little angel, Rosie, you didn't have to endure the pain of the Fourth of July.  Or the thunderstorms that would send you hiding under the bed.  

I love you all and let's continue to keep in touch.  My heart is heavy with the loss of Rosie and my greatest fear is that in time her memory will fade and I don't want that.  

Your friend, 
Jackie

Barefoot1

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Jackie,you are so right i do not want Miss B's memory to fade. I need her memory as much as i needed her when she was alive. Its tough not having somebody that was so special. But i want to read Bonnies book and learn to look for her. Thanks again ladies friends always Keith
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Keith,
Yes please read this book.We all need something to believe in. I truly believe that our loved ones on four legs really never leave us.They love us to much to ever leave us for good. Here is the info for the book.
" Signs from our pets in the afterlife, Identifying messages from pets in heaven" By: Lyn Ragan.
You can move that painful memory and put it at the back of your mind. Just replace it with a good one and before you know it you will be able to start to heal. I had to replace the last images of Termy in my arms with wonderful memories of him because it was tearing me apart. I wanted to end my life to be with him but I believe that we can't go to heaven if we take or own life. The last thing I wanted was to never be reunited with him. Try hard to find something to hold onto. I guess you can tell that I do this (Finding something to hold onto) so I can move forward and close the gap for when I can be with Termy. No, I am not healed and might not ever be but I know Termy wouldn't want me to be so sad all the time. After all he gave me love and joy and there was no room in his book for sadness.

Diane,
I know and believe that Brandy is with you, always. We will always have our bad days but I truly hope that someday the good will out way the bad. Knowing and believing we have them at our sides and not just believing that they are at the Bridge waiting for us. It's nice to know that they are still looking out for us. God knows we still need to be taken care of, especially now. Brandy lives in spirit and walks beside you. Love never dies.

Jackie,
Rosie is in a place where fireworks and thunder will never scare her again. I know you are like me and would gladly have her back to sooth her fears. Rosie's memory will never fade, this I promise. My soul mate Dakota passed away over 18 years ago and I have never forgotten him. I still shed a tear now and again when I think of him with a heavy heart. He was only six years old when I lost him and he died alone at he vets at night with no one to hold him and tell him was loved. I still have the guilt about that but I know he is around me and sharing space with Termy and taking care of me just as Rosie and Buster is taking care of you. The love that grew from our relationship with them will live forever, because love never dies and we don't forget.

I will try hard to think positively and keep all of you hopes and dreams alive. After all it's all we have and those wonderful memories.

love and doggie hugs
Termy's mom
diane772

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Termy's mom, Thank you very much for your support. It means so much to come here and find words of encouragement, they make my days much easier. You are right, I will never forget my love Brandy. Diane
KerryGizzysMomCrying

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Hi my friends.
I am sorry I have been so quiet, I have started a new venture and the last few weeks have been very hectic. I will read through all the posts I have missed, and can't wait to show you guys a beautiful little vial I have had made to carry Gizzys ashes...
Love and strongs to you all. KGMC
Barefoot1

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Hey,
Bonnie,i too thought about leaving this world to be with B but as you said i wouldnt go to heaven and therefore never see her again. I dont think i could ever forget Miss B and i hopei dont. Yes itis nice to come here when times are tough, and they are usually tough. Kerry glad to hear from you and glad you have kept yourself busy. Love you guys, Keith
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Hey Gals, kerry see you on facebook your doing fantastic.Those little pups are very lucky to have someone like you. for the rest of my friends it was several days ago and very short but i finally saw B in a dream. We were playng with her tennis ball in the floor we were having a blast. Then she ran off for a little while but she came back. Then we were out in the yard and she was getting ready to chase a squirrel and just then i couldnt find her. I woke up before i ever found her but she looked so good like she was 5 yrs old again. She ran like the old B it was great. Maybe she is ok maybe she isnt mad maybe she forgives me. I hope yall are doing good Diane and jackie hope your both doing better. I hope Rosie,Brandy,Termy and Miss B are having fun with their restored bodies and free spirits. Thank yall, Keith.
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Hello everyone, I was just sitting here and thinking of Brandy so of course I came here. I always feel closer to Brandy when I am here. I hope everyone is doing as well as can be expected. Thank you for being here and listening. Have a good night. Diane
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Dear Keith, I am so happy for you. Miss B is there for you, showing she loves you, understands her little body could not go on and now she is free.Take care Diane
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Hello to all my friends,

It is so good to post here for me because all of you understand.  Rosie's rose is blooming with five flowers that smell so sweet, just like my little Rose.  I have had my ups and downs lately.  In another week it will be 2 months.  God, I still miss my little princess so much.  But I have to take care of Lulu and KitKat.  I had a horrible dream the other night.  I've been dealing with some personal stuff and I dreamed I was looking for Rosie and in the dream this voice shouted, she's dead!  God, it was awful.  I think it was part of all the other stuff I've been dealing with.  I don't know if I'll ever get over this.

My estranged daughter is somewhat back in touch with me.  She has a 19 year old cat with end stage renal failure.  The poor cat is living in a bathtub, incontinent, and in pain.  I tried to explain the humanity in letting her go (she brought it up first about the vet coming to put Monkey down but she just can't do it) to a better place.  Afterwards I didn't hear from her for two days and I feared I turned her off....like Mom is telling me to kill my cat...even though the poor cat is suffering.  However, she texted me this morning and it seems everything is allright.  Her vet told her the cat isn't suffering!

Well, Lulu and I are going on a road trip for 5 days next week.  We are doing the Northern Cascades scenic drive...a total of 440 miles around Washington State.  I am ending it in Leaveworth (Bavarian town in Cascades) for my birthday on the 20th.  A friend is watching KitKat so this will be my treat to myself.  

Thank you all (Bonnie, Diane, Keith)  Big Hugs from Seattle!
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Keith,
Isn't it wonderful to have hope. Everything I read says that our grief and guilt keeps our babies away because they can't get through to let us know that they are still here and loving us. I know letting go is hard, I've gotten better but there are times when it hits me but I try to push them away and focus on loving Termy and the great times we had together. After asking Termy for a specific sign (feathers), I have had five just show up in the most unexpected places, the last one at work today. I smiled and thanked Termy. Weather it's a coincidence or a true sign from Termy, doesn't matter. I need to believe, just as you do and all of us here. Keep believing!!!!
I just read a book called "Reflections" and it's a story told from a dog's point of view about loving and death, that they never leave us. There was a few lines that got to me and I would like to share them with  my friends.
If you only listen,
You would hear my voice inside your heart
Telling you I never left
Telling you I never will

Here is another one:
I loved you at first sight,
I loved you at last glance,
Look up what heaven means
and mourn for me no longer!
For Heaven is where I am

My new life is amazing!
I now know everything I am
And everything I've ever been
Without gravity to hold me down,
I move faster than my train of thought
My own thoughts carry me along.
I think of you a lot and when I do
I'm there with you.

Believe in our babies and free ourselves of guilt so they can come to us in our dreams.
Thank you for caring and supporting me when I need friends.
Love always
Termy's mom

diane772

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To Termy's mom, thank you for the lines from the book. It helped me feel better. To Jackie, have a wonderful trip. I am so happy for you taking time for yourself. Everyone have a good night. Diane Brandy's mom
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