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Randyjohnson

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On July 11, 2020 my Applehead Chihuahua dog passed away. Her name was Agnes. She was nine years old. I found her dead about 10 PM. I was about to go to bed but immediately knew there was no need to go to bed. When I found her dead in the kitchen, I knew that I wouldn't be able to get any sleep so I stayed up most of the night.

I adopted Agnes on August 27, 2013. My ex-friend and I were out looking for me a Chihuahua dog. As she put gas in her Durango, I made a decision. I decided that if the dog I found was a female, I would name it after my late mother. My ex-friend and I went to a woman's house who runs her own rescue service. She only had one Chihuahua and it was a female. Agnes had short and dark brown fur.

I eventually bought two more Chihuahua dogs. Both dogs are hyper so I keep them in my basement. It wasn't until I bought those dogs that I truly appreciated what a great dog Agnes was. Agnes was one of the sweetest dogs around and wasn't one bit hyper. After getting my two new dogs, I learned how special Agnes was. Agnes was a bit on the hateful side when I adopted her but she soon grew out of it. When I took Agnes to a vet in 2017, I learned that she had a heart murmur.

Because of a mental disorder, I hear voices from time to time. As an ice cream truck drove through the subdivision where I live, I heard a voice. The voice told me to buy an ice cream and eat it while standing over Agnes's grave. I did so but it tore me up pretty bad. Yes I hear voices sometimes but don't worry. The voices don't tell me to hurt people. I have a mental disorder but I'm not a psycho.

When I adopted Agnes, I got the Holy Grail of dogs. As far as I'm concerned, she was the best dog on the planet. She loved me and the feeling was mutual. Some friends invited me to stay overnight at their homes a few times. When I would come home after being gone all night, Agnes would start hopping around and yelping because she was happy to see me.

I usually sleep on my couch and she slept on the couch with me. I decided to sleep in one of the bedrooms. Agnes was in the living room and she started howling at 3 AM. She was unhappy because she couldn't spend the night with her Daddy. After her howling woke me up, I got her and let her sleep in the bed with me the rest of the night.

I have no wife or kids and Agnes was the closest thing I had to a daughter. Her death has broken my heart and I'm going to miss her. She was my baby doll and I owned her for almost seven glorious years. I thanked the good Lord for letting me have her. I was a lucky man. 


goofygirlinva

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Randy,

I am so very sorry Agnes is gone.

To know the love of a pet is one of the most precious and special gifts we can ever experience. Clearly you loved Agnes with your entire heart and she loved you with all of hers. Yes, you were a lucky man, but I would also say Agnes was one lucky dog. She was so lucky to be cherished, loved and adored by you during her life. There are so many animals out there that do not have a home, do not know love, do not have a person that is devoted to them the way you were with Agnes. 

I am like you - I do not have a spouse or kids. My cats are the closet thing I have ever had to children. I've lost 4 cats over the years as an adult, and each time they pass away I feel as though they have taken a piece of my heart on up to heaven. It hurts so much, but we are so blessed to have known and cared for and loved these amazing creatures. It is truly a gift, a blessing from heaven, isn't it?

I know it hurts so very much right now. But I hope you are eventually able to smile from deep within your heart when you think back on the seven years you and Agnes shared...

Hugs to you and Agnes...

Kelly
Mom to angel cats Blackie, Squeeker, Thomas and now Rufus

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