Registered: 1546123300 Posts: 40
I am cold all the time
I cry and sob all the time I look for you every where I can't eat I can't sleep I miss you playing with me I miss your eyes I miss the softness of your fur I miss our walks every day I miss your woofs I miss your nails clicking I miss you beside me in the car I miss your hidden treats in the bed I miss you stealing my bookmark I miss you basking in the sun I miss you chasing our backyard rabbit I miss our ice cream treats I miss scratching the back of your neck I miss the cuddles we had I miss the "fighting gloves" I miss your absolute alertness I miss your desire to comfort I miss just talking to you I miss coming home to you I love you sweetheart, and miss you so much. If I could change everything that happened I would, but I can't. Know that I loved you more than anything on earth. You only lived for 1264 days, that's not enough and I am so sorry for that. More than anything. You were healthy and young and I wasn't smart enough to realize booster shots can be deadly. Please forgive me honey, I'm dying a death here myself, its hard to look in the mirror. I always said I wouldn't know what to do without you and now I am living it. Every day is a heart ache, every moment I think of you. The couch, the floor, where your water dish was, I see you. No one will ever know how much we meant to each other, except ourselves. You were amazing to me Liberty, I love you forever... Libertydad
Registered: 1549472726 Posts: 1
Thank you, LibertyDad. You have expressed your grief so well, that it might as well be my own......
Registered: 1498611382 Posts: 580
Dear Liberty's dad,
I feel your pain and heart ache. It will hurt for the rest of our lives. As for me, I have learned to cope and live a new normal life. Termy has been living at the Bridge for almost 18 months on the 18 of this month and I still cry and miss him very much. You will always miss your little girl. We all wish for more time, just one more hug, one more hour etc. I still do. Reading your post about vaccines, I am a bit afraid of taking Termy's sister to get her boosters and I plan to talk to the vet before hand. You do express what we all feel. I tell Termy every night that I am one day closer to being with him. I hope some day we all can feel better and smile a little. Not sure when that will happen but we can hope. I just wanted to tell you that I am the one who suggested the book " surviving the loss of your heart dog" to Loz and I didn't think it was rubbish. I found validity in some of the things she wrote and how we feel inside. It made me fell a bit better and that I wasn't crazy about how I feet and still feel. I read several books over the months after letting Termy go and I took parts of what I read and it made me feel what I was feeling was okay. We all need hope. Sending your comfort and a cyber hug Termy's mom