Registered: 1214367041 Posts: 28
To My precious Bella,
It's been 19 days since you went to Heaven. I am still devastated and can't believe you are gone from my side. I miss you terribly. I am so sorry you got sick and I only got to see you for 3 of the 6 days that you were in the hospital. I will never get over the guilt of them telling me that I would stress you out when I visited you. I am so grateful though, that we were able to spend time on your last day here. Please remember how much I love you, you are my life. I miss walking in the door and watching you twirl in happiness to see me, and kissing me uncontrollably, laying on me, laying against my back all night under the covers, kissing me like crazy when I would be sad or cry or when I would laugh. I miss you protecting me, and barking at anyone who would come close to our bed, I miss you tearing up tissue, I miss you playing with all of your babies, and playing with pony tail holders. I miss taking you bye-bye's in the car and for a walk. I miss calling home everyday and asking sissy how you are.I miss hearing your little feeties pitter patter on the floor and your tap dancing, and your happy dancing, rubbing your face all over the blankets or carpet. Daddy, sissy and brother miss you so much too. Kitty misses his buddy/mommy so much. He has no one to chase him and play with now. the night I brought home your ashes, Kitty rubbed all over your box. He loves you so. I wish I could have done more for you. I prayed so hard for a miracle to happen for you to get better. I can't wait for the day to come, where we will be with each other again in Heaven and Rainbow Bridge to be together forever. I hope you are healthy and Happy and playing with Oasis, Monte, Bo and Noah. I hope my grandparents and family are loving you for me until I come and join you. You are in my heart and my head everyday and I talk to you everyday, light candles for you and ask for you to not be upset with me for not seeing you for 3 days. I only did that so you would get better, I didn't want to jeopardize your recovery.I know how much you wanted to come home. It was so painful for me when you were in the hospital. It broke my heart everyday. I feel that I would have been able to be with you everyday, maybe you would have eaten and drank water again without throwing up. But, I will never be able to know for sure. I did everything I could for you. Bella, you are the love of my life and always will be. You brought the most happiness to me anyone ever has. I am so lucky to have had you in my life for 5 yrs. and 8 months. I am the luckiest person alive. You are my princess. Please talk to me and be with me everyday. I sleep with your ashes next to my bed to keep you close to me. I love you, Mommy
Registered: 1211242652 Posts: 355
Your letter to Bella really touched my heart. She sounds like a wonderful girl. I am sure she knows how much you love her.
I love reading about everyone's precious angels and the cute little things they did. They definitely had our hearts and they will be in our hearts forever. I know how much we all miss our angels - I try so hard everyday to find peace and comfort in all of the memories I have of my cat Cheeseburger - he was my baby boy. I was blessed to have him in my life for 10 years. He gave me more love and friendship than anyone I have ever known. I think of Cheesey healthy again and all the sickness from him gone. When I dream of him he looks so strong. Your precious Bella is well again; happy, healthy and running and playing with her friends at Rainbow Bridge. Bless her sweet soul - she knows how much you love her. Dee >^..^< Cheeseburger's Mom firstname.lastname@example.org Dee + Cheeseburger = LOVE
Registered: 1200561771 Posts: 251
Your letter to Bella was so beautiful, I am writing this through my tears...5 precious years with your girl, it doesn't seem enough does it? Time just goes too fast. Your Bella sounds like such a sweetheart, I can tell that she was your soulmate and that you were hers. I know what it is like to lose the love of your life. My Nugget has been gone 6 months on the 2nd and I miss him more everyday, I can't get over him. I too can't wait to see him again at the Bridge.
Can you please post a picture of your sweet girl when you have a chance? I would love to see her. I am thinking of you today and I am sure that Bella is watching over her mummy. A big cuddle to you, Nuggetsmum Alana
Registered: 1185992427 Posts: 613
Dear Shari, your beautiful tribute to Bella brought tears to my eyes, what love you shared! Your loss is so new, the rawness of the pain is apparent in your words. I remember the agony of the first few weeks after losing my little golden girl, it is difficult to get through the days, and sleep eludes us. Slowly but surely we are able to breath again, but things are never 100% the same. How could they be when we lose our soulmates? Yet, it is very comforting to know that our fur babies are in a wonderful place with lots of sunshine, friends and treats. No more ailments, no more pain. They will wait for us patiently there, as they did while here with us on earth. Your little princess will be surrounded by caring and loving friends while waiting for you, may that knowledge bring you peace and comfort in the weeks ahead. Hugs from Houston, MsSavion
Registered: 1214367041 Posts: 28
Here is a pic of my Bella, for those of you who asked to see her