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Barefoot1

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Simple Bonnie love it. I feel Miss B's presence all the time. You nailed it. And Diane I can just see Brandy jumping on a pile of leaves having a ball. Jackie I hope you are doing good hang in there friend. We are busy with this storm but I still need yall to lean on thank. Keith.

diane772

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Bonnie, I love your poem. It brought tears to my eyes but it also made me smile deep in my soul. I can feel Brandy with me always.  To Bonnie, Keith and Jackie thank you for being my friends. Love you all Diane
Barefoot1

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Hey,
Sitting outside waiting for this rain,of course the sun is out and beautiful, but I'm sitting where I sat when I brought Miss B outside for what came to be her last bathroom break. Here come the emotions again that day is so fresh I my mind especially when she tried to wag her tell when she saw her uncle Mark.she loved to greet people. I still miss you so very much my baby please be good. And nothing truly seems the same since you,very left. You have left me so lost. I love you B
Barefoot1

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hey friends, well the storm at least around here was nothing but a little rain and wind. So life is getting back to normal,Bonnie we are with you these next few days,and always really. i know how much you miss Termy we all feel he same lose. one of Miss B's vets called the other day to remind me of her upcoming appointment. It was terrible but yesterday i got a letter from the office saying how they knew how much i miss her because they saw how i tried to take care of her. in the letter were some seeds they said were for me to plant for my girl. i will be planting those seeds as soon as i can. Again Bonnie remember we are with you and Termy. Thanks guys.
JackieTeller

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Hello Friends, 

It has been a busy week.  I interviewed for a job and have heard nothing....else that they "really like me."  I am going to hang in there and have faith.

Keith, I went to the psychic and left.  He was a sham.  He started disrespecting (in my opinion) people from the South and that was it.  So, no healing words from Rosie.  I also had an encounter from my previous vet.  LuLu got pink eye and I took her to a different vet but contacted the old vet to get the last refill for LuLu's anxiety medication.  I broke down in the office and told them how disappointed I was with them on how they treated Rosie at the end.  I had Dr. Martin as a vet for 10 years and he never even called to offer his condolences.  I told them that really hurt me and I wouldn't be coming back there.  Then I went next door to the "Beware Dog" "junkyard" and fed an old german shepherd some doggies treats and petted him for quite awhile.  So much for the "Beware Dog" sign.  It really hurt and I cried alot but I had to let them know how I felt.  

LuLu is doing much better and is wanting me to walk her but I wanted to contact all of you.

Bonnie, I feel for you on the 18th for Termy.  We should both release our balloons at the same time.  An entire season has gone by without my Rose and I miss her so much!  It is raining outside now and the leaves are starting to change color and fall from the trees.  God my Princess will be gone 4 months on the 18th. I am very sad about that.

Diane, I can see Brandy with her floppy ears.  Rosie loved this time of year because of all the smells.  I know it was her time to go but it isn't easy for those she left behind.  I will be cutting the final flowers from her rose soon.  There were four roses on her rose and I think they were for Miss B., Termy, Brandy and Rosie.  They will be the last roses of the season.  

Blossom and KitKat are getting along much better.  I am glad.  I pray for all of us as we follow life's path without our loved ones and Rosie was loved very much...as I'm sure Miss B., Termy and Brandy were.

Love to you all and thanks for being here for me.

Jackie in Seattle where it's spitting rain but walk a couple blocks and the sun can be out!






diane772

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Keith, I am glad you came through the hurricane ok. You were in my thoughts alot. Jackie, you write such thoughtful notes. You always make me smile and cry at the same time. I'm glad you had the moment with your vet, they need to learn that our pets are our children and need to show respect. I'm sorry the physic did not work out but I believe in my heart that you are sure what Rosie would say to you. She loved you all her life and still loves you. She wants you to be at peace and to find happiness. I love that you showed kindness to the german shepherd. I am very happy that Blossom and Kitkat are getting along. My prayers and thoughts will be with Jackie and Bonnie especially on the 18th. My heart aches for all of us. Love to all my friends Diane p.s. I still miss Brandy so much it hurts
cosesmom

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To my friends,
Thank you all for your input about my poem. I hope I will get some peace when I release it on Tuesday. You all can use it for yourselves too. I wrote it from my heart and I know it's exactly what we all are feeling about Miss B, Brandy and Rosie.
Jackie,
I am planning on releasing my balloon about 7:30 on Tuesday evening you are more than welcome to join me in Seattle. I would really have loved to let it go at 8:20 in the morning because this is when Termy officially left me but I have to go to work. But in all aspects that same evening at 8:30 is when I saw Termy's star and the lantern and I have always gone out at 8:30 to talk to Termy and get some peace. I am so sorry that your vet was not as compassion at as he should have been. Shame on them, if it wasn't for us they wouldn't have a job. And shame on them for only thinking of the money. Maybe the criteria for being a vet should be "you have to be an animal lover". But I am glad that you said your peace and got it off your chest now you can close that chapter in your life. There's nothing there for you now. I am also happy that you befriended the "old German Shepard" next door and showed him that there is good people in this world. The leaves are changing here to and I always loved this time of year. I loved walking Termy and listening to him walk through the leaves, it always made me smile. Maybe you should press the roses in a book to keep. Thank you for thinking that the final four were for Termy, Rosie, Miss B and Brandy. Thanks sharing.
Keith,
The seeds are a nice thought. Plant them when the time is right and see what happens. It might be a nice thing to see grow and maybe just maybe you will smile, a little. I know we all feel the loss and emptiness for we all share the same losing a part of us. Our hearts hurt and our lives are turned upside down. For we loved deeply and grieve our loss just as deeply.
Diane,
Please think of this poem as a poem for all of us because we all walk alone but never alone. Brandy has never left your side. She knows you need her and she will always love you. Try to smile when you think of her.
Love you guys
Peace to our broken hearts
Bonnie

Barefoot1

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Thanks everyone for the encouraging words really low right now. I needed that,and Jackie we in the south are the same as the rest of the country thanks for taking up for us. Bonnie I will plant those seeds a d watch it grow daily. I've decided that once I retire I will drive around the country a d meet everyone. Thank you friends.
JackieTeller

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Hello all my friends...Bonnie, Diane and Keith.

Yes, it was really hard for me to go in there to the vet's office and tell them what I thought.  My tears flowed freely and I think they were afraid someone would come in.  Well, too bad.  As the receptionist said, "they gave you false hope."  Yes, they did.  I picked Rose up Wednesday afternoon after only a couple hours.  I knew she wasn't okay but I was so glad to have her back and the vet was so "encouraging."  Now that makes me so angry.  An appointment was scheduled for the following week and less than two days later Rosie is gone.  I called them then and they sent a cheesy card with a couple signatures.  They can go to h*ll.  I had over $200 worth of meds for Rosie that I hadn't even used and they wouldn't take them back so I was out $1,000 for what....having to put my Rosie down.  It really makes me angry.  

Bonnie, I will release my balloon at 4:30 pm PST.  That will be your time on the east coast at 7:30 EST.  

Keith, I was glad to get up and leave.  This "psychic" said, "Oh, you people in Seattle ask more intelligent questions than people from the South."  My mouth dropped open.  I looked around and everyone looked like they had drank the koolaid.  So I got up and left.  Seattle right now is overpopulated by people from everywhere..especially California and Oregon..and I don't see myself here much longer if I can't find a job.  

Diane,  How long has it been for Brandy?  I need to get my act together and post some pictures on Facebook of my children.  

Love to you all, 
Jackie
diane772

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Jackie on the 21st it will be 7 months since I lost the love of my life. I had to go back to my vets yesterday to get medication for my cat Pearl. My vet and the whole office were very understanding when I lost Brandy so I am not upset with them. They worked very hard to find out what was wrong with her and in the end we decided there was nothing left to do. She was so sick and was not enjoying anything. As her mother I decided I just couldn't do that to her anymore. I am crying just telling you about this. I will always feel guilty that I gave up too soon but I knew her so well that her eyes were telling me it was time to go. It was so hard going back there and the memories it brought back. My thoughts will be with you and Bonnie tomorrow and I will look to the sky at 7:30. I do write on Brandy's page on the 21st of each month, it helps in a small way. Love always to Jackie, Keith and Bonnie   your friend Diane
Barefoot1

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Ladies, well it's been 5 months today since I lost B. Diane I feel the same way that you do that I had to let B go. She was in pain and I could also tell by her eyes she was ready to go. This pain is still overbearing. I was with her for 15.5 years I will never be over this. Jackie I am also so mad i cant face myself. Except who I'm mad at im not sure. I just know that her precious life is over and my life has taken a downward spiral. Bonnie I'm with you as best I can tomm and every day. Just so mad and upset in the south.Keith.
JackieTeller

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Hi Diane, 

I am sorry it brought back so many sad memories.  I am glad your vet was there for you.  

I did not get the job I applied for; even though they told me "great" several times.  I feel truly shafted and hurt.  

Jackie

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Hi Bonnie, Keith and Diane, 

How interesting the days they passed, today for Miss B.; tomorrow for Termy and Rosie and the 21st for Brandy.  All this week.  

Keith, please don't be mad at yourself.  It is not your fault.  Believe me, my life has changed too since my sweet Rosie passed.  She was my little soul-mate and companion.  I am very reluctant to cut the roses but I will this week in memory of our four sweet souls that offered such unconditional love.

Your friend, 
Jackie
cosesmom

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Keith, Jackie and Diane,
Thank you all for sharing the loves of your life with me. I've read your posts and I will reply soon but not tonight. Thank you for your support and I hope you understand that I love you guys and I'm sorry that this is short but I'm being a bit selfish and having a break down tonight. (dreading to marrow) I want it to be special but I think I'll be a sobbing mess. I will ask Termy to tell Rosie, Brandy and Miss B that you love them.
Bonnie
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diane772

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Jackie and Bonnie, you are in my thoughts today. I am going out soon to look to the sky. I am going to say a prayer for Termy, Rosie, Miss B and Brandy. My heart is with you all. Diane
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Yes Jackie and Bonnie I went walking tonight to. Coincide with 7:30. Here I am In s.c.and I found myself searching the sky as if I wod see a balloon from Eerie pa. Maybe it wasn't a balloon I think I wanted to see four little faces looking down like a movie. Bonnie Jackie and Diane I've thought about yall all day I never thought anybody could miss there kids like I miss my B. Thank you,Keith.



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To all my dear friends,
I had a wonderful balloon release last night. I cried a river and watched the balloon until it went out of site. It was so bitter sweet. I felt better inside. I told Termy his balloon was on it's way and that I loved him and will always miss him. But it was a good cry. I also told Termy to make sure Rosie was watching for her balloon to. Keith, You may see Termy's balloon because it drifted east and a bit south, if not it may end up for Diane to see also. I hope we all can see four little faces looking down at us. Termy, Rosie, Brandy and Miss B will always be there watching over us.
I am back to support you all and be here for all our grieving hearts.
Love and peace
Bonnie
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To my dear friends Bonnie, Diane and Keith,

I could not release a balloon for Rosie yesterday.  I was grieving so much I spent the day in bed with a piece of her clothing aptly named "Squirrel Patrol."  However, I went today and got red star and red heart balloons for Rosie, Buster, Termy, Brandy and Miss B.  I am going to release them today.  The day is sunny and I want to watch them float from the Juanita State Park Bridge which Rosie truly loved.

I hope you all don't mind.  The lady started blowing up star balloons and I said I wanted heart balloons so I got both because they are in the stars and in our hearts.  I know how much you loved them and I am going to write a note on each balloon.

I don't know if they will head east.  But it will let them know how much we loved them and continue to love them.  For my "Big Boy" Buster, I am so sorry I had to have you put down in Tennessee.  It's been over 3 years but there hasn't been a day I don't think about you.

Rosie, I slept with a piece of your clothing aptly named "Squirrel Patrol" and, even though I had washed it before you died, I could still smell your sweet scent.  I will never forget you.

Diane, Bonnie and Keith, 

Our children brought us together for a reason.  You are my family and I am grateful for that.

I'm releasing them at 4:30 today; the time I planned yesterday.

Your friend in Seattle, 
Jackie
diane772

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Jackie, I'm sure Rosie understands how difficult this is for you. I truly hope you are doing better today. Bonnie my thoughts are with you also. Keith I hope you found some peace the other night looking to the sky as I did. Tomorrow will be a difficult day for me so please keep me in your thoughts, it will help me knowing my friends are thinking of me. I can't believe Brandy has been gone 7 months, I still miss her so much. Thank you for listening Diane
cosesmom

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Diane, you will be in my prayers and thoughts on Brandy's 7 month anniversary as you were with me on Termy's one year anniversary cross over day.

Isn't it wonderful how gazing at the sky makes us feel closer to all of our little ones. I always think of the three of you every day for you all have become my friends and supporters during the darkest days of our lives. I feel more at peace now after letting a balloon go and watching it go out of site to my sweet Termy. I can't explain it, maybe it's because I've reached the one year mark. I still miss him with all my heart and will always love him to the last day I take a breath. He was special to me as Rosie, Brandy and Miss B was to all of you. We connected through our loss because they brought us together knowing we needed each other in our lives.
Keith,
I'm sorry that I didn't realize that Miss B's date was the 17th. I have written down the dates and will remember them from now on. I was focusing on the 18th and the one year mark. Please forgive for being thoughtless as you were grieving Miss B.

Jackie,
Rosie knows how much you are hurting and she understands. She loves you no matter. Balloons or no balloons, she knew your love and sends hers to you. I hope you get to feel better and at least smile a little. Rosie lived life full of joy and happiness and every moment mattered.

I am here for all of you. Let me know what I can do to help ease your pain
Love and doggie hugs
Bonnie
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Bonnie, no forgiveness necessary. I know the 18th was very hard. It means so much you took the time to write down the dates
Diane we will all be with you in thought and spirit. I've looked at Brandy's pic on Facebook can easily see why she means so much. Her eyes are filled with love.
Jackie, Rosie would not want you lying on bed missing her. If I've learned anything from the ladies it's that Rosie is there with you. So go to another job interview and make rosie proud. Then come home and tell your new family how you did. Come on girl keep going

Barefoot1

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Friends, Well I hope everyone is doing good since I havent heard from anyone in a few days. I have come to realize that alot of the things I did with B I do now but they have little or no meaning. I know I've said this before but I can't stand this. I mean even mowing the yard this past weekend was odd. WithB she would walk beside me the whole time. Alot of time getting grass blown all over her. She didn't care cause we were outside together. Anyway,this has Been a true life changing event that has changed .e for the worse. Forever. Missing my baby,keith.
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Keith, I know what you mean. Yesterday I was cleaning up my flower gardens and getting them ready for winter. The whole time I just kept thinking I miss Brandy so much. She always loved helping out in the yard. She mostly got in the way and caused more work but she thought she was helping and it made me laugh so hard. Now I just go through the motions and get it done. There is no more laughter around the house. I have come to realize life will never be the same. Thank you for your thoughts on the 21st and thank you for my birthday wish. Diane
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To all my dearest friends,
I am so happy to read your responses and your warm, heart felt words. I am like both of you (Keith and Diane) in doing yard work. It was always so much more enjoyable when our fur babies trotted around the yard with us. When Termy would disappear while I weeded or mowed, I always found him laying in the shade watching me. It's funny that we didn't mind that it took longer and caused us more work. It was well worth it. I haven't laughed hard in so long and I agree that I just go through the day and do what is necessary. Sad that our lives have come down to this. Life will never be the same for any of us. We all now have a new (sadder) normal without them.
On a happier note. I took Termy's sister to the vets last night and saw a poster for a support group for anyone who has lost a pet. It's tonight and I am excited to be going. I hope there is advise as well as comfort to be found. I know we all need some one to help us with our loses. I will let you all know if I found any comfort in attending.
Jackie, I hope all is well with you also. You've quite for a few days. Please let us know how you are doing.
Love and doggie hugs
Bonnie
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Life will never be the same for us, we all now have a new sadder normal. How very true this is.
Along with the growing realisation that this is a pain I will probably carry with me till the end, is the unbearable feeling that my time with me beloved K cat is over and may probably never come again. I do not know where she has gone now, and neither of us has any way to find the other. How could I ever not be sad when I consider that I may never see my K cat again? Time has so far failed to heal this wound.
Barefoot1

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Hey, yes Karmacat it is a new normal yes a sad normal. Life before Miss B's death was still very simple but happy. Just like Jackie, Diane and Bonnie we seem to all be just going thru the motions yes the new normal. I can't stand this new normal. Even though my family has gotten me another dog (Annie) she is far from Miss B. Oh she has her own personality I still compare her to B. I miss everything about my girl. I even miss giving her her daily medicine. I would wrap it up in a cheese slice. She would spit the pill out just to get more cheese. Anyway this will probably someday drive me crazy. Who cares the best days are truly behind me. FRIENDS KEITH. P.S. Bonnie was the the group you went to?


JackieTeller

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Hello Friends and welcome KarmaKat, 

I HAVE to believe I will see my children again or I would go crazy.  I miss my Rosie so much and with the change of seasons it is even more heart-breaking for me.  Now I question if moving back to Kirkland (I was living in Bothell) was such a good idea because there are memories of Rose EVERYWHERE and it breaks my heart.  I want to remember fondly but all I do is cry.  Yes, this is the new normal and it sucks.

I went on an interview yesterday and the guy was a real jerk.  I left there feeling very defeated in that I don't think I got the job and personally, I don't know if i want it.  I have turned down a couple positions that had low pay and poor benefits.  I need to get a game plan in place.  My rent is killing me (1900) and I am so sick of Seattle.  

I think I might take a short road trip to Idaho and check it out.  Today I see my therapist.  Thank God.

Hang in there everybody,

Jackie
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Keith, I think you hit the nail on the head - the lingering sadness is that we miss our fur babies so much. In my case, everyday for 10 months now. What we all want, is to have our departed animal back with us, for just another day, or week or month. And the crushing realisation that it can never be again. Like you, I also miss all the chores, even the difficult ones at the end, which for me were syringe feeding her, giving her sub cuts of fluids, injecting her with meds and painkillers, and (at the end) feeding K cat through her feeding tube, when she stopped eating due to her dental problems. I do have another younger cat with me, who is also a black cat like K cat, but it's not about having a cat around or comparing the two. I love both of them deeply, but it's K cat that's gone, and I miss her so much - it's beyond all of my expectations. But from reading the posts here from the others about Miss B, Brandy, Termy, Harry har har and so many others, I've come to understand that I'm just going through something so many others have experienced. So if this the new normal, then I guess we'll all have to carry on as best we can, and trust that time will eventually blunt the sharpness of this pain we are all feeling.
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Hello,Jackie dont feel defeated I learned along
time ago that the people interviewing other people for jobs don't care because they have a job. One will come along maybe it is in Idaho. Maybe you could start fresh. Anyway how was the therapist? I dont really think a therapist would understand why WE are so changed by the loss of our pets. Well hello to Bonnie, Diane and new friend Karmacat. Please try to have a good night. It's storming here like we need the rain. Keith.
diane772

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Hello to all my friends, I have had a couple of ok days. I try to stay very busy so that I don't have to think. But the nights always come and I have time to sit and think. I have avoided working in the yard again, it was just too painful. I pray that you are all doing well. I have missed hearing from all of you. Please take care Diane
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Kieth,
I did go to the pet loss support group and it was very enlightening. The counselor specializes in pet loss and owns two dogs herself and just lost one four months ago, so she understands. I do know that my struggle to move ahead with my grief is due to my home life. I leaned on Termy for everything.  Love, support and compassion that I am missing from the family around me. I know I need to address this and I will but it's hard with out Termy to support me. But as I was told. he set me up on this road to travel and be the person I was meant to be. He's still supporting me but just in a different way. I intend to go every month just to be with others who know and understand my feelings.
Diane,
I don't spend the same amount of time in the yard any more either. I have trouble with the weekends mostly. I know nights are hard for you but try to find something to do that lightens your heart. What do you like to do?hobbies etc?
Jackie,
Keep plugging along. A job will find you that will be exactly what you've been searching for. I think I know a few paws that maybe pulling for you.
Karmacat,
Welcome to our little group. Please feel free to share with us about your babies.
Please, all have a good night and remember I am here for all of you, always.
Love
Bonnie (Termy's mom)
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In my calmer moments, I am still shocked and amazed at how devastating the loss of a cat can be. If someone had told me that I could cry everyday for 10+ months, and perhaps even eventually for a year or two, I would have laughed because I just wouldn't believe I had such a capacity. It's not about whether K cat loved me a lot or a little - that doesn't matter at all. It's that I loved her, not wanting anything at all from her other than she be well and happy. It was quite late in the game that I realised, on one of those nights when K cat was sitting quietly by my side in bed, that I realised that in that moment, life was quite perfect. Whatever else was missing didn't matter - it was just a perfect moment. Little did I know that those perfect moments would soon be gone. Since then, the only thing that works is distraction, but alas, these days it seems I am not so easily distracted.
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Hello Keith, Bonnie, Diane and Karmacat,

Well, the good news is I got a job.  I start tomorrow as an Accounts Payable Specialist at Washington Energy Services in Lynnwood, WA; so it is a reverse commute and the traffic won't be as bad.  I am terrified though.  I am afraid I won't measure up, they won't like me, I'm too old, too fat, etc. etc.  But I pray to God those feelings go away.  

I haven't worked since my precious Rose passed 4 1/2 months ago.  Oh God Rosie, I miss you so so much!  Diane and Bonnie, I can so relate to not working in the yard etc.  I avoid the trails Rosie (and Buster) used to run on because the pain is so deep.  That is great that you found a support group Bonnie.  They have one here but it involves fighting traffic across Seattle and I went a few times but it was so hard.  I realize now that one of the main reasons I miss my little Rose so much is that she loved me unconditionally.  I have never felt love from people (except you guys) and believe me, I bawl my eyes out everyday.  

I have to contact the dog walker and tell her she will be only walking one dog, my sweet LuLu.  I am devastated.  It is extremely expensive but I won't be able to make it home at lunch time and I want LuLu to have her walk.  But to have to tell them about Rosie..... tears are running down my face now.  

I know why I cherish my four-legged children so much.  Because they gave me LOVE; something I've not gotten from family.  I too leaned on Rosie like you did Bonnie on Termy.  When I was in the depths of depression, that little Jack Russell gave me the will to live.  I hate that vet that blew off her heart failure as just a heart murmur until it was too late.  Sadly LuLu has the same condition but I am going to find a vet that will LISTEN to me.  I don't know if Rosie would have lived much longer as she was at least 16 years old but I feel she suffered needlessly the last several months.  I am so sorry Rosie.  

I know Rosie sent Blossom here to help me but Blossom is not my Rose.  I had to put away some of the things I had out that reminded me of Rose.  Believe me, there is still alot but I had almost constructed a shrine..small laugh.  I felt that by taking some of it down and putting it in a drawer would mean that I was trying to forget about Rosie.  But Rosie, it's because I love you so much I have to put some of it away....especially now that I will be working.

Karmacat, I hope you find some comfort in our little group.  Keith, Diane and Bonnie have been priceless in their kindness and condolences in that we ALL know what it's like.  I have lost a daughter that I will never forget.  I hope we all continue to stay in touch because it is one of the few moments of my day where I can relate to people that know what I'm talking about.  Love to you all,  Jackie in Seattle
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Keith, 

I wanted to let you know my therapist is helping me tremendously.  I go twice a week and am planning on continuing going.  She knows about Rosie and I cry over Rose in sessions but she also understands there is a deeper level of sadness that goes beyond Rose that I need to come to terms with...and that is...I have NEVER felt loved.  Only my four-legged children.  So we are working on that.  It doesn't make the sadness any less but I am beginning to realize I sought out people who were emotionally unavailable to me; yet my dogs and cats were.  

Please hang in there and you are in my prayers.

Your friend in Seattle,  Jackie

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Karma Cat, 

I read your story on another topic.  I too had to euthanize Rosie.  It was very courageous and loving of you to spare her anymore suffering.  I was with Rose at the end.  I could feel her spirit leap out of her ailing body.  She went very quickly.  I hope you find some peace with our little group.

Your friend, 
Jackie

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Heartiest congratulations Jackie! Good on you and great to hear some good news for a change! All the best on your new job!
JackieTeller

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 #237 
Thank you Karmacat, 

More will be revealed....I'm sure.  

Jackie in Seattle 
JackieTeller

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My dear friends, 

Today is my first day at my new job at the ripe old age of 63.  I contacted the dog walker and told them there would only be one dog, LuLu.  I cried but I'm sure Rosie will be there in spirit.  Have a good day.

Jackie in Seattle 
Barefoot1

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Jackie,
Yes Rosie will be there in spirit. Lulu will know that she is near. Like they say age is just a number go out there and make them proud they hired you.
diane772

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Jackie, congratulations. Rosie is always with you, she is jumping for joy I am sure for you. Hello to Keith, Bonnie and Karmacat. I hope things are going good for you. I am very proud of all of us. I have never had such good friends, always here to support one another. Thank you Diane
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