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Three days ago my rambunctious little companion Francesca saw me off to work. She was her usual peppy little self. By that evening she could not even lift her head, I rushed her to the vet and had to make the decision to say goodbye. They gave her fluids which picked up her spirits a bit. She wagged her tail when she saw me. But I was so sad knowing that she would no longer be with us. I held her in my arms and kissed her head as the vet injected the drugs and just like that, my puppy girl was gone. The last image I have is of her lifeless body. I've cried everyday since then, I cannot get the image of her sick and then dead out of my head. I dont regret staying in the room with her. She gave me and my wife so much(including getting us through the pain of a miscarriage just a few weeks before) I owed her so much, the very least I could do was not leave her to die with strangers. But the pain and the images keep popping into my head and combined with losing a child, the pain just does not feel like it will go away.
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I am sorry. At least your baby knew a lot of love from you and she passed with you loving her. So many animals never got that love and affection.
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So sorry for your loss. Posting in this Forum can help with the grief. Everyone here is going through the exact thing, so you are not alone. Jim
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You are right. The pain feels like it will never go away. When my dog Tum died I would have bet a million dollars if I had it and I would have gone on national TV and sworn before the world that I had been afflicted with some kind of "condition" that was permanent ...because the pain was so deep there was no way intellectually I could possibly concerive that this would ease up. NO WAY! I truly with all my heart believed "something had happend to me" and that whatever it was, was permanent.
No one could feel the disturbing feelings I was feeling and expect them to one day be gone since these kinds of feelings and sensations were out of this world. You are in the thick of it right now and thinking "someday I will feel better" doesn't work because the feelings you have are so deep, raw and intense. The pain will ease over time. But right now that is not believeable and you wonder how you are going to survive what is happening to you. It is an awful place to be and I want you to know I have been there and understand. Many here have. I am very sorry for your loss. God bless you.