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It's been 23 days since you went back to Heaven. The pain of losing you seems to be getting worse. Most of my days are spent crying and thinking of you. I can see you in the hall waiting for me to pick you up and in the kitchen eating your favorite treats. I miss cooking your favorite chicken and mostly loving you. Sometimes I am OK and think how grateful I was to have you to love for 17 years and then my heart will sink again. I love you so much Meister and you were always happy and I will always thank you for showing me how to be happy and a more loving person. It was you and me buddy, now your life was taken away and it's me and your sweet pictures and memories. I will talk to you every day and you will be in my heart forever. Thank you again to all who share my feelings. I pray everyday for my sweetheart and for everyone who is going through this pain. I love you forever Meister Mary your Mom
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My heart breaks for you as I know the ache you have for Meister. I understand how you will always be thinking about him, you did when he was with you so it cannot change now that he is gone. The loving them is the biggest thing we all miss. It breaks my heart that I cannot give them what they loved so much, my touch! I still cry everyday and it has been very close to 15 months, I think I plan on crying everyday from now on. It is so wonderful to have all of those years of memories and pictures but it just isn't enough is it? We need them. I wish you some peace, Helen
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Your letter to Meister is so beautiful. I felt the need to write to my Cheeseburger today too - it is his 2 month Bridge Day. It definitely helps me when I write - I find it a great way to express my feelings. We all miss our babies so very much and I think of my Cheeseburger all the time. Sometimes the littlest thing will trigger me and the tears just start to flow, but I try to catch myself and think of a happy time with Cheese like feeding him his Pepperidge Farm Cheese Crackers. He would eat them out of my hand. We truly loved our angels so very much, and they know we did and still do. Their love is deep within our hearts always. It is that love and the cherished memories we have of them that we must try to take comfort and peace in. Dee >^..^< Cheeseburger's Mom email@example.com Dee + Cheeseburger = LOVE
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Finally I have found you and can tell you something. I was on Dee's thread this morning about her Cheeseburger's Bridge Day and saw the pictures that you posted there of Meister. He is a doll. I haven't seen an apricot poodle in a long time; absolutely adorable.
The first few months were a rollercoaster ride for me; seemingly OK one day, in tears the next. It's been 9 months in July since we helped our schnauzer Molly to the Bridge. She is in my thoughts from the time I wake up until the time I fall asleep. I have never had the relationship with any animal that I had with her. I truly believe that she is my once-in-a-lifetime pup.
You had that same kind of relationship with your precious Meister. You'll never forget him or the bond you two have. I speak a lot in the present tense about Bridge Babies because I feel our relationship with them continues on, forever, even though they have gone before us. Meister is always alive, in your heart, in your memories. I printed Moll's pictures and have them around the house. Anywhere I look, I see her. I still sing the song Good Morning to you every morning because I do see her everywhere.
You are in my prayers as you grieve.
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Oh, Mary, I am so sorry for your pain, but I know it cannot be avoided. I just wish I had some magic words I could say to even lessen it a bit.
Grief has it's own time frame. And, sometimes the pain is almost unbearable...overwhelming. Your loss is still so new and your heart is just so heavy. Just keep writing about your precious boy. He is so near you. When I first lost my beloved 16 year old terrier, Betsy, to dementia in January, I talked to her all the time. And, I sobbed, and sobbed. She was my baby as I have no human children. For the first time in my life, I felt despair. But, gradually, I came to realize she was no longer suffering from that dreadful dementia. I also began to dream of her quite a bit. In every dream she looked radiant, like an angel, and was running through the most beautiful green meadows I have ever seen. In one dream, she was standing at the end of a rainbow in our backyard. In another, she was sleeping in her bed in our new house. I think these are signs that she has transitioned beautifully to her new spiritual life, and is patiently awaiting the day we will be reunited. Like Molly's mom, my husband and I generally speak of Betsy in the present tense, as we feel her spirit everywhere. This will come for you as well when your grief lessens a bit. I, and many others, believe the intensity of acute grief can often keep us from feeling our babies' presence around us. Give yourself time to grieve. We will be here for you, my friend. You can count on that. Hugs, Melissa Betsy's forever mommy
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Mary; Your Meister knows how much you loved and still do love him. I am so sorry for what you are going through. Being grateful for those 17 wonderful years you two shared is a way to help ease your pain, my being grateful for the nine years Peaches was with us has helped me deal with our loss. It has helped because as I read other posts there are so, so many here that had a much shorter time than we did. It is a roller coaster ride no doubt about it. As you know I have been able to focus more on our good times with Peach. It took me a little over a month. Yes there are and always will be times the pain will return and I will and have dealt with it in my own way. Being so much a part of our lives makes it so much harder when they have to go. I hope and pray as each day goes by it will help ease your pain just a little. We will always cherish the memories and as it should be. Even as they have left us our memories will remain. Just as a part of them has remained in our heart. God Bless.---Thanks for being there, not only for me but for all the others you have responded to. I know your Meister is proud of you for it.---Jerry in Oklahoma.
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Dear Mary, I am so sorry for your sadness and the ache in your heart. Your Meister was such a darling darling boy, so huggable and kissable! I surely can see that he was much loved, and cherished. He is surrounded by all of this favorite things now at the Rainbow Bridge, and I imagine he is a popular little prankster! I bet my Nike is taking good care of him, don't worry, all of our fur babies will look after him, and make sure he is never lonely. Hugs from Houston, MsSavion