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cosesmom

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My Sweet, Sweet Termy,
Today as 8:20 am I had to let you go 18 months ago. It was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. I didn't want you to go but I couldn't let you suffer anymore. I released you from an old and tired body to go and get your angle wings. You gave me 16 years 4 months and 4 days of pure love and blessed joy. Everyday that has passed since September 18th, 2017 has been long and empty. I miss you. I miss your huffs, I miss your screechy little bark, I miss YOU.
I tried so hard the last 6  months that you were with me to make you better but you knew in your huge heart that time was running out for us. I would have cooked you anything, bought you anything to get you to eat and gain your strength so we could spend a few more days, months and maybe years together. But God and the spirits knew better than I, it wasn't for me to make you stay. You were being called home and I was to stay and mourn the emptiness your passing left in my heart. I tried, I really tried. I wish we could have crossed together. Wait for me, my sweet sweet Termy.
I remember you riding in the side car on the motor cycle, I remember you chasing the chippies in the yard, I remember you sleeping next to me, I remember you playing with your slipper (same one for 16 years) I remember the long peaceful walks in the neighborhood with you at my side, I remember you following me lap for lap in the yard as I mowed, I remember you laying in the shade as worked in the flower beds, I remember you l basking in the sunshine, I remember the way you would sit in my arms as we drove around. Termy, I remember YOU! all of you.

I will forever love you with all my heart and forever miss you.



[termy2033]
cosesmom

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My dear sweet Boo Boo,
Mommy misses you everyday with all her heart. I so want to immortalize you. You were such a wonderful fur child. You were always here for me, when I was up and most importantly when I was at my lowest. I lost my joy  and zest for life. Today and everyday since you left, I just go through the motions of life. I never thought being alone would be so hard. I can still see you waiting for me at the door when I came home from work. You were so over joyed and you always made me smile. You were my reason for living this day and the next. I don't know how I am going to finish my life here on Earth without you at my side. I know you are always near me in spirit and you still are taking care of me. I hope you hear me when I come out side every night to talk to you at 8:30. Since you left I haven't missed a single day of telling you to have a good night and have a great day to marrow and mommy will see you to marrow and blow you a kiss and tell you I love you and miss you. You've been at the Bridge 18 months and 2 days and I make the trip to the back yard to see your star. I miss all of you everyday. Everyday that passes is one day closer to being with you again.
I love you with all my heart and miss you with every part of my soul.
Love you always
Mommy
Scott615

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I’m sorry for your loss. I wish I could ease your pain. We lost our Buck yeaterday and I’m so sad, I feel like I can’t live without him. I feel like don’t want to live without him. Please pray for us.
cosesmom

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Termy my love. My sweet sweet Boo Boo
I think about you each and everyday and miss you so very much. You've been on my mind so much. Yesterday I was sitting outside watching the clouds float by and when I looked down, there by my hand was a feather. I know you sent it to me as a sign that you are thinking of me too. Then today I was walking your sister in the park and she stopped to smell something and I looked down to see what she was sniffing at was another feather. From you, I know. You always took care of me when you were here and you still are taking care of me from beyond. I want you to rest to and enjoy life at the Bridge for one day I will be there. You were my brave and wonderful old man.
love you like no tomarrow
Mommy
cosesmom

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My Sweet Termy,
Today was a was a bit tough. I've been thinking of you all day and missing you so very much. I stared at the yard wanting so much to see you walking there, again. But I could only see you in my memories. I haven't put your dishes away or your harness, it still hangs where it always has as if one day you will wear it again and we can walk together and enjoy the days as we once did. I know that this is just my wishful thinking for you have your Angel wings now and have no need for earthly things. It comforts me to leave your things where they always were. I can feel that you are close and that you have never really left me. You may not posses an earthly body but your spirit remains. You know they say that all of you that pass wait at the Bridge to one day cross over with us but I know you are here, still and you and I will take that walk together to the Bridge and cross as one. You were my heart, my soul and my life. I remember, for you will never fade from my memories because love never dies ad you are loved to the bottom of my heart and always will be my hero for you saved me. You loved me as no other in my life and I miss that but I know you love me still. We are connected in heart and soul, we are one.
Love you my little man
Mommy
cosesmom

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Hi my love,
I've been thinking about you a lot lately. More so than usual, I guess. I wonder how our life together could have passed so quickly. We lived everyday with really no of thought of to marrow and that some day there would be no WE. Days passed and then years. I look back now and see how slowly father time took one day and then another until I looked and your muzzle was gray and there was a silver lining along your ears. I wonder when that happened. Your once sharp bark turned into a little screech. (it was so special) You could no longer jump into our chair or jump onto the bed to snuggle with me. I helped you down the stairs to the yard where you would wonder and smell all those beautiful smells that mother nature left just for you. Where did the time go, I wonder. I look back over the 16 * years and I see the wonderful journey we shared together. As I look back at our life together I can see that we did live life as we were meant to, cherished with each walk, endeared ourselves with car rides, sitting quietly on the deck together, playing with all you favorite toys that you knew by name, Me watching you sleep as you ran after something in a dream, You wanting to be with me or just wanting to know where I was. All these things made our life, our life together. In those later years, the stairs were not your friend so you would wait at the top watching for me to come up from the basement. We had a special life, you loving me and I loving you. Who thought that one day I wouldn't be able to watch you sleep, hear you screech, help you with the stairs and just hold you in my arms and smell you, feel your heart beat and rub your ears like you loved me to. Who knew, God did  but I wasn't ready to let you go and walk through life with out you at my side. I didn't think that day would come 18 months ago. My sweet old man, mommy loves you and misses you deeply. I hope you hear me at night, when I say "I love you Boo Boo"
cosesmom

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Termy,
Mommy just wants to thank you for giving me the guidance to write the words to those that have suffered a deep and painful loss. I know I couldn't write those words. You are such a special little man. Everyday you send me signs to help me heal. It's not the same as having you here at my side. I miss you, all of you. I go out side and sit and just listen to nature. I feel closer to you when I hear the birds singing, the wind lightly blowing my hair, when the leaves tumble through the yard, the first flowers to bloom in the spring and the first snow fall. I think you have made me aware of the special things in life and to appreciate the small things. Like you I am living in the moment and enjoying those moments as you taught me.
I love you, my little man
mommy
cosesmom

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My sweet Termy,
I miss you so very much. People don't understand that I needed to do what made me feel better. Like releasing a balloon on your one year mark. They made it seem as if I was doing the environment harm just trying to honor you and make me feel better and it hurts. None of us are perfect but loving you made my life perfect. I know that others are grieving too but making bad remarks about what I did is very selfish. You are my life and always will be. Wait for me my love.
Love mommy
cosesmom

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My Termy, my love,
Boo Boo I am thinking of you today as I do everyday and missing you so very much. I remembered one funny thing the other day about you. We were on the motorcycle and you and I were in the sidecar. We stopped to get ice cream. I got you your own doggie dish with a dog biscuit on top. You were about half way through eating it and you started to shiver. It was about 85 degrees out but you were shivering. You didn't stop licking your dish of ice cream though. I remembered how much you enjoyed it. You never stopped in your entire life giving me the fondness of memories to hold onto.
Just today I remembered something else you did that made another great memory. Your sister Darla was following me in the yard as I mowed the grass and she did the same thing you always did. She was walking with me, lap for lap. You always followed me every time I mowed. I know it's been 19 months since you went the Bridge but I still miss you so very much.
You were my Hero all wrapped in fur. When Dakota passed I thought I would never again get another because I didn't want the pain of letting go. MY life was so empty with out a dog to come home to and to snuggle with. Walking alone had no joy and I was missing someone to love. Then you came into my life and all those worries about the pain of letting go vanished. We walked through life together for over 16 years. We made a journey together that was above all that I ever expected. You shared your heart with me and loved me for who I was. You never expected anything in return except maybe an ear rub here and there and a place to cuddle. You were so good at bringing joy to my life. If there were ever dog that earned Angle wings, it was you. You were perfect in every way. My Heart and soul I gave you and my heart you took with you. I love you Termy, and everything about you.
You made me a better person because you loved me. Thank you.
love you lots
Mom
JackieTeller

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Bonnie, 

Your words brought tears to my eyes.  Termy indeed was a special little man as Rosie was a very special little lady.  Proud and full of dignity, there was never a squirrel she wouldn't chase, a soccer ball she wouldn't play with, or my lap that she never hesitated to sit in as we drove in the car.  It is indeed interesting to note that in our little group, all of our furbabies passed within a week of each other.  Termy and Rosie on the 18th, Miss B. on the 17th and Brandy on the 23rd.  It would be interesting to see when KarmaCat passed.  I think all of our children brought us together for a reason and you will be my friend forever.  

I am strangely calm about starting my job tomorrow.  I feel Rosie is giving me strength to not "freak out".  

Your friend, Jackie 
JackieTeller

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As for those folks who gave you grief over releasing a balloon in Termy's memory I have two words, but they're not printable here!

Jackie

cosesmom

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My sweet Termy,
I've been a bit low the last couple of days, thinking of you and crying a lot. I come out every night and pour my heart out to you. I know you understand my sadness. I know you are always near by and watching over me but there are times I feel it's not enough. I want more but deep down I know it's all I have, now. I miss you so very much and for everyday that passes brings me one day closer to you where we will be together once again, never to be a part.
Last night I was sitting in the bedroom with your daddy and he heard something fall in the living room, so I got up to investigate. Know what I found, of course you do. Your paw print picture, your photo and your Chihuahua dog was on the floor. I wondered how it got from the third shelf and then I knew you were sending me a message. You were telling me that I am not alone for you never really left me.
My sweet Termy you are a very wonderful little guy. Always taking care of mom. I wish I could repay the favor but for now I will let the Angels hold you and take care of, for now my dear sweet Boo Boo.
We are connected souls.
Be the good boy I know you are and enjoy all that you earned. You were perfect in every way.
Love you always
mom
cosesmom

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Termy,
Today is your Birthday. I bought our favorite cupcakes and I saluted you and ate our cupcakes. I wish you were here to enjoy your share but I know that where you are there are plenty of cupcakes for you to eat. Have a cupcake today and remember all the times we shared on your special day. I miss you and the times we shared. I know that you are happy and enjoying your play time. You are whole and healthy.All our life I only wanted the best for you and I hope that I lived up to your expectations and gave you the best life any dog could could ever have wished for. You saved me when Dakota left for the Bridge and I didn't want to ever live with out him then the magical day came and you walked into my life. For 16 long and wonderful years we walked a path that only you and I could share. You were my main man, always there for me. You never complained when you had to go into your crate every night because you knew that I did it for your own safety. How I wish you never had seizures and you could have slept with me every night. You were never far away. As I lay in bed at night I could listen to you sleeping and found comfort knowing you were there. I remember how you always had to get next to me in the recliner and you needed to snuggle next to the arm of the chair and my leg. Sometimes you would play the dead cock roach (lay upside down) when you slept. I loved when we went for car rides and you sat on my lap and leaned into me. You were my co-pilot. Oh, the adventures we shared. You were such a good little guy. At the vets you were always so brave and never yelped when you got your shots. I think you trusted me and knew I would never let any thing really happen to you. All the memories we made will stay with me until we meet again. I hope you hear me at night when I come out to see your star and talk to you and tell you how much I love you and that I miss you with every fiber of my being. 
May the Angles protect you and give you all the love you deserve. Remember I miss you and cherish you for ever.
You are my heart dog, my love, my life.
Happy Birthday (sweet 18)
Mom
Scott615

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Such a nice post, I wish you all the best.
KatKat

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Happy birthday dear Termy.  Dear Termy's mom, how much love you gave and received is evident by your post.  What a lovely post that speaks truly from the heart.  I wish you comfort in knowing how much Termy loved you and that you gave just as much back during his time on earth.  Thank you for your beautiful post. 
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