Registered: 1537194851 Posts: 13
decided to put my sweet almost 13 year old lab mix down this morning. It was hard as just took him last week he had eye problems and digestive issues from a possible toxin, vet said it looked like he had been maced, so it might have been a lawn toxin or something as he only walks in the neighborhood. At the same time , they found a large tumor by his spleen, and gave him some pills and prescription food. He didn't really eat it, took him back and he got another kind, then he seemed hungry and tried to steal fries, but wouldn't eat the other. Thoight he had a chance to recover as the vet said the tumor wasn't an immediate death sentence..but over the weekend he just refused to eat, only drank water. He diminished pretty fast and got very weak, just wasn't himself, so we waited til opening Monday after this hurricane this weekend, and decided it was time. He was breathing heavily all weekend, it was agonizing watching him. But I feel so guilty, if I would have known, I would have let him have the fries, and indulge him. He did want to walk on saturday at least most of his normal walk...i am just devastated. I feel like I should have done more, or had him diagnosed earlier, he had been groaning for a while when he lying down but doc knew he had a disc issue and arthritis.he said sometimes it's just time to let them.go. I just miss his presence so much. I went through this loss once before, !nd thought it might be easier this time, but it's not. I wish he was here. It's been gray all weekend and of course now the sun peaks out. Im miserable, and don't know what to do with myself.
Registered: 1498611382 Posts: 580
I am so sorry that you had to let your sweet baby go. I know from experience how very hard it is to watch something you love to the bottom of your heart go down hill and there is nothing you can do to make it all better. Don't feel bad about the fries, he will have all he needs, the angels will make sure he is never without. I believe you did what you thought best for your baby and it's normal to have second thoughts. I had a rough weekend with my beloved Termy and promised him that come Monday he wouldn't suffer anymore and it still hurts deeply even though to marrow will be one year that I sent him to the arms of the Angels. Trust your heart and give yourself time to grieve and cry when you need to. Hold onto all the memories that you both shared and one day you'll smile and remember. The love you shared will never fade. Your baby will walk beside you for they never really leave. Peace to your broken heart Love and doggie hugs Termy's mom