Today marks day 100 since my Rusty left me for his eternal life at the Rainbow Bridge. As many of you, I also recently lost my other best friend, my mom on May 14, 2008. I have read many posts over the last couple of weeks and I find that my heart is breaking so terribly, not only from my own loss, but for everyone else’s as well. I wish I could write to each and every one of you, to let you know you’re in my thoughts and if I could I’d make the pain and sorrow go away, I surely would.
I’m posting a poem I wrote for Rusty a day or two after he left me and I will share it now with all of you, my dear friends.
For you Rusty, my sweet little guy . . . I love and miss you so.
Until We Meet Again . . . . My Beautiful Boy, My Life, Mine
How do we go on without the ones we love?
Time doesn’t stop, we keep marching on,
We are just hoping they’re watching us from the heavens above.
When it was your time, I held you so tight,
Loving you, kissing you.
I wished you peace and no pain as your spirit took flight.
I pray each day that I’ll see you in my dreams to ease my pain,
My sorrow, a wound so deep,
Come to me my love and tell me you’re o.k. and that it’s time to be happy again.
You’ll remind me that when you left me you took my tender love with you in your heart,
And tucked it safely away,
And though you didn’t want to, you knew we had to part.
Now when the sun rises I know it’s your sweet spirit asking me to smile,
To find joy in my lost soul, my broken heart,
But it’s so hard to do, you understand don’t you, it’s going to take a while.
As you left, you said to me, “I know how much you love me, what more could I ask for?
Thank you for giving me this gift by setting me free,
And now I’ve been called back because someone needs me more.
I have you in my heart and will always now for eternity, don’t fret,
To carry me across the heavens,
So do not worry, for I will never forget.”
But the emptiness that’s left behind, as I sit alone and cry,
To know that you’ve gone before me,
I asked when you left me, who needs you more than I?
Come whisper softly to me, on the wind and let me know you’re near.
It will be so unexpected, not to be explained,
Tell me where to find you, I’ll look for you there.
I know you’ll be waiting for me when it’s my time,
I will never know peace until that day when
We’ll be joined together once again my love, my beautiful boy, my life, mine.
ajb - 2008