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Today is 3 months since Alex went to the bridge. It is also my younger son's second birthday tomorrow and his party is today. I'm trying to be happy for him but I miss Alex terribly. He loved her and I'm sad that I wont see them grow together for a bit more. Alex was young, only 8, and we all thought that we had many more years to love her and be with her. I think I've finally come to accept that she's gone but sometimes it just doesnt seem real. I'll be out somewhere and for a second, just a second, I REALLY think that she'll be home when I get there. I think about her all the time. In fact, I feel guilty when a day goes by without really thinking about her. Wherever she is, I want her to know, to feel, that I am still loving her.
I am on this board often but dont often write because the feelings that surface are just too much. Thank you to everyone for listening. Melissa
Registered: 1276206575 Posts: 628
We lost our Bonnie Lou in June of this year. I can remember for weeks and weeks, when we would be running errands, I would think we need to get home to tend to Bonnie.
And when we would get home, the house was so very empty because she was not there to greet us. We will never get over missing them. I think that in 10 years I will still want to get home to tend to Bonnie. We never forget them. Clara
Registered: 1279850525 Posts: 282
Melissa I know how you feel. It is approaching 3 months for me as well, since I lost my little Captain. It's difficult to be happy no matter the occasion, since I sometimes feel guilty for being able to celebrate and enjoy life when my little guy's was cut so short. But I have no doubt that you will be able to celebrate and enjoy your son's 2nd birthday. You are blessed to have children who will share your joys and your sorrows with you through life. Remember that Alex would not want his family to suffer. He loved and protected you and that includes wanting to protect you from any kind of pain. I truly believe that one day we'll all be reunited with them.
Take care of yourself, Dar
Registered: 1277081065 Posts: 80
Dear Melissa, wow can I relate to what you are feeling. Only diff is my children (human) are grown, youngest 17. Bennie, my beloved dog, died 3 and 1/2 months ago and I have felt so empty. I have gone back and forth about another dog. It's such big commitment but the love they give us in return is beyond words and this is why a board such as this exists.....it is such huge loss when our pets/best friend die! You will "know" when/if the time is right for another dog.
I just brought home a puppy after saying I'd "never" do a puppy again. I've had a lot of mixed emotions these first days....thinking alot about bennie and feeling sadness over missing him but the joy the new little guy is bringing into our home already is making it all worthwhile. I wish you the same joy and love with another when the time is right for you!
Registered: 1279288501 Posts: 564
Melissa, please know that we are with you to offer you comfort in your pain. You were one of the original folks that I remember being here after my Luke passed, three months and 5 days ago, and then Lil three weeks after Luke.
I sincerely hope that my posts about the new-found loves in my life, SilverCloud and Rowdy, don't cause you any further pain. I just feel so close to the folks here that I need to share my joy and elation as well as having shared the deepest, darkest pain and sorrow that I had back then. Please believe that I would never do this to rub my happiness into anyone's face....mostly it's to show you all that love can happen again, and that the pain will lessen! If my story can encourage even one person to rescue one or more animals, and to share that capacity for deep love that all of us have here, then I have done my part! May God continue to Bless and give you comfort in your grief! Know that Alex is smiling down on you and wants you to heal! Rick