I haven’t listened to or turned on the radio since my Cheeseburger passed away on May 4th, 2008. We used to listen to the radio together, and when I left for work in the morning, I’d leave the radio on for him. When I got to work I’d turn the radio on and listen to the same station. It was my way to feel connected to him while I was at work.
I was sitting at my desk at work today and opened up the little photo album of his pictures I carry with me all the time. I came to a picture of myself and Cheese and left the album open so I could look at it while I worked at my desk. Something moved me to turn on the radio, and when I did, I heard “Here’s “Home” by Daughtry…that was “our special song!” I used to sing along with it to Cheesey and his soft black tail used to swish while I sang. (I know this all must sound very crazy.)
I loved hanging out with Cheeseburger. We’d listen to music together, I’d read poetry to him, and when I was online updating my tiger sites, he was right next to me and I’d tell him about the stories I was posting.
I don’t know if I’m reading too much into hearing the song today, but I am taking it as a sign from my beautiful baby cat telling me “I’m o.k. Mommy,” and that he is free of pain and illness, breathing in the fresh clean air, “watching the birdies” (one of his favorite pastimes,) and basking in the sunlight.
The strange thing is when we left the hospital the morning Cheeseburger died, we got in the car and my son turned on the radio and the song “Free Bird” by Lynyrd Skynyrd started playing. My son and daughter told me it was a sign from Cheesey, to let us know that he’s o.k.. For those not familiar with the song here are some lyrics:
If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be traveling on, now,
'Cause there's too many places I've got to see.
But, if I stayed here with you, girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
'Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you can not change.
Maybe I just need and want to believe they are signs from him, not coincidences, but deep down in my heart, I truly do believe he is telling me that he’s o.k.
I miss you so much Cheeseburger. I will never forget you. You are forever in my heart. I love you Cheesey.