Registered: 1536692759 Posts: 17
I wish I could say the heartache of putting my Penny girl to sleep due to aggression has subsided. I wish I could say I have came to terms with the decision I made. I wish I could accept that it was the “right” thing to do.
It’s been 6 months since that horrible night and I relive it all the time. I can be laying in bed completely fine and all it takes is ONE tiny reminder and I’m up sobbing all night (much like tonight). It was a choice I never thought I would have to make, even though I knew she had issues.. I guess I just kept thinking “she’ll snap out of it, she’s stressed because it stormed, the baby was crying loud, she has separation anxiety, she doesn’t like men.... or women, she’s scared of new people, other animals make her nervous, it’s because she’s scared of loud noises..” the list of excuses went on and on. I loved her regardless of the issues so I always tried making excuses for her. For 4 years we couldn’t have company, we couldn’t take her anywhere there would be children because we never knew who she would try to bite, we spent hundreds of dollars in vet bills fixing the wounds she put on our other dog Paisley. Every once in awhile I just need to spill my heart out and luckily this is a place where people understand exactly what I’m feeling. I know one day I’ll be at ease. Today isn’t that day. ♥️
Registered: 1552156890 Posts: 7
I am sorry to hear the difficult circumstances surrounding your pet. I have been crying in the night too. Take care of yourself.
Registered: 1498611382 Posts: 580
It's hard to let them go regardless of the reasons. It's been almost 18 months since I let Termy go to the Bridge and I still feel the heart ache. My decision was because of old age catching up with Termy and your was a decision to let your Penny go to end her night mares. What we did, as most of us here was out of love. We loved, were loved and we all tried to keep our fur babies with us for as long as possible. Sometimes we just need to think of them first and their quality of life. It's hard, but be kind to yourself and cry as much as you need to. Penny is waiting for you at the Bridge where her demons don't exist any more. She is free to play with other dogs and be who God intended her to be. I still cry, almost daily because I miss Termy and what we shared. It's what we do when we love as deeply as we did.
Love and doggie hugs Termy's mom