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I lost my sweet girl, Bubbles early yesterday morning. She was almost 13 years old and had been with us since she was 8 weeks old. She hadn't been herself since the end of January. I am grateful for the extra month we had with her but still wish we had more time together.
Bubbles and I were extremely close. She came to work with me everyday, she slept with me, she went to the store with me, she was with me 24/7 for the last several years (since she had surgery in 2015). Even though I have a family (husband, 20 year old son, 16 year old daughter and three additional pups) I am feeling empty inside. My heart literally aches. I replay her last hours over and over in my head wondering what I could have/should have done differently. She was a huge part of my world and my routine revolved around her. It has only been 45 hours since she left us. Everything reminds me of her. I don't even want to wash my clothes because her fur is still on them. I keep thinking, "yesterday/last week this time she was doing..." I couldn't sleep last night until i wrapped a stuffed animal in her blanket and held it like I would hold her while we fell asleep. Here is the part where I feel s bit crazy... we dropped her off yesterday at the vet's office. They were going to keep her until Monday and send her to get cremated. I found online that you can have your pets freeze-dried. I called and asked the vet not to send her to be cremated. She is nolle in a holding pattern at the vet's until I decide what I want to do. Has anyone ever had their pet freeze-dried? Did it help to be able to see them and let them again? Does it make it worse?
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We all get a little "crazy" when our pet dies. We can't really grasp that they are gone.
My little girl died on Christmas day (2018) at the OVC 2 hours away from my house. Of course I was there with her when we had to euthanize because of IMHA. She was only 3 1/2 years old and my heart was literally broken. Since everything was closed, being Christmas day, and I didn't want to drive all the way back to get her, and I really didn't want her in a cold freezer. I brought her home. She was in a eutho bag on a blanket. I put her in the spare bedroom on the bed and unzipped the bag enough just to see her and pet her. Since it was late and I was very tired I laid down beside her and stroked her fur and told her how much I loved her. I fell asleep touching her and woke up in the morning, with my hand still on her side. I called the crematorium the next day but they were still closed, so she was spending another day here. I must of walked into that room a thousand times just to touch her and say hello. Then at night I did the same thing, laid down beside her and fell asleep stroking her fur. Those were 2 "extra" days I had with her, they hurt a lot but it gave me some comfort and closure. I cried like a baby. Dropping her off to be cremated was extremely difficult, but it needed to be done. Her ashes are in a lovely urn on the mantle. I say hello to her every day. I have never heard of freeze-dried pets. In my opinion, they would still slowly fall apart and that might be worst to expose yourself to. My dog too was a 24/7 companion and the hurt is unbearable at times. Get her cremated and display a picture, with urn and paw print somewhere nice in your home. My heart goes out to you, take care of yourself.