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This is my first time posting here, my mom resent me the link to this website the other day knowing that I may need it in the coming days.
A year ago today (July 9) I lost my baby Tucker. He was only 3 years old and loosing him was such a shock. He was a wonderful cat, big, fluffy, lovable and so mellow. He would always curl up and sleep in my arms, usually with his body under the covers, his head and front paws over the top of the comforter, just like a person. The vet said she had never seen a cat that was so sick be such a trooper!
Last June as we sold our house, the house we were in the process of buying fell through so with a week left to find a new place to live we were lucky enough to find a place to rent for the time being, the major drawback was there was no way we could have our pets. Reluctantly, I sent my baby to live on my mom’s boss’s farm. He didn’t fare the move well and within a couple days he had run away, as often as I could I would go up to their farm and walk around calling him hoping to find him. A couple week later he was found but he looked very sick. We took him back home and to the vet. They couldn’t figure out what was wrong with him, they knew he had jaundice, but didn’t know what was causing it. He was very skinny, and couldn’t eat or drink, when he did he couldn’t keep it down.
They sent him home with us and I slept and care for him in a tent in our backyard. Out landlord wouldn’t even let us have him in the house, knowing how sick he was and that we could potentially loose him. I fed him from a syringe and gave him an his IV shot three times a day. Knowing, despite not wanting to admit it, that he didn’t have long, the night before he died I took him in. I completely news papered the floor in my room and put him in bed with me and reluctantly fell asleep with him in my arms. The next day when we took him back to the vet we made the decision to put him to sleep. The only other hope was to have him stay @ the vet overnight, with a feeding tube while they tried to find a positive blood match so he could have surgery, only to hope they could find what was wrong.
The only thing greater than my love for my Tuck was the fact that I couldn’t put him through that. To this day it still hurts so much and I miss my baby everyday. I never thought that even a year later it would hurt just as much.
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First of all, I am so sorry for the loss of your baby, Tucker. It is indeed hard even after a year for many of us here. These furbabies are just so special and leave such lasting impressions. I know the pain and loss is still there and like many of us here to some degree I think it always will be. I'm so sorry too that you lost your baby so early in his life. That too is hard. But I can tell you that though I had 10 years with my shepherd I still felt cheated out of more time. Most of us here no matter how long their pet lived still wish for one more day and that's completely understandable. Remember you're not alone and everyone here is willing to listen, offer support and truly understand your pain. Hope you are feeling better soon and again I am so sorry for your loss. Hugs to you, JasminesMom (Kathy)
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I just balled reading your post. I am so sorry for you loss and I hope you feel comfort in some way. It will be 5 weeks tomorrow since Louie had to be PTS. It was the worst decision I ever had to make, knowing there was no other alternative I had to do it. Except, I was a big selfish wimp and could not stay with Louie when they gave him the shot. For that I will feel crappy for the rest of my life for that. I hope and pray for healing everyday but in my gut I know that this hole will forever be in my heart, body, mind and soul. I like to think in a year I will feel better but I know deep down I will have to live with this feeling of emptiness forever and it burns my insides. Thanks for sharing and I will pray for you, your family and Tucker. ~d Louie's Mom