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My beautiful Benjamin Boy today is 3 weeks since you left us. I miss you so much it hurts. I still can't stop crying. I cry for you every night and every morning. The pain of losing you is indescribable. It hurts me to the bone. You took so much of me when you left. I feel so cheated and angry that you were taken away from me so soon. I wanted so many more sunshine filled years with you. You were my sunshine. You are my "forever love." I will never, ever forget you my baby boy. I miss touching your soft head and kissing your beautiful nose. I miss playing blanket monster with you in the morning. I miss going out for ice cream in the late evenings with you. I miss taking you to the park. I miss waking up to your beautiful face. We went out for a malt last night to Jack in the Box, your favorite place cause they always gave you bones. It was so hard, but we have to get on with our lives and realize that you are not coming back to us no matter how much we cry or agonize over your loss. I took Sunny to the vet cause she has been depressed and he confirmed that her symptoms are from mourning and she is reacting to our sadness, too. My baby boy I just can't stop saying how much I MISS YOU. How much I WANT YOU BACK!!!! Rest in peace my precious angel. Mama will see you again, she promises. Run, play, eat all the bonie bones and chicken jerky you want cause no more cancer!! Mama loves you sooooooooo much!!
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So sorry for your sadness, It has been three weeks since Peaches has made her journey. I had been down this road, unfortunately many times, in the past and knew what I was going to experience. But for some unknown reason Peaches departure has been more difficult for me. She was always there as your Bennie was for you. I believe in my case it is the loneliness. I work in the evening and my wife works during the day so Peach and I as with you and Bennie, had our routines. I know your sadness as so many others here do; but as you said it is hard, perhaps the hardest part of all besides the guilt some suffer, knowing that they are gone from our lives. We will always have them with us in our hearts, you are in my prayers today.---Jerry in Oklahoma.
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We just miss our life once they are gone don't we? Our life when they were with us was just about the best, because of them. It is hard to accept that something as perfect as their love is gone from you. I am so sorry, I know how hard those first weeks are. I am at 14 months and it is still very difficult to accept. The pain is different but the ache and longing is still there and most of the time it is stronger than before.
They become so much a part of our pysche that we feel like we have lost much of who we were. I wish you many strong thoughts of comfort on this sad journey. It is a journey because we have so many phases to go through. Sending good thoughts to you and Bennie, Helen
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I am so sorry for your loss of your beloved Bennie. Three weeks is still so very fresh and raw. Like Helen says, there are so many phases of grief we pass through, all of them painful in different ways. We have to just let the waves of grief wash over us, and hope we are left standing.
My heart and thoughts are with you as you pass the anniversary. Hugs, Melissa Betsy's forever mom
Registered: 1212715287 Posts: 15
I am so sorry for the pain you are feeling.
I am right there with you in that I feel everything just as you do. It has been 12 days that I lost my little Mickey and although I am so,so sad, I am also very angry at times. I just want to kiss his little nose and cuddle on the couch with him but he is not here. It is still almost hard to believe. Almost surreal at times. He was my angel for 14 years and for him to not be here anymore is just devastating. We are seriously considering moving because of it. I just don't want to be here without him anymore. It is just too painful. I hope Bennie is playing with my little Mickey at the bridge. They are both healthy and happy and eating all kinds of treats and snacks. They have their favorite toys and the most comfortable beds. They are watching down on us telling us they love us and not to be sad. They are here with us in memory and spirit and although that just isn't enough it is all we have right now. I hope that you can find some comfort in knowing that you were the best momma Bennie could ever have and you did all you could for him. He will always be your little boy and will always love you.
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It was 3 weeks ago today for me as well, and I am feeling much the same as you are. Still trying to find my way back to a normal life, but he's all I think about and it's so hard. And even when I do get engrossed in something and seem to be having a normal day, I just feel guilty for forgetting about him, even for a short time. When I let myself think about the fact that I really won't be able to hold or pet him or just see his beautiful face and loving eyes, it just breaks my heart all over again. I wonder if there is a special bond for those that share the same wingday?
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I am so sorry that you are still in so much pain. As everybody has said, 3 weeks is no time for grief. May you soon find peace, much love, Di xxx