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Bedomom

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Dear Bedo,

Mom will start by saying SORRY, mom should not have left for vacation on the 21st of September, usually you did not walk to other room due to your limping leg, but you did...usually you could not jump but you did on that very day.  Mom was packing in another room and you came by and jumped into mom's luggage, you were like saying, "mom, don't go, don't leave me"  tha moment still haunt mom to this very day, baby I am so so sorry..

The day Mom was back from vacation, October 8th morning, others came to greet mom exept you, mom sensed something was wrong and the caretaker had told mom that you were gone while mom was on vacation....baby, you must have passed away due to stress and old age...mom was not on yourside to save you I am so so sorry.

Mom knew that you had cancer and the vet had suggested to put you down, but mom refused...mom did whatever mom could to prolong your life and you did well baby, mom fed you brown rice congee with fish and beans and you loved it...everythime you cough, mom would feed you cooked fresh pear puree with honey and it helped...mom also gave you Reshi and other chinese herbs for detoxification and it helped.  Mom also cleaned you up right away after any accidence, mom rubbed your legs with oilment to ease your pain ...this extend of loving care mom knew well that the caretakers would not be able to provide while mom was on vaction, but mom thought you would be ok until mom comes back in two weeks.

Baby, you had passed away and I knew you was not been taking care well, mom so sorry that I was not there at your last momment. .... the heartless caretaker told mom that he took you for general cremenation and said you had passed away on October 2.....Mom called the clinic right away and asked them to retain you for private cremenation and they said it was to late....

Mom later found some of your furs, mom wraped them up and stick beside your picture with a handsome face...mom started to burned scents and prey...the heartless caretaker brought in an invoice of $26.65 for (body dumping) for reimbursement mom did not bother to looked at it and put it behind your picture....after crying for a while, mom looked at your picture, looked at your beatiful eyes and it cut like a knife...so far in mom's life, mom had not experienced such agonizing pain...somehow, mom held the picture and took out the invoice....on the date, it says Oct. 5, 3 days after you had passed away and mom thought maybe there was still time...mom called the clinc again at 8 pm (they close at 10 pm) with proper ID, to mom surprise, they said you were still there....mom immediately request for private cremenation....they said mom has to be there which mom came right away next morning to see you last time....looking at your frozen lifeless body was sad but it mom felt better as mom had a chance to say good bye.

It is not the same not having you in mom's bedroom, mom miss your restlessness, miss your constant footsteps....baby, mom love you very very much, you are in heaven and at peace now, mom will be joining you someday and we will be together for eternity....

Baby, mom so sorry, so sorry for leaving you for vaction, but mom also blessed for having you for 7 years on you 15 years of life...baby, mom will be bringing you home, you will be staying right next to mom with the rest of the gang...remember Laughing, your son, he had always protect you whenever Bowie, the big boy came near you, and he will be right there protecting you.

Baby, you will be at home, sweet home, a place where you belong a place with eternal love, a place with warm embrace waiting for you.....

When a person passed away, they may have left bad and good memories, but from your beloved pet, there is always, just GOOD MEMORIES! GOOD MEMORIES WHICH MOM WILL CARRIED ON FROM THE REST OF MOM'S LIFE, until then, we will meet in HEAVEN!

Love you always,
BEDOMOM
brenrae

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I am sorry for your loss. I am glad to know that you were able to have a private cremation for your baby, I know that having them with you is a blessing. You wrote a beautiful letter to your baby, and it shows the love shared between you two. That love will never die, but will live on on your heart.
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Dear Bedomom, I am so sorry for the loss of your darling Bedo.  Your letter is so sad yet so beautiful. Your sweet Bedo was ready to make the journey to Rainbow Bridge and maybe he did not want you to see him.  Some furbabies do not want their Moms and Dads to see their trip. As for that cold hearted caretaker, well I just don't know.  Some people don't know what it is like to love a furfriend and to be loved by one.  But you were lucky to have had Bedo in your life for seven years, sharing all the joy he brought to you. He will be with you again, near you comforting you.  From the bottom of my heart I am so sorry and I wish you, in time, peace and comfort.  Donna, Mr. Meowgy and Miss Spotty's mom
Bedomom

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maxsMandD

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Sorry for your loss of Bedo what a cute boy. Bedo is at rainbow Bridge with no more pain, running in the meadows with all of our beloved furbabies.Your letter to him had me in tears I could feel the love between the two of you. Visit you mom in adream she misses you.  ((hugs))   maxsMandD
MrMeowgy

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Your sweet Bedo is just beautiful!  Again, I am so very sorry for your loss.  Donna, Mr. Meowgy and Miss Spotty's mom
Mare

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I am very sorry for the loss of your beloved Bedo.  He is truly a very cute dog.  I know how hard it was to find out the sad news when you came from from vacation.  My heart goes out to you as you mourn the loss of your beautiful boy.

Mare-wolf
precious Christoph ~ always my bunny boy ~
Bedomom

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Dear Bedo,

A first Saturday without you, Mom usually going to Walmart picking up some chicken breast, fish fillet and carrots for your favourite meal, Mom had to skip today as mom would not know what to do as going there would bring back so much memories, as Saturday is a day to pick up groceries for my furry babies.

Mom would like to thank all the loving people out there who share the same feelings, your beautiful thoughts are appreciated very much by me and my son Bedo

Baby, mom is waiting to pick you up from the clinic, and you know what mom will do right away? mom will bring you to Slocan Park, sit by your favourite bush where you used to lurking around, together, we will recall all the beautiful memories we had shared with other friends in the park.  You were such a loner, you did not play with Trina, Ding Ding or other gangs, you were just wandering by yourself near your favourite bush until time to go home..

Bedo, your selfish dad had ran away with mom's large savings, he basically had left us because mom had too much love for furry babies especially for you....despite of we being classmate since childhood,mom had lost faith in him and also loss a lots of savings due to overtrusting him. He took the house which we had purchased together but registered only under his name.  The heartless creature  told mom not to walk you guys near his house after he moved out....having experienced that, the pain is merely comparing the pain of loosing you.  Nothing matters to me now baby, all it matters is the pain of lossing you and mom is trying very very hard every second to deal with it in the most peaceful and loving way.

Through this pain, mom experience love, mom has great love for furry babies but mom also has faith in human beings who have love....mom is not the type of a person who "others stereotyping" as one who only love animals and don't get along with human beings....this is a very unfair and bad assumption of people who don't understand, if you have love, you would love everything that is worthy of loving in this earth.

Mom is thankful having you came to mom's life, baby, mom has learned from you so much mom and  has became less selfish and forgiving as the times had gone/goes by...

Missing and loving you always...
Mom.  


Bedomom

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My Dear Son Bedo:

Mom and your son, Laughing had picked you up at the clinic 10 am today, Autumn is here,  the bush is not as green as it used to be but and is much bigger now.  Baby, mom miss you so much, through the autum breeze, mom could feel your presence, you are always always by mom's side and in mom's heart.

After that, mom brough you home, put in the corner of mom's bedroom window, above exactly where you used to sleep...Mom picked some sweet apples from the trees at Sunshine children hospital near our house which we used to walk by remember? you loved apples, after dinner, mom would call out "apple time" then you would come and line up for your pieces...you guys are all picky, apples had/have to be, sweet, crunchy and juicy.  Mom put the best ones beside you, and pomergranade mom brought from Vietnam Trip, baby, mom pray you would be able to taste all of them as you used to love them, no matter what, after all it is the loving thought that really matters.,

You are home in mom's arms now baby, you are always blessed with warm loving embrace

Thinking you you
Love
Mom

Bedomom

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My Darling Bedo..

You have gone for 13 days, Mom hope that you are getting used to up in the above, playing with your friends and running in the meadows..mom knows that you are quite picky in making friends, you remember Mico, the only girl that you liked, while mom was bringing you to the park, to your favourite bush on Sunday,  she was walking with her mom what a coincidence, this was happening due to the bond of you two.

Mom is glad that you just came home ontime for Thanksgiving dinner, as every other years, mom cooked something extra special for all of you.  The rest of the gangs seemed to enjoy the meal as usual

Mom put your favourite apples and cooked chicken breast on your little tray that mom used to feed you with, baby, mom is still hurting and the pain does not seem to go away, mom will take as long as it takes for mourning as mom wants to do  this for mom, for you, my beloved son... in the mean time, you are always by mom's side...
Loving and missing you every second.
Love
Mom

Bedomom

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Dear Son,
Others may think mom is crazy, but mom just need to write to you, another day has gone by without out your physical present, but the thought of you have constant in mom's mind, how are you up in the above sweetheart, I hope you are doing well...you are lucky to have an attractivie appearance so this would win over a lots of friends or girls specifically.

You were quite picky, even you were raised by a Chinese mom but you had always like blond girls, you would sit in their labs forever, this must had came from your classy background as I have learned that your first owner was a wealthy woman with a jewelry shop..You were always so handsome and elegant so mom understand that you do have high standards..

Despite of materiality and attractive physical appearance, mom wants you to know that all it matters is what is inside your heart..inner beauty is always prevails, you have learned to love mom that's why we have this special connection, you jumped to mom's luggage to say good bye prior to vacation, and even after you have crossed the Rainbow Bridge, you did somehow let mom know that it was not too late to say good bye and to take you home.  Mom is so blessing to have this special connection with you.

Baby, life is not the same without you as you are so so special, the episode of 7.5 years with mom had deeply marked in mom's heart with beautiful memories...

Dear Son, be happy up the above and rest peacefully whenever you are tired as you used to me, you are always by mom's side and in mom's heart.

Love you deeply and dearly,
Mom
Bedomom

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Dear Baby,

Another working day, works are piling up with clients files comming in like crazy, despite of being busy, mom still think about you a lots, this make mom feel better, Baby, mom gave the furry  gang a piece of treat as usual this morning, mom also give them detox tablets which you used to love their taste.

Baby, mom feel like singing our songs:

Do you know my name is Bedo...
and the things I drew come true,
and it takes me takes me wherever mama is....

Don't be cruel, if your heart is true,
you know you are the one I am thinking of.
(whenever you showed your snobbish face)

Our disco song:

Staying alive, staying alive, ha ha staying alive when we used to play
at the Trout Lake remember baby,

A gentleman who organized the event used to call you a CUTE DISCO DOG!

Mom also remember you called out mom last month when mom burned the food, so thankful so thankful for had the privilege of having you in mom's life baby!

We had have so much so much beautiful memories!!! life is just a journey and what matter the most are beautiful memories!

Missing and loving you every second...

Mom  
Bedomom

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Dear Son,
Will you forgive mom, will you forgive mom for being so inconsiderate for leaving at your difficult times...
I am so sorry so sorry.  There is not minute goes by that mom not blaming mom for this stupidity and inconsideration.
You were quite strong and mom trusted Jenny for texing your condition like last time mom was away in May and you
had made it.

Baby, if there is anyway to have you back mom would trade everything in this world, please visit mom, mom miss you so much
my first baby. Mom never forget the first day mom set eye at you in 2003 and Chan did not give you to mom until Feb 2006
when we flew Air Harmony from Toronto.  You skinny in your blue sweater,which is still here.

Baby, mom so sorry, so sorry, something mom will regret for the rest of mom's life

Missing you loving you, and hurting very bad
Mom
brenrae

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I have read all your letters to Bedo. Your Bedo is a handsome boy. I am sure that Bedo knows, and will always know how much you love him. They leave us with so many memories to hold in our hearts. There is no truer love than that of a fur baby. They love us with no thoughts of what they will get in return. They love us for who we are, with all our flaws. I know how hard it can be when you are grieving. Your letters to Bedo are so heartwarming.  
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Dear Bedomom, I just private messaged you but I want to tell you that I am sure beautiful little Bedo is doing well at Rainbow Bridge.  I'm sure my darling Mr. Meowgy greeted him and is showing him all around.  My little sweet Miss Spotty is new there too so they will probably hang out together. My private message delves deeper into my feelings so I hope you read it. I hope, in time, you find peace and comfort. Donna, Mr. Meowgy and Miss Spotty's mom
Bedomom

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Thank you Brenrae and MrMeowgy for your comforting words, I am trying to get better as time goes by.  I am sure our loved ones are as sweet, kind and loving as we are, they should have became good friends by now, playing and running in the meadows. I thank God for finding this wonderful site and have the privilege to get to know so many sweet and loving people as you are out there.
My thoughts are with all your beautiful Angels!
Bedomom

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Bedo is comforted by his son in August, when he was tired, Laughing had always been very protective of his dad!

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Dear Bedo,
Mom found your blue sweater this morning, it was left in the uper shelf of the front closet.  The blue sweater mom bought at
Walmart in Brampton back in 2006 prior to taking you home in Vancouver. Mom put the sweater on you and you had won over everyone who looked atyou.  Baby, miss you so much, mom folded the sweater and put it beside you so you can dress when the weather is cold.
Baby, if there is recarnation, mom wish you would be a good handsome and smart boy.  Mom believes you would, as  you were handsome,
smart and very intuitive.
Baby, tommorrow is Saturday, mom is not ready to go to Wallmart yet, you were still here when mom was at Wallmart
last time the thought of this breaks mom's heart.
Autumn is here and the leaves in front of our house are fallings and life is not the same without you, this is your house as you
were the first commer.  You used to scold at others due to your senior position, oh baby, mom miss you being bossy to others so much!  You were being mean in a very cute way,
Bedo had always had the special treatments. 
You did not like noisy people,  as mom used to have mouthy clients came to our house who talked loudly,
you would give them a snobbish look at walked right into the bedroom, what a character, even those people knew that and they told mom that you had class!
Miss and loving you every fiber of my bone baby!
Love
Mom
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Your letters to your Bedo are so heart waming it shows the love the two of you shared. Your memories of him are wonderful to read and thanks for your post on Max's 1 yr. it has been a long tearful journey for us and we miss him with all our soul. I'm sure Max is showing Bedo around because he was always such a gentleman, a mom and dad's boy all the way alway's wanted to be with us.  ((hugs))  maxsMandD
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Hi Bedo's mom, 

So true, your sweet thoughts and words for your beloved Bedo are just beautiful! You have come to a place where people understand how much love you have for your baby and how much it hurts to not have his physical presence. He will always be in your heart - what a devoted wonderful mom...very lucky boy, Bedo. Thank you for posting his pictures...very sweet with his son Laughing. 

Hugs - thinking of you,

Elise, Buddy's mom
Mare

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Your letters to Bedo are very heart warming.  I wrote to my precious Christoph so much during the first year of loss....it really helped me stay connected to him.  This site offers so much opportunity for comfort and healing.  My thoughts continue to be with you.

Mare-wolf
precious Christoph ~ love of my life ~
Bedomom

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Dear MaxsMandD, Thank you for your kind words, Max was such a gentlement and I am sure he still is at the Rainbow Bridge.  I hope he would be patient enough to be friend with my crouchy Bedo who may have been spoiled too much!

Elise, your Buddy is so cute, I love Golden Retriever, I can hug him all day, I will hug him in my dream.  I fell in love with him righ at the moment I look at his picture.  I am sure he is blessed to have such a wonderful mom and a wonderful family who had and still love him so much! I applaud you for helping the animals.

Mare, Christoph is so precious, I am sure is will always be connected to you, our beloved pets are our families they had been and always be part of our lives! Take care!

I thank you All for sharing your feelings with me.  I  miss my Bedo very much, I missing having him sitting right beside me in the computer room when I am watching all my reality singing shows.  We had always listen to our favourite songs to gether, sitting beside my computer same song, same show but I feel so empty without him.  Miss you so much Bedbed!

Baby, one contestant on Xfactor UK just sang and this says exactly what mom feels:

"Every Breath You Take"

Since you've gone I been lost without a trace
I dream at night I can only see your face
I look around but it's you I can't replace
I feel so cold and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby please

Love
Mom



Bedomom

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Dear Bedo
Mom is a bad person mom is not as devoted as other think mom ignored your pleading face, ignored your pleading act by jumping into mom's luggage mom us an ignorant person I am so sorry baby those two had left you starving and you might have to stay in the cold room for too long it was raining at the end if September the heat was not on you and your helpless soul Jenny was hospitalized for two days and she did not called she told mom she loss her mind and has been feeling very bad about this the Raymond guy was ignorant toi the house was in a very bad condition that mom had to spent 5 hours for cleaning your passing at that moment made mom feeling numb mom rather want to he with you to end the misery despite if mom being angry st these two nothing is going to bring you back your last momment must be cold lobule painful and scare baby mom feel all of them now May be a million times worst baby so sorry I had left you when you needed mom the mist mom is not blaming mom this is a cold fact something mom has to face and learn from this baby mom has no right to ask for your forgiveness mom is ignorant and irresponsible a smart person sometimes makes a very stupid decision at a bad momment this is call smart for three year and stupid for an hour this old saying is referring to mom's ignorance there is no remedy gif regret mom just feel the pain as long as it takes so sorry baby mom don't want to ask these two for details as the the truth hurts however with our strong connection mom knows exactly what had happened mom also know you live mom and would not want mom to feel this way however son mom beg you to let mom take the consequence to be more conscious and mom can only gain this from pain...
Love and missing you immensely
Mom
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Dear Bedo Mom, 

You are the sweetest mommy to Bedo! It is a gift, reading your words of love to your best boy. Thank you for your love and hugs to my Buddy! He's a very huggable boy and had a special way of pressing into your chest and staying there, making these sweet little emotional sounds...precious beyond words! 

We are so used to our babies sharing all of our little moments and routines - so hard to navigate this sea of loneliness, but we always have to think of them, and know that they are in the best place they could possibly be. 

Prayers and Hugs,

Buddy's mommy




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Dear Buddy's Mommy
Thank you for your sweet thoughts . I am sure you feel the same about beautiful Buddy does the name says it all. We have gained do much humanity from our beloved pets they are not just animals as people categorized them they are loving companions who has came to our lives to remind us the value of pure unconditional love once you have IT you can conquer everything. I have read a lots of heart wrenching stories and the feelings are so pure and real I dived myself into this website to be myself and back at work 9 to 5 it has been hard for the last few weeks I miss Bedbed so much the mourning process is agonizing but I just let my heart tells me what to do my sisters have been quite supportive so are all of you from this website I am very grateful for your kindness the loss of Bedbed has turned a new page in my life and I look at things in a different perspectives now through this pain I have learned so so much
Lots of love and hugs to your Beautiful Angel Buddy!
Bedo mom
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Dear Beet Tau Chay,

Little Bedo in Chinese, Granpa used to call you that, remember, another Monday mom is back at work again, on mom's way to work, mom was thinking of Teresa Tsang's song, "The Moon Represent My heart" Mom bursted to tears, this is song is for you mom's Beet Tau Chay:


ni wen wo ai ni you duo shen - You ask me how deep I love you
Wo ai ni you ji fen - How much I love you

Wo de qing ye zhen - My heart is true
Wo de ai ye zhen - My love is true
Yue liang dai biao wo de xin - The moon represents my heart

(Repeat *)
Wo de qing bu yi - My heart will never change
Wo de ai bu bian - My love will stay the same
Yue liang dai biao wo de xin- the moon represents my heart

** qing qing de yi ge wen - A very light kiss
Yi jin da dong wo de xin - has touched my heart
Shen shen de yi duan qing- our loving bond
Jiao wo si nian dao ru jin- will carry on forever

(Repeat *)

*** ni qu xiang yi xiang - You can hear my thought
Ni qu kan yi kan - you can see my love
Yue liang dai biao wo de xin - the moon represents my heart

TO YOU MY BEAUTIFUL BABY - BEETAU CHAY, MA MA miss you!

Bowie, Trina, Elvin and Laughin have some itching issues, mom not sure if it is the food will watch them!

Love and hugs
Mom

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Dear Bedo Mom, 

I must hold your words in my heart...they are so incredibly profound and uplifting. The unconditional love that our babies teach - the sweetness of their souls...it is pure joy what they give to us, in every moment! To me, their lives and souls are priceless - my counselor asked me the other day if there was a limit to money I would have spent to save Buddy...I said NO...I would have spent everything I had to help him get well. No sacrifice was too great for my boy to have his chance at life. But God had other plans for Bud, and this I must now accept and the help and support I am getting from dear animal loving souls here on this site is more than I could have ever hoped for.

Our beloved animal companions have SO much to give us, if we are only open to their sweet gentle ways of being! I miss Buddy's physical presence so much, but will always carry his sweet spirit in my heart, as you are doing for your baby Bedo, through your letters, through your poems, through the beautiful Moon Represent My Heart song...what treasures! I loved looking at your pictures...thank you for sharing these...see, now you carry Buddy in your heart, and I am carrying Bedo and his little Son Laughin in mine...this is what it is all about, yes? Is there any better way to continue our babies legacy of love, than to help other caring souls get to know their beautiful natures? 

I am so glad to hear your sisters are helping you, and that you are gaining support from the people here. The pain is still very hard for all of us, but together we will make it through because our babies want us to come to Rainbow Bridge happy and whole again.

Buddy and Bedo are telling you - never think of yourself as a bad mom ever again, promise?!

To our Beautiful Angels!

xoxoxoxo!!
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Dear my Sweetest Bedo,

Exactly one month from mom's vacation, time flies, mom just want to let you know mom has received so many many heart felt responses from the lovely people from this website.  

For all the loving sweet people on this site, mom just want to wish everyone the best to hang on these difficult times.  Along with mourning our loved babies, we should all try to put all these experiences into something possitive, we should be blessed for having our wonderful loving babies as part of our lives  The memories will always be treasured and stay deeply in our hearts, carryon with our daily activies to remind us of how good it  is to be loved and to experience the depth of true unconditional love.  We are the richest people in the world and we should be proud of who we are.  Yes, life is full of realities, but I am sure with love, we can always balance that.

Baby, people who don't understand that you four legged friends are Deep Silent Human beings, after all, less is more right? you don't talk but your actions are stronger than words, you can read a lots of love stories but there is no comparison comparing to looking at your beautiful loving eyes, hugging and kisses you when you were waiting for mom at the door exactly after work.  You don't even need a clock and you know exactly when the time is right.  Mom remember when mom was unhappy, you and others would sit beside mom to comfort mom.  Baby, you have always been a quiet Boy and you have always love your peace, remember aunty Cindy gave us a ticking clock back in 2006?  Mom put it on the wall and the tic tac sound bothered you so much, you hated it and mom had to put it down, however mom put it up again after you left.  You had to come back again and complained, at that time you stood right in from of mom to make sure that mom had taken the clock down and put it away before you left.  Baby it was super cute and the people with mom back then was amazed by your act.  Baby after all, You smart Four Legged people beated us on American Got Talent and British Got Talent last year and Mom was so happy and proud.

Baby, instead of hurting and mourning, mom will try to remember you, remember all the beautiful memories what we have shared.  Moma's Beddo baby, Buddy and others are never gone, you all just resting peacefully at the Rainbow Bridge,  looking down for all the moms who love and think of you dearly. 

Love you Son
Mom



 
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Beed Beed:
How are you today sweetheart, are you still pretty much your quiet self? your moist pinkin nose is till up? mom miss you so much, the gangs are running around our yard as usual.  Without you, everything is so different because you are just so unique...baby miss you so much, the grapes in the garden are fully rippen and the leaves from the fig trees are falling...you used to love figs so much..mom always picked the best for Beed Beed as Beed always had the special treatment that others would envy...baby, how are you up there, do you see mommy down here missing and yearning for you so much...
Mom pass by Sunshine hospital everyday, you were there last time, a quick glimpse at the  hospital just tear mom's heart into pieces..the thought of you, the day when Dr. Johnson told mom you had heart and lung problem and you did not have much time.  Mom refused and all the staff gave mom a helpless look - mom took you home after x ray and you were doing very well for another full year, baby, mom know for a fact that if mom did not went for holidays, you would still be here as we had been doing so well together.  When Beed had problem walking, mom just gave you a little boost and you were  ok, when Beed lost his appetite, mom would gave you chicken congee, you were back to normal, tough and fighting - Beed Beed loved his foods as all were specially made by mom with love.  Baby mom know because you missed mom so much and you could not wait till mom came back, or you did not want mom to make the saddest decision? you knew that mom would never make that decision and you had made this easier mom right?  For once, mom hate you for that!.  Granpa used to say, as long as there is any drop of water, we will still splash it! and mom did but wish mom could have done much much more...  Baby, mom suppose to have you since 2003 but Chan did not gave you to mom, she took mom to the airport that night and bought mom A Bedo Toy instead, it is still here right by mom's bed looking at the baby bean, it is so much like you, 10 years just seem like yesterday! miss you so so much the house is so empty without you, mom miss Beed Beed and sometimes mom used to call Beep Beep and just like speedy road runner, you would come up right away, miss you Beed Beed, miss all that...A big part of mom is missing and it will take a long long time to heal.  In the mean time, mom don't know what to do but just to talk to you as much as mom needed to, my sunshine, my love!
Sunshine, in my arms makes me happy
Sun shines, on my eyes makes me cry
sunshine, on the sofa looks so lovely
sunshine, now always made me hide!
Mom
MeAndTheGirlies

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All of your babies are so gorgeous!
You are in my thoughts.
Take care Bedomom
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MeAndTheGirlies:
Thank you! so are your girls, my thoughts are with you too, I know it is hard but through love, we will get better, our babies want us to.
Take care
Bedomom
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Oh, Bedo is such a handsome fellow!

I am so sorry for your loss. My furry son, Spike, passed while we were on vacation in June. I found out on the last day of our trip, and it ripped a hole in my heart a mile wide. He was only 11. I didn't have an idea the end was near.

Honestly, the only thing that brought me hope after Spike died was a new little pup named Buddy. My friend had to get rid of him due to a move, and asked me if i would take him just eight days after Spike passed. It felt so sudden, but in the end he has helped me through that time more than I ever could have expected. We've had him almost four months now and it's as if he's been with us the entire time.

I hope with time the pain lessens. You will never forget your furbaby, as he has holds a huge place in your heart.

~Michelle~
Mommy to Spike, 6-1-02 to 6-20-13
And Buddy!!!
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Dear Bedomom,
Your sweet little son Bedo is just precious - your love flows from your writings. I enjoyed the Chinese translations and your special songs were adorable (Lee Lee had some songs to) - What a special bond you have with your baby. I know your life must be just turned upside down - I am so very sorry for your loss.  I hope your wonderful memories of your beloved Bedo will bring your aching heart a bit of peace and comfort - you sound like a very strong lady - I admire your courage.

I want to thank you for visiting my Lee Lee's story - your sweet words mean a lot to me. I will be thinking of you....

Lee Lee's Mama
~she waits~

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Dear Michelle,

Thank you for your comforting words, I sensed the bad news prior to comming home (I had dream about Bedo's passing) and avoided making phone calls.  I hope I will get better with time, but every time I think about Bedo's pleading face before leaving, it hurts really bad.  I know there are certain things in life is not within our reach, but certain things can be avoided if I could just be more considerated...I try not to blame myself (it is hard) as the cold fact is I am a careless person and I usually fail when things are near the end, I need to take this SERIOUSLY and must try to avoid the same mistake in the future. 
I am glad you had Buddy, and I believe that Spike had sent him to you.  For some people, they avoid getting a new puppy as they are afraid of the recurring pain, but to me getting a new puppy (especially through adoption) would be a great help and very rewarding.  I still have Bedo's two boys, his faithful wife (Trina) to take care and they keep me occupied.
Trina was very faithful to Bedo, she would not want to be near any other boy beside Bedo.  She would run away if any want to be near her, the funny thing was, if she could not run away, she would sit on the grass tightly and don't want to be bothered.  Trina is very smart, even when she was a puppy, I remember once incidence that when I was handling treat to my babies, she came for her took the cookie and hid it - then I thought she might have lost the first cookie, guess what, later I found out she was eating two cookes in the hidden corner...ah there ar so many good memories and I love my babies more and more each day.
I know I will never forget Beed Beed as he was my first pet and he was very special, we have this strong connection and I am sure I will feel him for the rest of my life.
Thank you again for your comforting words, there are so many understanding people from this website, I don't get much support from people around me, as to them, Pets just "animals" and there is no big deal.  This website is like a group of caring family members and I am very greatful.
Bedomom
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Bedomom,

I'm so sorry for your loss. Your beautiful, hear-warming letters to your handsome boy brought tears to my eyes. They're overflowing with love and everyone can see what a strong bond you and Bedo share. I hope in time the love and happy memories will wash away any guilt you may still harbour, because there's no doubt you were a great Mom and your sweet boy was so lucky to have you. Hugs, take care!
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Dear Bedomom,

Auntie Elise just checking in with you...hope you are doing better today and every day getting stronger. Please give my little nephews big hugs from Ontario, and you too.

Have been very exhausted lately...grief is very tiring. Am trying to take care of myself better. Hope you are doing sweet gentle loving things for taking care of yourself, eating good food, plenty of rest and reducing stress. Bedo doesn't want you to beat yourself up or feel bad...please try to forgive yourself as he would, if he actually had anything to forgive you for. I write this thinking of Buddy...have many regrets, too...but he wouldn't want me to so I'm working on that.

I loved hearing about how smart Trina is! That is very cute, what she did with the treats! They are all so very unique and special, aren't they?

Take care Bedomom...you are always close in my thoughts,

Buddy's mom

xoxoxoxoxo

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Dear Bud Bud Boy and Sweet Antie Elise:

You both are just sweet sweet as Chinese pears! I am doing ok,  The feeling just flash back sometimes, it is nice to have this website so we can "spoiled our own emotions" as one of my co-worker put it when I am being sentimental.

We are doing great thank you for asking Sweet Anutie as mom is taking care of us well despite of her busy working schedule.  She walks us every morning and evening which is good for her and us too.   Lots of hugs and kisses from the West all the way to the East to you and Beautiful Buddy Cousin.

Mom is hoping that you are doing ok too, as Buddy has told our dad that you are a softie, so is mom.  The weekend is comming but mom will be working tommorrow as she has lots of files pilled up (make more money for our treats).  She likes to spoil us with dried chicken breast.  Mom still has guilt about dad's passing but by keeping busy with us, she is slowly doing better.  Yes Trina has always been like a mattress staffer, she hides her treats and eat slowly and would not waste any.  She a bit cranky but loyal and smart.  She knows all the ladies who walk in the evenings she would call them from a long distance and run to them, everyone loves her.  We are boy a little bit cool as we take after our father.
Antie, we hope you will take a lots of rest and just enjoy the fact that Bud Bud cousin is at peace and he is happy as now he has many more cousins and friends.  Don't think too much and mix this pain with other things, sometimes we can get our emotions wind up and cause more complications.  In chinese there is an old saying that Simplicity is a blessing.
Have a nice weekend sweet Auntie
Lots of hugs and kisses to you and Bud Bud
Bedomom, Trina, Laughin and Bo

   
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Bedomom,
No worries - a lot of folks thought she was a boy - she even had a deep, gruff "boy" voice.  She was not offended in the least Antie.  

Thanks for explaining the translation - they are both perfect - she was both beautiful and a blessing.  I hope she is listening - I could use some love and hugs from my girl. And I hope you are feeling some peace in your heart tonight.

Hugs to you,
Lee Lee's Mama
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Beed Beed Ah,
Ma mi sorry boy, mom have been working today and have not have time to write you, but you have been on mom's mind all day and in mom's mind all the times! how are you up there baby? I hope you are happy playing with your friends. Mom had received card from Oak Animal Hospital today, the place where you had spent your last moment on earth and met mom for last time remember? the card is very heart warming and mom had put it right beside you. Baby if you are not sure how mom feels, please read the card then you will know as the staff had witnessed mom's reaction toward your trip to the rainbow bridge.  As tough as life can be, mom always believe there are still a lots of angels on earth to sustain love and humanity. This faith has keeps mom going.  Baby mom is at a stage where mom is looking for peace in general and in missing you specifically.  Help mom ma mi's boy and tell all your friends up there to help their moms and dads too, you know after all you angels haveleft to heaven, we all are very very vunerable and lost!
Baby mom is cooking chicken soup today, remember mom had always gave you some in the small cesar's container and you loved its taste.  Can you smell it now baby? will put some in your old cesar's tray and put beside you ok, it is the thought that counts...baby, mom has been through a lots in life which mom can tell you in details in mom's dreams but there is no experience is ever as hard as the thought of missing you...Let just say missing you for the time being is very very tough. Baby you know how much you mean to me? You mean everything to me:
You are the answer to my lonely prayer
You are an angel from the above
I was so lonely when you came to me
With the wonder of your love...
Oh my darling I love you so...you mean everything to me... Good night sweet heart, see you in ma mi's dream.
Lots of hugs, kisses and scratches on the tummy!
Mom  
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