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EliseT

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Dear Bedomom,

Buddy and I have never tried Chinese pears...thank you so much for describing their flavor and comparing their sweetness to us!

Thank you too, for the reminder - there are sweet angels here on earth too, to guide our paths and help heal our hearts on our life's journey.

Bedo is loving his chicken soup from mom, so sweet of his mom to cook for her baby and give him the best tastes he loves! He loves mom's poem, and knows with all his heart how much he means to her.

Bedo sending lots of heaven's sweetness to his mom...hugs and kisses - xoxoxoxoxoxo



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Dear Beed Beed,
Mom had a talked with Jenny yesterday (mom have been avoiding this as it pains so much).  Despite of the pain, to mom, the best way to deal with emotional problems is to face them.  Jenny told mom that you could not eat even when she had tried to feed you with the Sryinge.  Prior to your trip, you had her bathed and dried you, ah you had always been very clean and presentable and you even thought of that before leaving.  Baby, you are not "Just A Dog", you are ma mi's Bedo Chay, Momma's Boy, you always walked to the stair to say goodbye to Jenny when she left after visiting you (due to your health issues you always preferred laying in you bed).  You were not only smart but was such a gentleman and you always will be, this will gain a lots of friendships from The Above.  You had rested peacefully at home for 2 days before leaving to the hospital, if not for this, mom could not have found you.  You see baby, you had always been so smart and you are even smarter after you have advanced to Heaven.  You even told mom to find you when there was still a chance by calling the hospital again at night prior to closing.
Baby, mom is more at peace to find out that you had a pleasant trip. Despite of you had decided not to let mom witness your leaving, mom still feel bad for leaving you when you needed mom the most.  Yes mom knows you had forgiven mom and you are at peace now but it still ache to the bone when this though come accross mom's mind. You would  say just let go mom, but no, mom can not do that, it is ok to carry some pain to remind yourself of your own mistake to be better and mom can take it.  Hopefully from time to time, this pain will become something positive for mom.  Baby, sometimes when we love something too much, we may not be rational enough to make good decisions...Deeply inside our hearts we know what we each other means...
Love, kiss, hug and scratches to my beautiful son
Mom      
 
Bedomom

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Bedo Ah,
Another Monday Again, You have advanced to Heaven for almost a month now baby, miss you so much but the thought of you keep mom warm. Despite of the feeling of missing you, mom is at peace and closer to you than never before.  Baby looking at the figs trees reminding me so much of you,it  is  a miracle that we still have good figs at this time of the year.  Mom believes that they are intentionally here for you  as you used to love figs so much.  Baby, you had always been a very smart boy and wanted to be close to mom and mom knows and senses that well.  Remember when you was staying with Chan, you would try to run away whenever you had a chance, you knew that she was too much a party animal and she would not take a good care of you. Chan had to bail you out so many times from the City's Animal Control, and whenever she called them, their response would be "Is Bedo Missing Again?" that was cute statement.  All mom's cousin said that you were quite famous for being a "Runaway Kid".  You had always barked at boys at ages of 7-9 for no reason despite of you had always been very soft and reserved.  Mom did not know why until found out you were hit by a boy from the back with a stick at Chan's hair salon.  You had always on guarded from things that were comming behind you.  At first you even scare to let mom pat you from behind,  mom remember those first momments but mom is proud to say that you had trusted mom completely and let mom rub you with mom's feet for the last two years.  Baby you see, you are very special to mom and there is no way mom can put this special feeling in words, mom just feel the strong connection.  There is no way mom can be thankful enough for having you comming to mom's life.
Mom has to get back to work now, just a few lines to say that you are in my thought, Son!
Mom
        

LeeLeesMama

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Bedomom,
I just had you on my heart tonight - I hope you are having a peaceful evening filled with some extra special memories of your little son Bedo. He sounds like quite the little character, I know you are missing him so much.  As you say, it is hard to put feelings into words - but I think you have a wonderful gift for knowing what to say and how to say it. Like calling my Lee Lee "Triumphant" - that meant a lot to me. I never know quite what to say and struggle to put my few thoughts into proper words, but I wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and hoping your heart is feeling some comfort. I know your Bedo is watching over his special mom.

Hugs to you tonight...
Melanie "Double L's Mama"
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My heart aches for you marking the one month, what lovely letters you write to your boy, I find it hard to write the right words that I'm feeling. loved the part about the chicken soup for Bedo, our Max also loved home made chicken noodle soup. Maybe the two of them are having some tonight as we had some today too..   ((hugs)) maxsMandD
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Dear Bedomom,

Woke up this morning thinking of you and Bedo and my sweet little nephews - hugs to all of you from Ontario! Thank you for continuing to share your stories and descriptions of Bedo - it is precious to learn about his personality and his little special ways of being in the world with you his mom! You helped Bedo trust again and conquer his fears of being touched from behind...what a lucky boy Bedo is to have you for his mom.

Buddy is sending you big hugs from heaven and for his earthly cousins, too...

Warm thoughts to all of your family and hopes for a brighter day today,

Love,

Buddy's mom
Bedomom

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Dear Beed Beed,
Halloween is here, last year, mom just stayed inside cozy inside the house and calmed you guys when there was firecrackers. Mom loves to make children happy but because of many of you, mom had to be a scrooge for Holloween.  This year, mom wanted to give, to make the cute children happy, mom stayed outside an hour handling out treats, it was a good feeling Son, the chidren were so cute in costumes and very polite. 
Baby, if mom did not go to vacation with granma, you would still be here,but mom also had came to a realization that it is not the length of life, it is the quality of life itself, you were loved, mom was loved and we always be loved that is what really matters.  Baby, you and mom are atually opposite you know that right? you are very deep and reserve while your mom is being very silly and sloppy.  You know mom has a soft spot for four legs that's why mom could not give your children away, mom also took the two little chihuahua sisters in as mom knew their owner would leave them outside.   Sorry because of this you did not have mom's full attention, you knew that and had became more quiet and reserved, you seem to be happy in your little cozy bed.  Mom knew that too that was why mom would take you to work whenever mom had a chance to give you more times during the day.  In addition, mom always gave you more treats to compensate that.  Well mom did try to give alway the two little Chihuahua, Minie and Tropi to good homes, but Minnie refused to eat, while Tropi acted bad intentionally so those people would return them to mom.  Baby, you four legs are famous for being sneaky.
Mom is very blessed to found this website may be you have led mom here, people from this site are very understanding, they are not like the ones mom see at work, who worry to death about money issues, who sleep on little problems...there are millionares who would send mom 10 emails as they sleep on little things.  Telling people about your passing would be a joke as their responses would be oh he is just a dog, he is old and lucky enough to live this long.  The sadest thing is they assume people like your silly mom are not defined as "normal" who cares right son, whatever..
To mom, having the privilege of you came to mom's life is a blessing, being able to take care of your sibling is happiness, a simple good morning or a smile in the morning from strangers while walking you guys could just made mom's day,,,these are the Simple Abundance but normal people no matter how smart, rich and sucessful they are, they just don't get it son!
Mom loves this website but mom also have to admit that one thing mom hates from this website is seeing Angels to to Heaven..even though mom knows that this is their destiny...If there is only one wish, mom want to wish that those Angels could stay healthy stay longer or much longer with their Moms/Dads/as they love their angels very much...you are a good looking and clever boy can you use your charm to ask The Authority Up The Above...ah you may say you are being silly mom..but Son this time I AM VERY VERY SEIOUS.. 
Sending you warm embrace and lots of scratches to you little white flat belly!
Mom
EliseT

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Dear Bedomom, 

You share such beautiful thoughts with your sweet Bedo...it is a privilege beyond measure that these sweet little ones come into our lives to make such a difference for us, in the best ways possible! As you say, we share Simple Abundance in the smiles and warm glances that come our way, and the words of comfort and encouragement that help our hearts be stronger. 

Buddy found me a poem to share...he wants us to be reminded that Big B and Little B, and all the beloved fur babies in Heaven are always with us:

I'M STILL HERE

Friend, please don’t mourn for me
I’m still here, though you don’t see.
I’m right by your side each night and day
and within your heart I long to stay.

My body is gone but I’m always near.
I’m everything you feel, see or hear.
My spirit is free, but I’ll never depart
as long as you keep me alive in your heart.

I’ll never wander out of your sight-
I’m the brightest star on a summer’s night.
I’ll never be beyond your reach-
I’m the warm moist sand when you’re at the beach.

I’m the colorful leaves when fall comes around
and the pure white snow that blankets the ground.
I’m the beautiful flowers of which you’re so fond,
The clear cool water in a quiet pond.

I’m the first bright blossom you’ll see in the spring,
The first warm raindrop that April will bring.
I’m the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine,
and you’ll see that the face in the moon shine is mine.

When you start thinking there’s no one to love you,
you can talk to through the Lord up above you.
I’ll whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees,
and you’ll feel my presence in the soft summer breeze.

I’m the hot salty tears that flow when you weep
and the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep.
I’m the smile you see on a baby’s face.
Just look for me friend, I’m every place!

        ~Author Unknown



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Dear Beed Beed:

It has been a month since you left to the Rainbow Bridge, baby, mom miss you so much, mom's biggest regret is not be able to be with you when you needed mom the most.  Baby, I am so sorry, mom has written a poem for you, it may not sound very smooth as English is mom's second language, but the words are from mom's wounded heart and they are aching to the bone:

If I could bring back time

I would want to give you a warm embrace

At times your health could not be replaced

If I could bring back time

I would hold you tight on your gloomiest place

To make you feel warm in that ugly state

Because I could not bring back time

I had to hold you in a coldest place

I hope you had felt

My belated warm embrace

Something I wanted to place

But time had taken its place

If I could bring back time

I would not leave you when looking at your sad face

With beautiful pleading eyes that could not be replaced

if I could bring back time,

I would always want to see that beautiful face

with loving eyes that brighten up my fate...

Baby, mom is crying now mom miss you very much, missing seeing you lay comfortably on your little pad, ,missing your restless steps at nights, missing you greeting mom when mom is back from work.  It was very sweet of Buddy to send mom a special poem above, it is very comforting to know that mom always have you by mom's side at four seasons and inside mom's heart.  Mom has chose a few lines from Buddy's poem that mom want to dedicate to you my beautiful Bee Beed:
You are the First Bright Blossom that mom will see in the spring
You are the brightest Star that mom will see on a Summer Night
You are the colourful fig and cherry leaves on our yard these days
You are the pure white snow blanket on our play ground which mom will see when winter comes
You are the hot salty tears that flow whenever mom weeps
Oh baby, please come home, come to our home sweet home mom want to see you in mom's dream so bad..Here is the picture at on the right front of our house, the path that we had been walking for years.  Babies please come home to mom, mom needs to feel your tummy, your soft furs and most of all, and mom wants to give you a warm and safe embrace!  Mom will sing our favourite song to you, including Trina too, she always complains whenever mom sings the song to Minnie and Tropi, she is very bossy and wants this to be her and yours song only:
Don't be cruel, if your heart is Beed Beed's......
Please come home to mom Baby, Mom Miss you, happy one month bridge day; please invite Buddy, Lee Lee, Max and all the angels from the above for Chinese Food. 
Mom




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Happy 1 month, Bedo. It will not matter how much time goes by, you will always be missed and loved. Your love is a bond that will always unite the ones that love you. Give your mom a dream visit soon she misses you so very much.   maxsMandD
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Bedomom,
My heart is with you today - these anniversary days are so very difficult - all those memories seem to come flooding back.  Your pain and longing is so heartbreaking - I know you miss little Bedo so very badly.  Your poem for him is so touching - "If I could bring back time..." I believe it is what we all wish for and can't have. Your sweet little Bedo is looking down on you today - with so much love - saying "It is OK Mom - I am OK and I love you so much"

Happy One Month Bridge Day Angel Bedo!  I know your party is the talk of the Bridge and every one is there enjoying that wonderful Chinese food.  When you can little angel - please go to see your dear Mom - she needs a visit from her little Beed Beed - she is missing you so much. It will be such a wonderful gift to her heavy heart...

Special hugs today Bedomom....Bedo will send you a sign - be watching!!!
Melanie (Lee Lee's Mama)
Bedomom

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Dear Beed Beed, This morning mom managed to get picture of your favourite bush, remember the park we used to go with so many friends, Mico, Dominique, Freddie, Bobby, Jake, Shadow, Luna, Duke, Mike and many of your friends, you used to just played by yourself lurking in that bush until time to go home. Freddie’s owner always said you were a funny guy as you did not care too much about anything else except that bush. You will see Bobby, Shadow, Luna, and Dominique up there, those guys are younger but they have been to the Rainbow Bridge long before you did, We did an OK job right Son...Miss you so much! Happy One Month Bridge Day, remember be happy, mom is still working at the Getting used too of missing your presence, it is hard so...as mom see you everywhere for years and mom have to use mom's heart to see and despite of having a great source of comfort but it will take a long time to get used to...one thing for sure is that our loving bond will always unite us...thank you to a reminder from Max's Mom, he is just as cute as you are son! Have a Blast up there with the gangs!
Love and hugs to you my Beloved Baby Bedo, Beed Beed.

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Dear Little B,

Happy one month Bridge Day, Beed Beed! You are the best host...what a feast! All the kids are so happy celebrating your special one month anniversary day! We moms and dads are there with all of you in spirit...and yes, our bonds of love can never be severed...they stretch across all places and time so we can truly never be apart. 

Mom wrote you beautiful poetry today, can you imagine anything more beautiful than mom's sweet words and love for you? She is missing you very much at home right now, your little ways and presence...please come to her soon, in a sweet dream to let her know you are happy and enjoying your new friends and home. Even just a tiny little sign and she will know you have reached out to her and are comforting her in the way that only you can do.

Have fun, little nephew, and please don't let Buddy eat too much food - he was always one for that!

Lots of Love, Hugs, Kisses and Belly Scratches from Aunt Esa,

xoxoxoxoxo!!!!

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Aunt Esa and Sweet Nephew:
Can't thank enough for your kind thoughts! thank you again for the beautiful poem Buddy!
MaxParents:
Thank you for your reminder that love only grows stronger as time goes by and again, Max is just so cute in that birthday picture.  I can immagine he loves dress up and posting for pictures.
LeeleesMama,
Yes our angel are looking up for us and they will always be in our hearts. The anniversaries are time to remember the love we have shared.
Beed Beed:
Whenever mom cooks a big Chinese feast for your ritual at any occasion, don't forget to invite all your angel friends, I know you, Buddy, Max, and Lee Lees are Buddy now, they will invite themselves.  Give Lee Lee special treatment as she is the only girl...
Also, show them your favourite bush so you all can run around in circles and each take turn to sing our favourite song that will be so fun, your silly mom has already visualized that.
Love and hugs to all our angels and their sweet moms and dads
Bedomom
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Dear Bedomom, 

Oh goodness, I am sure our babies are still so stuffed with all that great food from Bedo's first month feast! And, I can see all of our fun loving babies running around Beed Beed's favorite bush, playing a game of chase! There is a place at Buddy's doggy park, where the dogs run and run around this tree...around and around they go in so many circles...it was so much fun to watch them.

Bedo loves his 'silly' mom's visualizations...they are very true to reality for our babies playing at the Bridge!  

Love and Hugs to all our sweet angel babies, and to the wonderful moms and dads who hold them close in their hearts, 

Elise, Buddy's mom
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I wanted to wish your beautiful boy a wonderful 1st month bridgeday.  I know how much he is missed.  Poms are really special little dogs who think they are for sure human and they are very strong willed.  At least the 2 I have had have been like that.  And so smart.

I wish for you more smiles than tears as you just passed his one month anniversary at the bridge.  We will see them again someday.

Love,  Diane, Mom of Miss Dallas at the bridge 11 years[dallasonchest]

 

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Belated 1-month Bridge Day, Beed Beed! Hope you had a nice party with your new friends, but don't forget to pay your Mom a visit soon, she misses you so much!
Bedomom, you are in my thoughts tonight. I loved your beautiful letters to your boy, they make me smile through my tears, Beed Beed's life with you was clearly filled with love, I hope you find some comfort in all the wonderful memories. Hugs, take care!
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Thank you Elise, yes they all will have a feast up there all the times, singing my silly song and running around the bush, I am a food person so is Bedo, will make sure they all have good healthy home meals! I love seeing the Big B and Little B together now we have Miss cuty Dallas and the Sweet elegant Prince Rufus too...and many many other of our beloved angels..

Diane, your love for Dallas for all those long years will only grow stronger and thank you for your kind words, when we look back everything just seem like yesterday.

Mihaela, Thank you, Beed Beed is happy that he has a new charming friend, The White Prince who looks so beautiful and elegant!

And Beed Beed,
Another month has comes and goes, it pains mom to acknowlege the fact that you WAS HERE LAST NOVEMBER and we had our little plan for Christmas! baby how mom  wish mom could go  back to happier days! as sad and as painful as this can be mom has been struggling to experience the " physical loss unconditional love" .  Baby, the transition from physical to sprirtual will take time and mom is hoping to get better each day...OK mom is not trying to be greedy, mom will take having Beed Beed in mom's heart, and having Beed Beed sweet spirit by mom's side is considered a blessing.  Baby, your presverence in fighting cancer was something that any human being could learn, you withheld the pain and mom coud feel it in your eyes, but you fought and fought with your feisty attitudes..mom know if mom was at your side we could have much more time...ok, it is the quality times that we are talking about son and I am not whinning.  With Beed Beed by mom's side for the last seven years mom was loved, did not know how but mom was working two jobs, school at night, assignments online on a weekly basis, passed PD exam, while having family problems, failured in ivf treatments a selfish ex who was so unsupportive and who hates dogs?  how could a middle aged woman went through all that? mom knows now, something mom has taken for granted for so long was Beed Beed's love, when mom was stressful and tired, by just looking at you patting you and scratching you, mom was totally recharged again.  Baby, there is no way in the world mom could be thankful enough.  Mom remember having Beed Beed by mom's side while doing the assignment online, mom remember running home like a kid after night school just to see Beed Beed's face.  Baby with our strong loving bond, mom promise mom will be ok, mom will be a better person each day mom will do that for Beed Beed, for my beautiful Angel without wings who had been silently by mom's side, gave mom silence love and support for all those painful years.Son, I thank you for that. Deep inside mom's heart, mom knows you still around to send your continue support and blessing, you are the dim of light in mom's heart that will live on and mom knows all other angels are doing the same for their moms and dads too.
Love you son and hug hug to you and all the beautiful angels!
Mom
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Bedomom- you write such wonderful letters to Bedo, straight from the heart, I know your boy is listening and watching everything you do. I'm sure he can hardly wait til the two of you are together again eating chicken noodle soup.((hugs ))    maxsMandD
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Bedomom,
As MaxsMandD said - your letters to Bedo are wonderful.  Your little Bedo was so strong and brave and he truly was a rock of support for you, keeping you grounded and giving you encouragement and the sweetest love - I know you are missing him so much - that is hard to part with.  He is still watching and sending love - just from above right now.  I can just imagine Bedo, Buddy, Max, little red-headed Dallas, Rufus, Lee Lee and all their friends sitting there looking down on "their people".  And Bedo saying - yes, that's my Mom right over there....Can you see her?....Just watch - she needs me -  I'm going to send her a sign....

Hugs Bedomom...
Lee Lee's Mama
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Bedomom, I'm sure your boy loves your letters, I know I do, they paint such a vivid picture of Beed Beed's life and character and they're reminding us all of the light and love that lingers in our sweet babies' wake. Thank you for including my baby in the gang, even if he seems so aristocratic and dignified in those pictures (The White Prince, that was so beautiful), he loves to play and I'm sure he enjoys being part of that happy crowd. Hugs!
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MaxsMandD, Thank you I just need to put my feelings toward him in writing, I am not exaggerating, but for the last 7 years that 6lbt little Furry Boy was really like a little powerful Angel.  I am sure you feel the same about your little cutie Max too.  My chicken soup is made from organic chicken with carrots, parsely and seeweeds, they are very healthy and tasty, I am sure Max and all the gangs will like it.  
 
LeeLeesMama, Yes he was my rock, that little Boy, now he has many more friends, beside Lee Lee, Buddy, and max..now the little classy red-headed Dallas and Rufus too.  It is a nice feeling visualizing them playing together and watch out for us moms and dads who love them dearly.  I hope to receive some signs from Bedo but I know he is quite sneaky, he may send me a big riddle to figure out things. 

Mihaela, The White Prince is as beautiful as one of the furry stars. I hope you don't mind as I have already considered him as a member of the Double B's Gangs.  Big Boy Bubbly Buddy is the leader and I trust him completely.  Buddy's biggest angel wings will keep those little babies safe and warm. 

Thank you all for your kind thoughts.
Hugs to You All!
Bedomom
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Dear Bedomom, 

It's so true, eh? Wanting to go back to the happier days...it is hard to think of Christmas this year but must try to remember that our furry gang of sweet children will be very busy celebrating and keeping occupied with the festivities of the Rainbow Bridge. It is so much fun for them to welcome the new kids into the fold, too...Rufus the elegant Prince, and now the classy Miss Dallas...our veteran Bridge gal who is teaching them all the ropes! 

You have been through so much in the last few years - all of the many hardships and your perseverance through many trials and painful life lessons. You are a much stronger person because of it, but still very hard to endure everything you had to go through at the time. And I know Beed Beed was such a big part of it for you - he is so proud of mom for doing what she did and of course he was there for mom every step of the way, could always be depended on for his unconditional love and support even through his mom's worst of times. 

I don't think Bedo ever thought you took his love or presence for granted - he just loved all the attention...all the petting and scratches from his sweet mom, who lived for the moment when she would be with him again, when she got home from school or being out somewhere. Me too...one of the best parts of coming home was always Buddy - looking forward to his sweet greetings, his big hugs and knowing he was so happy for mom to be home again so our time could begin anew. (That is so sweet, that you think of Big Bubbly B as the leader - he is taking his responsibility very seriously and making sure all the kids are warm, snug and happy...)

As you say, we have all forged the strongest bonds of love with our babies, and these bonds only grow stronger each day, as we think of them and relive our beautiful moments together. 

Bedo - a constant light and blessing for his mom's heart...now today and always...

Hugs,

Elise, Buddy's mom

P.S. Please let us know when Bedo's riddle or little sign comes - we all love hearing about his quirks and funny little ways of being!


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Dear Buddy's Mom
We all feel guilty because we think pain is not showing enough loves for our boys! I think Rufus's mom will agreed too, we human brains are just too complicate sometimes.  The Boys know that but we are just too stubborn. There is no doubt that the Big B and Little B are "The Wind Beneath Our Wings".  Buddy has given his love to His Auntie and I have asked Little B to send his love and blessings to Auntie Budd's Mom as well. .Beed Beed is a 5lb little soul but he is very wise old soul  I believe Auntie could use his help anytimes.  The Big B and little B are perfect team in watching out for each other and they will also join force to send us more blessings and support in the most spiritual way.
I miss Beed Beed but I know he is happy now.  I have him in the cozy corner and have his Son Laughing fold his paws when paying respect to him each morning and evening (I follow the Chinese way in term of paying respect for elderly who has gone to heaven).  Laughing has done a good job so far and I think Beed Beed is  smiling having his son's love.  Laughing used to be on guard for Beed all the times.  No matter wherever Laughing is whenever I call him to pay respect to dad, we would run close to my arm to pay respect for his dad.  I am blessed that I can communicate with my babies very well, even my clients tell me that as they have witnessed this at work...Trina would run so fast for hiding whenever I say "brush teeth" or cut the "fingernails".  I don't know if Beed Beed has send any signs for me, but I found some waterly area near the bed after his passing, and I also feel that I have seen things more clearly now.  In the past, I used to make quick and bad decision but now if there is anything involve in decision making, the good or bad seems to be very very obvious...
I miss Beed, Buddy's Mom but I know he is always with me, so is Buddy who is always by your side!
Hugs
Bedomom

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Dear Beed Beed:
Mom just wants to say mom miss you, mom am glad to let you know that there is progress in mom's journey of recovery in missing you. Majorly is due to help of Buddy Boy, his sweet Mum, LeeLeesMama, Rufus's mom, Dallas’ mum, Max's Parents, and all other wonderful moms and Dads from this site. Baby, mom honestly hates to see whenever there is news from this site about new kid to heaven, mom is running out of thing to say as it has become a cliché...mom just feels their parents' pain and pray that they all will find peace from time to time...you know Beed, your kids' love are just pure unconditional and is  irreplaceable, that's why we are really lost without you...Please tell all the kids up there to send their parent strength and blessing to let them pass these difficult times...Mom found picture of you as a proud daddy in November 2007.  Six years but it just seems like yesterday.  Mom misses you so much, missing your beautiful loving eyes, your protruding gesture and your cutest nose, your lashes is something else it enhance your eyes to its purest beauty, under that fragile beauty, you process a feisty spirit.  Baby as mom had said before you are opposite to mom, your mom appears to be tough but she is a  tomato inside, that’s why Mom always needs you.  Beed Beed knows that well and mom  know you will continue to support mom!

Hug hug and scratches to the tummy!

Mom

EliseT

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Dear Bedomom, 

I love how you say our "B" boys are "The Wind Beneath Our Wings"...it is a beautiful image as they are both strong and enduring, always helping and supporting in their silent peaceful gentle ways. Thank you, for having little "B" send Buddy's mom love and blessings - she can feel him very much, and at just the right time, too!

Auntie Esa can see the wisdom and beauty shining through Beed Beed's eyes, and she is so happy to have his love and sweet presence. Bedo is a wise ancient one, and it is a beautiful honoring of him, the Chinese way of paying respects to the elders. He must love that Laughing is doing this for dad now, with such poise with the crossing of paws...very sweet and filled with so much respect - no wonder Beed Beed is such a proud dad!

Have to laugh - you are a tomato inside! That is very funny...there's another saying in English, too...about being a "marshmallow" inside...but tomato is just as accurate! So many moms and dads here are marshymallows and tomatoes...need our furry kids to send us strength and endurance, to help us be strong for them, and for ourselves too. Still much work needs to be done - other furry kids who need food and homes, families that need help, people suffering with typhoons in Philippines...it is a world full of opportunities for helping.  

Beed Beed - you are such a beautiful expressive boy! Auntie will always love this close-up picture of you...your eyes are so big and beautiful...windows into the soul as one poet wrote or words close to that in meaning. Mom misses you very much, but you can be encouraged that she is making progress now, and she loves sharing about your feisty spirit and your special traits that make you your mom's special Bedo boy!  

Hugs and more hugs to all the moms, dads and furry kids in heaven and on earth!

xoxoxoxxo!!

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Bedo's mom you can see the love he has for you in those big beautiful eyes, so cute. Yes I believe all pet parents are big Tomatoes ( marshmallow) as you say, our love for them  is forever and that is why we miss them so much when they leave this world to go to the Bridge. May they all be happy...  ((hugs))   maxsMandD
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Bedo's Mom,
What a beautiful photo of your sweet Little Bedo with his ears all slicked back -  such a precious little face.  For some reason, that always tugs at my heart when they hold their ears back like that. I wish you peace and healing - your little boy loves his Mom so much - he wants you to remember his love...
Big hugs...
Lee Lee's Mama
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Auntie Esa, Yes our eyes are window to the soul, when you think of our heavenly eyes you will find peace.  My mom got the "tomatoe" word from her Latino friend, and she is not sure if they use that term in Spanish.  In Chinese we say Tofu for softie.  Big B and I and all little angels up here are gathering together in the meadows,  praying for all those people who are suffering.  We know all the people in the world is working together to on this healing mission, and we pray aid will be comming to those people. when things like this happen, we learn more about humanity and values of life.

Oh Bubbly boy, you have a birth mark, so is Alvin, he has one right at the corner of his right eye Auntie does not know that until recently as one of auntie's friends tried to rub the "dirt" of his eye and it did not go away.  Alvin is very special, when he was a baby, he had the white mark "I" in the middle of his foreheard, at the left of his bottom tummy, there was a white clear White heart sign, and at the right of his Tummy there was the clear letter "Y".  Clients inf the office used to call him "I LOVE YOU" but these marks disappeared when he got older.

MaxMandD - Yes Beed's eyes are so big, this is taking from the original picture and they are not too clear, he has eyes that you just can say No...Our kids are happy for sure, when there is big Bubbly B as a chief and little Indian B, there should always be a party.

LeeLeesMama, Yes he played with his ears all the time, he made a very funny gesture when he tried to listen...Beed was  very smart, I taught him shake paw in a whiz, i wanted both hands and he did it right away, thinking back it was just like yesterday.  I wish you peace and healing too with the beautiful memories of double L...

Thank you all for dropping by,
Bedomom

Beed Beed, mom just say mom REMEMBER you at this Rememberance day, and mom loves you very very much.
Hug to you my boy, and all the angels and their sweet moms and dads at this Rememberance day, a day to remember love!
Mom

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Thank you Beed Beed, and all beautiful furry kids at the Bridge, for remembering us mom's and dad's on Remembrance Day...so true, it is a day to remember pure love! And to remember all of the sweet deeds and kindnesses you kids have shown us two-legged's! All of the good examples of our babies, help us to be better and more giving generous souls. You are the ambassadors of love, sweet angel children...we send all of you big hugs and scratches and tummy rubs! Thank you for your prayers for moms and dads broken hearts, to help us learn from the trials and tribulations that come into this world, to remember to extend the helping hands and to live by the highest values.

Hugs to moms and dads, hugs to sweet earth and heaven angels - we remember, that unconditional love and compassion are the king and queen of the universe - thank you babies, for having so much patience with us, you never give up on us!

xoxoxoxo!!

Bedomom

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Thank you Aunt Esa for the scratches and tummy rubs, it feels so good!  I did not get that a lots prior to my trip to the RB as mom was too busy with work and taking care of other kids.  Yes we angels here are keeping busy too, Buddy is doing well as a chief up there, he is a friendly giant and we all love his bubbly personality.  Auntie, I love receive letters from you but you can spend more time with new kids in the Rainbow Bridge as they parents need you more, mom is a bit guilty as she takes a lots of your time even though she also loves to hear from you.  Thank you again for your loving message, lots of hugs and kisses from heaven to earth from Big B and me to you sweet Auntie.
Your nephew,
Beed Beed.

Beed Beed:
Mom here, yesterday while doing your morning ritual, mom pray that if my little B boy has forgiven mom, the scent should be burned all the way without falling down, yes it did not, it first formed a question mark and then burned all the way down to a full string...this morning too, another question mark then it formed a circle without breaking.  mom thinks Beed must be asking why mom went away? or why mom is still sad as we will meet again in the circle of love. Mom's interpretation may not be right, please come to mom's dream and tell mom more.  Mom knows Beed boy and mom have a strong connection, as toghether, we have fought against cancer, if mom did not go to that fateful vacation, Beed would still be here for sure.  Beed ah, mom know you had lived for almost 16 years on earth, but to mom it was never enough, mom just hate not seeing you home...eventhough there is a big gang in the house, nothing compares to you my sweetheart, you are just so so special, you were exactly like my little two legged boy...you were a little human being period.  Mom hates seeing the pavements in our front and back yard without Beed, it is so empty, so is the house mom yearning to hear Beed Beed's footsteps on the hardwood floor as you hated cutting toe nails, everytime mom did it, you yelled and making sound like uttering human language, all the kids had to scream for your strangest voice...mom had to carry you outside for cutting toe nails.  Baby, this morning, mom walked by your favourite park and bush again, there was a feeling of sadness as how quick time has gone by..while standing in the park, mom recalled all the kids' happy and sweet faces playing happily together with each other, with their parents...now most of them are gone to the RB, you must have seen all of them up there...you may see Agness too, the sweet blonde lady who even yelled at mom for using the newspaper roll to discripline you guys - she always said mom was mean person and would report mom to SPCA...that was very funny, mom was a tiger mom sometimes as having so many of you, mom don't want you to get into trouble.  Baby, you know they only allow three per household, so Laughing and the two Chihuahua are considered refugees without residential status...mom has to be very carefully and so far they all quite behave...Laughing had some complain during your illness as he alway barked at Bo when he tried to come near you...Laughing knew you were not a match for big Bo, now he much more quiet...Beed, you mom don't know about the Laughing Boy, he had been naughtie from the day he was born, we named her Laughing after a character Laughing in the movie, he was quite naughty and smart as he was an undercover cop who joined a mafia gang...Laughing escaped the rainbow bridge 2 times, one time he was running for 6 minutes in rush hours traffic while cars were honking like crazy, at a second time he ran back to our yard one second before an over 100 lbls giant was going to bite him alive...this boy of you is just something else, he think he is born to protect every one and he can do whatever he wants, he watches for mom and all the little kids from big Bo and he is always active and on guard when he hear strang noises, mom actually feel very safe when he is around.  He can hears mom very well, just like you...mom always say, laughing ah, go to the corner, he would go there without bother mom, he litterly understands whatever mom wants to say.  In general mom is very bless to have him around, Laughing is as smart as you but he is very expressive, he wants to show everyone around that he is taking your place as a man in the house. 
Beed Beed mom feels your prescence all the times and mom think it must come from our strong connection...mom is bless to have this feeling as it helps mom in the healing process, the pain strikes sometimes but it is normal as it comes from love.  Baby I just want to say I love you and miss you so much, you don't know how difficult life has been without you...everything is not the same, there is a whole in everything that mom is trying to fill it from day by day and mom knows this whole is always there till we meet...
Love you my Baby
Mom
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Dear Beed Beed little nephew,

Thank you for writing and glad you like the little belly rubs and scratches! Please tell your mom not to feel guilty about time...your Aunt Esa thinking maybe she is taking up too much time as your mom has a lot going on, and is also trying to help many hurting people here, so we can just write briefer notes but stay in touch whenever we can. Soon, your Aunt Esa won't have as much time here, as she will need to focus more energy on her work but she loves writing Beed and Buddy and keeping in touch with the moms and dads who are missing fur babies so much. 

Beed, try to help mom with some answers to her questions and also she has the big hole in her heart from missing you so much...it is impossible for her to fill it completely but please send her a sign or come in a dream sometime...you will find a way to help her be strong and have a little more comfort, OK little B? 

Sending lots more little scratches and belly rubs...hugs and kisses to you sweet nephew, please spread them around to the other kids, OK and send a few to mom...(the hugs, that is)...! 

Lots more where those came from! 

Love always, 

Your Aunt Esa

xoxoxoxo!!


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Auntie Esa,
Thank you for all the belly rubs hugs and kisses, we had a very good time at Buddy's party yesterday, lots of foods and our angels had celeberate Big Boy's Big Day to the fullest.  Bud taught us catching frisbees, ah he was so thoughtful, get the small Frisbees for us shorties to play.  I always look up to him because his size but he is the gentlest and sweetest of all.  Auntie, I am glad that you are starting focusing on work, I wish you all the best in getting back to normal business as usual.  When you are stressful, just smile and you think of us B boys!  I know you two legged have a tough and complicate life.  Please do not  worry about Buddy, he is happy with all of us here.  I tend to avoid the big guys as I don't want get into trouble, but I like Buddy's company because he is very gentle, sweet and loving, sometimes I get jealous of the intentions he get from the angels up here.  I know you are very proud of him...Oh one funny thing mom found out that her post  to Buddy's two month Bridge did not go through because she mispelled the word Shihtzu as a "t" instead of "h" mom was so ambarrasse.  She was going to tell Buddy that she met a Shih Tzu Girl at Canadian Tire being yelled by the staff while she was waiting outside the store for her parents to come out...Yes Auntie, will keep mom's company in my sweet little spirit, so is Buddy to you, we constantly remind each other to talke care of our moms.  I know you miss Buddy and I know mom misses me a lots too, she walks pass my favourite bush everyday morning, calling out my name, I know she is still hurting...
Lots of Hugs to you from me and The Big Handsome Bubbly Chief
Love alwys,
Small Little B


 
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My Dear Little B Nephew, 

Thank you so much for sending Auntie lots of hugs and from my handsome Bubbly Boy too! I am so glad you like his company - he is a very gentle boy and he loves you completely, little B and he loves your mom completely too. I know how special you made Buddy's party...you and all the other sweet fur babies - your mom and me we love all of you guys and gals SO MUCH! Bud loves his Beed and we have all adopted each other and are family now...it is really a nice feeling and moms know our two B boys are watching over us moms all the time, even though you guys are still having your parties and your fun times and watching out for the other kids, too.

Are you getting the hang of the new Frisbee Buddy got for you little guys to play with? He is a very patient teacher but watch out, sometimes he likes to play keep away, and he can be a little bit selfish with the Frisbees, just so you know...(but you've probably already figured that one out, eh Beed?) Auntie would just love to give you a little squeeze right about now...some belly rubs and some nice scratches in your favorite places - you are my little angel nephew B. Your mom is so proud of you for everything you continue to do for her. Thank you for sending her the message through the fly the other day...that was a very clever way of letting mom know you are very close and never far from her. I'm glad you guys understand how complicated life can be for us disadvantaged two-legged's - you guys always have so much patience with us...you overlook all of our shortcomings and you give us the best examples to live by. You fur babies are the best! 

Please give your mom lots of hugs and kisses from heaven, as you know that she misses you so much, especially when she comes by the reminders of you, like your favourite bush. 

Love you little B - please give my Bubbly Boy big hugs, and spread them around to all the other special kids in your new family up there...we moms and dads miss you all very much but we are trying to be happy for you guys because we know you are in the best place ever...

Auntie Esa

xoxoxoxoxoxoxxo!!!!!


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Dear Sweet Auntie Esa:
Little B hope you are doing ok, I know you miss Buddy so much and I will tell him to come and visit you in his own ways.Today is my
49th Day, Mom made scramble eggs for me, she gave me a big fuji apple too, I will share them with Big B and all the angels. Auntie, it is almost mid night in Ontario, The Big Chief is already gone to bed, he told me to tell you that please don't feel sad, he is always home, if you close your eyes, you will feel him, he is running around the house like he used to.  Buddy loves you so much and he loves his home...he is not going anywhere, just like me.  I love to be home with mommy so much, that's why I waited to see mom and have her took me home against all odds, trust me Auntie, you will find Bud in all different forms, you know, we are good but sneaky Angels.  We know so well we was loved and each one of us had taken your sweet love with us to the Rainbow Bridge, that is why up here we have plenty of love inventory to share. Kindered spirits in human or in angels are the same, we receive, and we return, that's is the basic accounting principle; we took your love with us, we will spread it around from heaven and earth to heal all our moms and dads and to heal the world in general.
Good night Auntie
Hugs to you in your dreams from Big B and Little B
Your Nephew
Little B
 
Bedomom

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Dear Beed Beed:
Mom is praying to see you mom's dream tonight...baby, it has been 49th long days, in our culture today is the day you should come home for a visit..having this belief, mom feel more close you than ever before..baby, we do you remember the very spritual man we used to see at our every morning walk? Mom has not seen him for a year and mom afraid he may have been gone to heaven by now,  If he did, you may see him.  He witness our loving bond and he told mom to pray for you to become human in your next life, baby, if this is true, mom believes that you may have already became a very very handsome and smart boy.  The spritual man also told mom to become a vegetarian and try to help the animals. Mom will try to follow his preach but the vegetarian part will take sometimes... 
One thing mom keeps on forget to tell you is you must find Angel and Angie, both are your lovely daughter and they look exactly like you.  Angel went to the RB the minute she was born and Angie left on an August long weekend in 2010. I had her picture posted so you would be able to find her and she will lead you to her baby sister; if you do find them, please give mom some signs...mom remember the last time Angie jumped to mom's arm was at Peel Memorial Hospital parking lot, in was in 2008, the feelings mom had was like exactly the feeling mom got when mom held you in mom's arms at our last momment...Angie was saying like,"Mom, please take me back to Vancouver!" when she jumped to mom's arms, mom told Shirley and Chan about this but they said mom was being too bizzar...then the accidence happened 2 years later, she was only 2 and 9 months old...Mom was devasted...baby, mom always has this sense that mom should be concious about, but mom did not take them seriously...I am sorry, and tell Angie that I am sorry too! there lots of things mom wants to tell you but will do that in mom's dream...mom just want to say mom loves you, mom loves Angel and Angie too you all mom's sweet babies
Good night my sweet Angels, Beed Beed, Angel and Angie!
Hugs and kisses!
Mom
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Beed Beed,
Mom just want to tell you something very strange that happened prior to your trip to the RB, mom was at Bangkok Skytrain looking down at Four-Faced Budha where people were praying.  Mom saw a lady who paid for a cage with one bird and she released it in front of Budha statue, her action urged mom to do the same.  Baby, Mom used to hate the idea of buying birds in cages for release, as this would promote people to catch birds for sellings. However, at that very momment, mom just felt that mom needed to do it...mom did not have any Thai Balt left, mom gave Cdn money to the woman but she shook her head...mom had to walk for 2 blocks to exchange for money...after that mom gave the woman One thousand balt assuming that mom could take two birds.  Mom took one cage with two and released them, some how, the woman gave mom another cage with about 6 little ones inside, mom took the cage and released them all...seeing all the little birds flying in the air, mom felt very peaceful...Baby, thinking back, mom know for sure that you wanted to tell mom to let go as it was time for you to go to heaven...oh my clever boy, mom loves you so much! 
Hugs to you and mom's two little Grand daughters Angel and Angie!
Mom  
maxsmama

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I just saw your pictures of your sweet Bedo....what a beautiful baby!
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Dear Bedomom,
I just loved your beautiful story of the birds. For sure your little Bedo was sending you a bit of comfort that day thru the freeing of those little guys. He knew when the time was right you'd look back and remember it and feel the peace he sent you.  He is indeed a special angel and he loves his Mom so much!

Hugs tonight,
Double L's Mama
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My Dear Sweet Little B Nephew, 

You write Auntie such beautiful profound thoughts...it is hard for her to grasp sometimes the beautiful deep meanings you give to her, because she is only a two legged and you are a higher power four legged wise being, who is naturally closer to God. See how much your mom loves you little B, making scrambled eggs and the big Fuji apple for a present on your 49th day! Thank you for sharing them with the Chief and all the other sweet angels...you have taught big B to develop a fondness for fruits...he is very lucky to be introduced to your culture and ways of celebrating and eating!

Thank you sweet little B, for comforting A's heart to mention that Bud Bud is running around the house just like always, and Auntie is so glad to know you are also not leaving home, not leaving your mom because you love to be home with her! You loved it when she came home to you after being out, and Bud too...always loved mom to come home it was the most exciting and happy time for all of us! I do trust you little B, to know that I will find both you and Bud here romping around, hiding in closets, etc...Auntie is on the look out for both of you B boys now...and your mom too, she is keeping an eye out, she knows you have that sneaky streak in you, and you've taught it to Big B, but that's OK it gives him more spunk and has expanded his personality...he loves learning new games, just like you loved to learn playing with the soft Frisbee...you kids have so much fun angels...what a life you have! Auntie knows you have reconnected with your two sweet little girls, Angel and Angie...you must be so happy to have them close, Beed. 

Your mom has understood your meaning with the caged birds, sweet nephew. You were telling mom it was time...you were so clever and found such a beautiful way expressed in the flights and release of the little birds to let your mom know you were ready to be free. Thank you for sending your sweet mom peace through the wings of the birds rising toward heaven...you are a sweet poet, Beed Beed, speaking from God's heart to mom...she loves you so very very much, and her little grand daughters, too! Auntie sending big hugs to you, to Angel and Angie and to all of you sweet furry angel kids...you are such a big gang now Auntie would take all day just naming everyone but you know each and every one and as you said, there is no shortage of love inventory to spread around...Auntie loves the thought of that...of you babies taking all that love to heaven because you sure did take a train load and now it has multiplied like the loaves and fishes in the Bible miracle and is spreading everywhere! 

Big hugs, kisses and belly scratches sweet angel Bedomom's babies - sweet dreams and be sure to come in mom's dreams very soon!

Love, Auntie Esa

xoxoxoxo




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