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LeeLeesMama

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Allison...

I don't know what to say except Thank You.  You are so very right about grief changing us.  I view life so differently - more empathy for those in pain and trouble - less patience for those who do not appreciate the blessings they enjoy.  Losing my baby has made me realize how very trivial most of our "huge" problems are and how insignificant all of our "stuff" really is when compared with these precious little souls we love so much.  

You have given me some thoughts to ponder: "Time is what brings us closer to our reunions"  and  "instead of thinking of our babies as gone; can we think of them as arriving somewhere new."  I had not considered either of these wonderful views - they help.

And, with tears falling, I THANK YOU so much for calling my baby "a treasure" - to me that is exactly what she is.  You know the old saying about "one persons trash being another's treasure" - my little Lee Lee was thrown out beside the road like a piece of trash and she truly became my life's sweetest treasure. 

Wishing you peace...

Melanie



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Dear Melanie ~

 

I feel that those of us that visit this site, experience a sorrow like nothing else. When I think back on my grieving process I can honestly say that I can’t remember portions of time. My mourning was like a dark cloak, blocking out everything. Surprisingly there were some good outcomes, like meeting people like you & so many others that have helped me through my darkest hours. But we also discover (sadly in many cases) how thoughtless & uncaring people can truly be.  I recognized how I don’t want to have anything to do with someone who doesn’t share my deep gratitude for our furry children. That realization has been quite illuminating ~ at times painful because it hurts to understand that someone you thought was a good person turns out to be just another soulless being.  

 

Like your precious Lee Lee, our LuluBelle was discarded in the trash & some kind & generous person found her & brought her to an emergency clinic. It absolutely amazes me how in one instance a human being can be so awful & at the EXACT same time how another can be so incredibly generous & selfless. It totally twists my mind.

 

I’m glad to know you’re open to those couple ways of viewing our babies departures. Especially the one about them arriving somewhere new . . . that image has helped me over many humps of sadness.

 

Continue to stay strong & hold Lee Lee close to your heart.

 

Big hugs.

RustysMom Allison ~ mom to Rainbow Bridge angels Rusty, LuluBelle & Bingo ~ mom to furry earth babies Woodstock, Bam Bam & Maybe & Picasso.

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LeeLeesMama...((((Special Hugs...)

I don't know how I've missed this post, I am so, so sorry for the loss of your precious Lee Lee, she looks such a sweetheart.
Thank god she was sent to you, as I truly believe she was, she was meant to be with you, Bless her heart.

What a wonderful saying..."Instead of thinking our babies are gone; can we think of them arriving somewhere new" , it can be just a few words that help, to turn our thinking around a little, I hope it is helping you. When you are in such grief, to think of that.

This grief does change us, I will never never understand how uncaring some people can be, I just don't get it, thank God we are not that way, the things they say.....ughhh...

I wear my heart on my sleeve, adore animals, I see or read something upsetting about an animal and it haunts me for days, they are so innocent, so precious. We would do anything for our furry friends. Here in Colorado we have had terrible fires, people have done incredible things getting to their animals and getting them to safety, that's what we'd do. It hurts to the core to lose them.

I hope you are okay, thank God for this wonderful forum, many hugs to you.

Godbless baby angel Lee Lee xx

Kate, boxer angel Raleigh's mommy x (boxer angels Morrissey and Boo xx)




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Kate,
Thank you so much for looking at my baby's story.  It really does mean the world to me when someone takes the time to acknowledge her little life.  I just miss her so....

Your Raleigh's memorial is just beautiful, you have some fantastic photos - I love the "snow" and "nature" shots. He is a super handsome boy and such an beloved member of your family - I know you miss him so very much.  My Lee Lee also loved to go hiking - she was like the energizer bunny - we'd have to make her rest from time to time. She logged many, many miles with us - it just won't be the same any more... 

I feel the same as you about all the animals - I'm one of those people that rescues bugs from mud holes.  We saw a dog beside the road just this weekend - but by the time we circled around to help - he was gone - I'll wonder for a long time what became of him.  I can only hope someone else was able to catch him.  It hurts my heart to see them suffer.

Colorado is a beautiful state - stunning really.  Rocky Mountain National Park is one of my very favorite places.  I've seen the reports on the news about the terrible wildfires - I hope you are far away - I pray they can be extinguished soon.

Thank you again so much for your kind, encouraging comments - they are what sustains me from day to day - I can't really talk about my Lee Lee except for here.   Please take care and stay safe from the fires, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Melanie
(Lee Lee's Mama)

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Kate (Raleigh's Mommy)
A photo of my Lee Lee enjoying some southern snow. I bet she and your Raleigh would have had a blast together - maybe they are even now...

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Oh Melanie, what a wonderful picture of Lee Lee!  Happy, happy doggie!  :)


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Melanie, that picture is so cute of Lee Lee, I know how much you miss her!

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Barb (MaxAndHazelsMom),
Thank you so much for your sweet comment for my Lee Lee - it means a lot to me that you would take the time to stop in and look at my baby's photo.  She was a happy girl...  

Melanie :)
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Bailey's Mom,
Thank you for thinking of us and for your kind comments.  Yes I miss my little angel so very much, and I know you are missing your little Bailey too.  I hope your day is going ok so far - I know it hasn't been an easy week for you...

Lee Lee's Mama
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Dear Lee Lee's Mama,

You're an amazing lady!  I've read your thread, I feel for you.  I lost my Honey yesterday and I'm worse than devastated.  I know what it is like to love the way you have loved and still love.  My heart ached everytime you spoke to Lee Lee through the board - I do that too. 

I don't want to live without my Honey.  She was taken from us too soon - wasn't her time.  But it was my fault and I will forever pay for that.  But even so, I know she still loves me.

And your love for Lee Lee touched my heart - as shattered as it is. 

I offer you a warm and understanding hug.  You really do sound like the most awesome lady and I hope you feel some level of peace soon.  Lee Lee wouldn't want her mama to feel bad - I know she wouldn't.  She would offer you some kind of "pretty" to make you feel better.  She loved and loves you.  We all love you too. 

Evie (renkma)
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Evie, 

You dear sweet lady - you just lost your precious baby yesterday and you took the time to read about my little angel.  You will never know what your kindness means to me.  My tears were just pouring as I read your words about my Lee Lee bringing me a "pretty"... I truly would give all that I own if she could bring me just one more pretty.  I miss her so much, I've searched the thesaurus(really) for some word or words to describe how empty I feel, the enormity of my grief and regret, the immeasurable depth of my love for her - none seem adequate.  I don't speak of her much except here, when someone mentions her name or even offers a kind word - I just fall to pieces.

I know that you understand exactly what I am trying to say. Our babies are so very precious to our hearts.  I read your posts also, your losses are utterly devastating.  I just cringed when I read what happened with Frisket's passing - I am so very sorry.  I know that is a horrible memory for you and now your precious Honey is gone way to soon - it isn't fair.  Your words from past posts echo so many of my own feelings - ones that I can't even bear to fully think about, much less write down.  I am so sorry for what you've been through.

I truly understand how totally destroyed you are, you have lost your angel under unbearable circumstances.  I pray that you can soon find a little of that elusive peace we all crave.  I gratefully accept your offered hug  - I only wish it could be in person.  Thank you again sweet lady.

Melanie




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Melanie,

I read a post your put in - it was in another topic and I didn't feel right answering you in there - so I have come back into your topic just to have a gentle word with you if that's OK.  You had said that you were going to try and take some of Lee Lee's pictures out again, and even try to watch some of her movies.  It is entirely up to you if you feel you can do these things, but let me just share with you that over this past week I wouldn't have been able to make it through if I didn't have my Honey's pictures everywhere.  I mean, she is EVERYWHERE!  I have a huge portrait of her in my bedroom that I can gaze at as I fall asleep.  I have her memorial picture on the coffee table with a vase of fresh flowers and I keep the tealights lit for her (I plan to keep the candle lit until she (her ashes) are home with me.  I have one video and I wondered if I could handle watching it - I thought it might actually kill me - but then I said - Heck, I'de rather be with her anyway - and clicked play.  Melanie, it was like she was right here with me.  I could talk to her and smile and feel soooo good, even though it hurt so bad.  I watch it every few days and it helps.  I need it.  I need her.

I promise you can handle watching her videos and looking at her pictures.  If it hurts too much, then try again in a while, but definitely try.  I think you will be surprised as how good it feels to watch the video. 

Hugz to you friend.
Evie
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Evie,

Thank you so much for the encouragement - I can certainly use it.  You are a strong lady, my friend, way stronger than me.  I watched about 5 seconds of a movie - just seeing a few wags of her tail hit me like a freight train.  I almost dropped the laptop, practically threw it on the desk and headed out the back door to hide until I could breathe again. (I can definitely relate to your thread about dealing with others - I do my very best to keep my grief private - hiding in the shower is one technique I use.)  I failed - but I will not give up - I want to be able to look at her and enjoy the wonderful memories that I have of her.

Bless you for the support you give in the midst of your own suffering - I think of you and your beautiful Honey often.

Wishing you comfort,
Melanie
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Dear Lee Lee's Mom,

I've finally come to a turning point in my life where I can now offer support to people who are grieving. It's only been 12 weeks since my babies' deaths. However, people like you and a few others on this forum have given me such great comfort and now (even though I still cry daily) I feel I can return the favor to others. I wanted to tell you that I truly appreciated your reply on my last post. It truly helped me. I am so sorry for your loss of your Lee Lee. She was a beautiful baby! Thank you for rescuing her, I know she was and still is grateful for that! I pray for your continued peace. Again, thank you.
-sherry
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Dear Sherry, 

I'm so glad the hear you are feeling a little bit better.  Thank you so much for thinking of me and my angel when you are still grieving so hard for your own babies Gracie and Leroy.  I know our circumstances are not the same but our love is just as strong and the grief is just as deep.  
I read your heartbreaking response in the thread about dealing with others, I understand how hard it is when you feel you are grieving alone - I'm sending prayers of peace and comfort to you and this special ((((Hug))))

Melanie
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Well my Angel...

Today is the 4th of July and I can only think of one good thing - you won't have to endure the fireworks celebration.  I know how it terrified you - I remember how you would cower and tremble.  I always dreaded this day - I was so helpless to give you any relief from your fears.  But I know that you are not afraid today. 

I miss you so much - more than words can ever say.  I absolutely can not wait to see you again.  Enjoy your day Baby Doll, lay in the sun, wiggle in the lush grass, bring someone a pretty - whatever makes you happy  -  I send you scratches for the "tail bone" and kisses for the "sugar spot".  

You are forever loved...
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Melanie,

I am feeling for you today.  Our fireworks day in Canada was the 1st - but the big one around here (massive fireworks over the Detroit River) was the night of the 24th (Monday) - and that was the night Honey became so ill.  It started with panic and I thought maybe a storm was coming - but no - not for several hours did we expect rain.  Then I thought she could hear the fireworks, but they were 45 minutes away - there's no way she could hear them.

It ended up that her panic was because she felt so ill.

But I understand how you feel when your Lee Lee panicked!  The trembling and panting - pacing - cowering - it's the most horrible thing to see and we are so powerless to help them.  Honey was on valium but only very occasionally - and even then - it didn't help much.

When our little ones become afraid we suffer right along with them.  Our ability to empathize is freakishly strong.  It only shows how unselfish we are Melanie.  And we are a rare breed (no pub intended).  It must be why our babies love and loved us so much - and in that sense...we are the most fortunate souls.

Comfort be with you today.
Evie
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Evie,

I know you really do understand that helpless feeling - of wanting, more than anything, to provide them relief from their fears and not being able to. But your Honey and my Lee Lee - they are no longer afraid.  And you are so very right - we were blessed beyond words to know them and their love. 

Thank you so much, hugs...
Melanie
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Lee Lee my little Angel,

I so enjoyed last night - it was the best night in the 119 days since you left.  I'm not even sure if it was a true visit from you or if it was just a wonderful dream because you were just a baby, but it felt so real, I remember how warm you were.  I was holding you in my arms, just like I did when you were little, just watching you sleep.  I loved to watch you sleep - so peaceful, upside down, ears all slicked back, your little mouth just slightly open, you were totally "out", your little legs were "floppy" just like they used to be - just so very precious, I felt like my heart would just burst with happiness.  When I woke up, I remembered and smiled...

Mama luvs you so, so much - always and forever. (Scratches and Kisses)
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Hi Melanie, I believe Lee Lee came to see you last night, how wonderful!!  they find a way to get to us.  (I keep missing your posts somehow and just saw it right now.)

The picture of Lee Lee in her little coat and snow is precious, she is so beautiful. Thank you so much for the comments about my darling Raleigh, oh I miss my baby boy so much. 

Yes, we are not near the fires that have been here recently but last year we were 1/4 mile from the evacuation line near Mountain Shadows, very scary, I kept thinking about all the animals. I'm like you, if I see animal in the street I stop and try and get them back home, quite a few times I've run after a dog to see if he/she has tags on.

I've sat on our back deck in the snow with 2 dogs trying to find their owners, had to stay outside as we couldn't get the older dog inside as he was too weak, couldn't lift him, so we put blankets over him, eventually had to call the Humane Society so they could get them in the warmth, and they did return them to their owners the next day. We didn't care about ourselves, all I kept worrying about was that the dogs were cold! We don't think about it do we? you just do it.

You're so right, it's not the same anymore going hiking, it was Raleigh's favorite thing to do, I have cried as I'm walking along because he's just not there at my side, I know how much you miss your precious Lee Lee.

I'm going to picture Lee Lee and Raleigh together hiking.

Your darling Lee Lee is okay, no fireworks are near her, she's lying in the sun with her baby doll watching over her mommy, I truly believe it. 
I wish you much peace and hope Lee Lee comes to see you again very soon. hugs....

Kate, boxer angel Raleigh's mommy x (boxer angels Morrissey and Boo xx)


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Kate - No worries, it is so easy to miss a post, I've missed some too - they are never in the same order because of all the replies. :) 

Your sweet comments about my baby mean so much to me, they really do help.  What a comforting image of Lee Lee having a friend to hike with - now I will think of her and your dear Raleigh exploring all the beautiful trails together.  That makes me smile...

We stopped today to try to catch a dog - he was too scared and ran off into the woods.  There was a stream nearby and we left some food - I hope he finds it, I am going back later to look for him again. I'll keep helping the ones I can - I know you feel the same as me - we do what we can...

I know you miss your precious angel Raleigh so very much - that longing to see our babies is always there, it is so very hard.  I send special hugs to you and kisses to your baby Raleigh  (Boo and Morrissey too) 

Stay safe,
Melanie
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Hi Melanie,

You sent me some very kind and useful replies in my thread about the loss of Max in this forum. Now that I've read your first post here, I can see that you speak from the worst kind of experience.

My sincere sympathy for your loss and your pain.

I didn't read every post here. So I apologize if the answer to these queries are already here somewhere: How long was LeeLee with you? May I see a photo?

I should mention that we have also rescued a number of homeless dogs (in addition to needy cats), and the last one was a Maltese. We weren't sure what he was when we found him in a rural park area, as his hair was such a tangled, matted mess. That was one very smart little dog, who learned to do all the right things just by watching what our dogs did. He was adopted by some very nice folks only a few months ago.

The morons who dumped that little dog in a park have no idea what treasure they gave up. They were the losers, and they don't even know it. You're one of the people who understand this, and rescuing LeeLee was the day you gained something priceless.

What would be just is if all the morons I refer to were forced to bear the burden of pain when our beautiful dogs are torn away from us. I'd love to be left with only the good memories. Just a thought.

All we can do is soldier on.

I hope your outlook brightens.

- Terry
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Terry,

I so appreciate your comments, you are very kind to take the time to read some of my story when you are so very new in your own journey of loss and grief.

In answer to your question, my angel was with me for 8-1/2 years.  I do have some photos posted in this topic and some in albums - but, I am always ready to show off my sweet Lee Lee.

Here is my happy girl with a "pretty"



I miss her more that words can say. 

Bless you for your efforts to help poor homeless babies.  You are correct in your description - those people are "morons".  If only there was a way to have them suffer like you said - it would be what they deserve.

Thank you again Terry - may you find peace soon.

Melanie, (Lee Lee's Mama)
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Its Four months today...

Lee Lee, my little angel you are missed so very much.

I miss waking up and finding you upside down on the couch, usually awake, just awaiting, when you saw me your tail would go crazy wagging.  I miss you running to jump in the big bed for an extra nap while I got ready for work.  I even miss going to work with you - you know people still ask about you - it is hard to explain why you aren't with me.  I miss seeing you slide down the hill and lay in the sun, baking each side.  I miss our walks, playing chase, just hanging out together.  I can hardly look at the beautiful green grass - you enjoyed laying in it so much.  I miss waiting on you, bringing your water bowl, your treats, your toys - your wish was my command.  I miss you backing up to my chair for your scratches.  I miss tucking you in at night, kissing your sugar spot and saying "Nite Nite, Mama loves you so much". 

I miss our ordinary, everyday life...now that you are not here, I realize those are the moments that I lived for.  Words fall so short of what I want to say.  

I loved you helplessly - I still do - I always will.

(Kisses for the "sugar spot" and scratches for the "tail bone")
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Dear  Lee Lees Mom

Thank you for your kinds words about my little Chanel, I have cried more than I ever have in my life. Reding these posts makes me realize I am not alone. Your precious baby was a real lucky dog to have you as her Mom.


Sincerely
Patty
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Dear Patty...

Thank you so much for taking time to look at my Lee Lee's story when your own loss is so very new and raw.  I was never a "crier" but it seems to be my usual state of being now - 18 weeks yesterday and I still cry every day.  I miss my baby so bad - some days, like today, I just can't see how I'll ever survive her loss.  All I can do for her now is tend her little grave - I keep flowers there for her - pink roses right now, and post memory of her here from time to time.  I was definitely the lucky one...

Thank you again, wishing you comfort
Melanie
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My thoughts are with you and Lee Lee as she marks her fourth month at the bridge.  The picture of her you shared is just adorable.  You certainly captured a wonderful moment.  Life is very difficult without our beloved babies and thankfully we have many memories that begin to heal our hearts.

Mare-wolf
precious Christoph ~ such a great boy ~
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Mare-wolf...

Thank you so much for your very kind words for my Lee Lee's fourth month.  It means a lot to me that you would take the time to look at my little baby's picture - I miss her so...

Melanie
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Lee Lee My Little Angel,

We went to Monday night family dinner at your Granny's last night for the first time since you left.  It broke another piece off my heart to go without you - I didn't want to - I hated every minute of it but I felt like I had to go back at some point - it's been over 4 months - another "first".  Our family of 8 is only 7 now - no longer complete.  

All I could think of was how excited you would have been to see your "people" - you'd get so excited on the way over in the car and if their car was there you'd just be beside yourself - you could not wait to get to them.  If we got there first you used to just go crazy when you heard them drive up.  I can still see you jumping off the couch and racing to the back door - dancing, whining and doing your very best to talk - we never could get the door open quick enough for you.  You loved them so... 

I couldn't even make myself go into the living room where we all used to sit - you would have been on the couch in your spot with your blankie - I just could not do it.  I couldn't talk either, couldn't even look anyone in the eye, I just sat at the table pretending to work on a puzzle - trying to hold it together - it was so lonely.  Nobody mentions your name - it seems you are forgotten already.  They all think I'm crazy anyway...they have no clue what losing you has done to me.  I miss you so much my little angel - my heart is just broken...

Mama loves you so - and I'll remember you Lee Lee - I'll always remember...

Kisses for the "sugar spot" and scratches for the "tailbone"...
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Melanie, I am thinking of you and know how you feel, it is the hardest thing to go through. A lot of people don't understand, I found that out quickly. I basically just talk here, or to my son, who misses Bailey as much as I do.

I am sure it was so heartbreaking to go there without your LeeLee, another first, I guess.
I had my nieces here over the weekend, my one niece has a dog, and she brought her here to my house. Daisy was thirsty, so I filled a dish with water and out of habit, placed the bowl where Bailey's dishes always sat. I looked at my son, and he looked at me and tears came. It is the simple every day things that get to you, out of the blue.

Please take care and sending you good thoughts and strength.

Bailey's Mom
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Bailey's Mom,

Thanks for your words of support.  It surprises me all the time what small, seemingly meaningless little things bring such powerful feelings of loss and longing (like the bowl of water for Daisy).  I came across a flashlight a few days ago that I used to take Lee Lee for a walk when we first got to the office each morning - I just lost it - go figure.  

I am glad you have your son to share your memories of your Bailey with - what a blessing for you.  I know you miss him so much.  Take care and thanks again.

Melanie
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Good Morning Melanie,

I went through Lee Lee's pictures this morning - she made me smile.  There was a lot of spunk in the girl wasn't there?  I love the picture of her running with the pretty. 
I hope you are feeling ... OK.  Getting by. 

Has Lee Lee sent you any messages lately?

Evie
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Dear Evie,

My little Lee Lee could be just "wild" at times - those are some of my happiest memories of her - just totally out of control - racing around.  I used to call her my "Wild Animal".

Messages, yes, well I think yes, July 4th I had a wonderful dream of her as a baby. I had been so upset thinking back on all her "fireworks fears" and that night she came to my dreams.  I wrote about it earlier in this thread.  It was great!

And this:  She went to work with me every day so everyone knew her. My boss's son (he is 8 years old) was at work the other day waiting on his mom and he left a picture on my desk.  I thought it was for his mom and she had just forgotten it but when I mentioned it she said no it was mine - that he had been thinking of my Lee Lee and knew I was missing her and drew the picture for me.  I asked her if she knew about the Rainbow Bridge - she had never heard of it.  Of course like a fool, I burst into tears - I knew who sent it to me.  It was a precious drawing of a rainbow...

What about your beautiful, precious Honey - any messages?  I know you carry her in your heart and her spirit is near you - watching over you.  Our babies are still around - we just can't see them right now.  I'm not at all sure how all that works, but I believe it - but I've had too many things happen for it to be only coincidence! 

I know it has only been three weeks for you - a very short time in one way but an eternity to be without your Honey.  I think of you often and wish you comfort...

Melanie
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Dear Melanie ~

I so understand how you feel, especially in relation to other people who have “forgetten already,” or who “think you’re crazy.” Those are people that are just missing a very important part of their heart. They’ll never know true & pure love. I’ve long stopped caring about those kinds of people. I still cry (5 + years later) every day when I say goodnight to my boy Rusty. And when I think of LuluBelle, well I just lose it.

It’s very hard to get back to the things we did “before,” since life moving forward can never be the same. But we do get up, every morning & do our ritual & regular things, like washing our faces, making the bed & having a cup of tea or coffee. It’s those things that will slowly & surely help us to continue to heal. And rest assured your Lee Lee, your little angel, is still right beside you.

With much affection,

RustysMom Allison ~ mom to Rainbow Bridge angels Rusty, LuluBelle & Bingo ~ mom to furry earth babies Woodstock, Bam Bam & Maybe & Picasso.

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Dear Allison,

You just don't know how much it means to me that you would take the time to check in and reply to my posts.  I miss my baby so much - this is the only place I can "mention" her name anymore and for someone to make the effort to read about her means the world to me - like her little memory has crossed someone else's mind too.

Thank you for sharing your comments about your precious babies Rusty and LuluBelle - they still live on in your heart - I don't ever want my little angel's memory to fade away - ever. Just like your own babies - she just means too much. 

You give me strength, hugs to you and kisses to all your babies...

Melanie
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Melanie, I have been reading your posts and I am sorry I have not yet written until now. Your Lee Lee was just so gorgeous. I know how much you miss her and how life is just not the same. So much of what you have written in your posts resonates with me.

And I want to thank you for writing on my post about Lenny, about how time at Rainbow Bridge goes so much slower than it does on earth. I often think about that when I worry if Lenny is scared and looking for me at the bridge. He was by my side constantly and would get quite panicked when I left him. I worry that he is like that now. But then I think he would also get so excited when he went to new places, especially a dog park. I imagine Rainbow Bridge is a dog park like nothing else, and Lenny will be too busy sniffing everything to be worried about me. I'll sneak up beside him when my time comes and surprise the begees out of him!

Please keep writing about your beloved Lee Lee, I love hearing about her and the amazing bond you shared, your posts are helping me through my own grief. It is such a special thing to share a love like this with a fur baby, you are a kind, beautiful soul for having such love for your Lee Lee. 

Liz
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Dear Liz,

Thank you so much for your wonderful comments for my angel - it means so much to me and comforts my heart.  Lee Lee was my world just as your precious Lenny was for you.  I looked back again at your Lenny's photos - he is just so precious with his little hat on, and I love the black/white of him - it's a great shot. It just seems so unfair that he had to go at such a young age, I know you are so lost without him - it is so hard to fill the empty days. 

You actually got a smile from me with "I'll sneak up beside him when my time comes and surprise the begees out of him!" - I love that! - something for us to make plans for - our reunions with our angels.  I can picture them when they first see us, their little eyes get big, tails wag faster, and then they just go absolutely crazy when they realize we are actually there with them - racing to us and showering us with kisses and love.  Smiles!!! 

Thank you so much Liz - you have been a blessing to me this Friday morning.  Sending a huge hug across the ocean to you.  :)

Melanie


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Fridays are hard for me - my angel left on a Friday.  I need to find some way to make all the horrible memories of her last few little minutes and hours dim so that all the wonderful memories that she left me with can shine thru and sustain me.

So...Fridays are only for GOOD MEMORIES or in this case a SIGN.

Yesterday afternoon as I sat staring mindlessly at "her spot" on the couch, something caught my eye.  On the white wood trim just to the left of the couch there was a small sliver of light - only about 3 inches tall - a tiny little rainbow.  I thought about taking a photo, but I didn't - I talked myself out of it - "it was nothing" and it soon faded away.  But...less than a minute later my Husband called to me from the back porch...  "You should come see this!"

As I stepped outside - he was looking at the eastern sky - peeking out of the clouds was the most beautiful "REAL" rainbow.  It was not a full arc, but more straight and the colors were so, so vivid.  I had to smile...it was as if my Lee Lee was saying  "What... that little one wasn't good enough? - Well, how about this one! "

Another sign from my precious little angel, another rainbow.  She is trying so very hard to let me know she really is okay and is still watching over me.  She is probably thinking "Okay, here's ANOTHER sign - just how many signs do you need! "  All I can get, my baby, All I can get.

Thank you my sweet Lee Lee - Mama loves you err and err...kisses and scratches...

(I did photograph this one - I'll attempt to post it tonight.  If you read this far, I pray that each of you dear people looking for a sign from their angels gets one very soon)
Anniferwally

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LeeLee is soo beautiful, I love the picture of her chasing a squirrel. It's such a nice sign to receive from her :) I'm happy for you
LeeLeesMama

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 #120 
Anniferwally,

Thank you so very much for visiting my Lee Lee's story. I appreciate your very kind comments for my baby when your own loss is so very recent and raw.  I pray you receive a visit from your baby Sandra, your Bubba, very soon.  Hugs to you...I know how hard it is...

Melanie (Lee Lee's Mama)
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