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Hampton. My sweet angel died suddenly ten months ago. Over night without warning. He was five years old. It was a tragic, no words allow for the heartbreak that happened to me on that fateful morning. At the time I also had a six month old puppy, it was because of her that I had to keep going. I had only gotten the puppy to keep company for Hampton. Who would have known that it was the puppy, named Penny that was going to keep me company through very dark dark times. Penny is now a one year old puppy. Tonight she decided to play hide and seek. Something she has never done before. So all I knew was she was gone/missing. I had lost yet another dog. I immediately started screaming and fell to the ground in a fit of crying. I didn’t even really look. I just crashed to the floor in a heap of nothingness. I guess she heard me crying and knew that perhaps this game of hide and seek was not okay because she came to me and started crying. I should have been overwhelmed with joy right? I was of course. But what I really felt was anger. Not at Penny. But at Hampton. I just took his ashes and cried and begged and pleaded why did you leave me? I needed you so badly. Iv always needed you. Was it because I got penny? Did you think I didn’t need you anymore because of penny? Why did you leave me? I would give anything to have you back for a moment. And so on. And thoughout this hours long melt down, my beautiful Penny laid by side, as she did when Hampton died ten months ago, and let me cry for him and hold him.
The pain is never less you just learn to walk with it.
Registered: 1498611382 Posts: 447
I am so sorry that you lost your sweet Hampton in such a tragic way. It hurts deeply when you lose a loved one no matter the circumstances. Relax and give yourself time. Hampton was called away and you may never know why until you are reunited with him again at the Bridge. Your reaction to Penny hiding was a natural reaction. Your grief is very deep and when you couldn'y find her your mind ran away with you. Be kind to yourself. Give Penny every chance you can to help ease your loss. Keep your heart open and believe, Hampton will send you a message and guide you. Anger is part of grieving, it's normal. Hampton is consoling you through Penny. Believe that you will see your beloved Hampton again. He didn't leave you because of Penny, it was his time. I know it hurts and you feel as if your heart is broken but remember the journey you shared with Hampton.
Love and doggie Hugs Termy's mom.