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I just wanted to take a few moments to sit down and write a note to you. As you probably know, I moved out of the townhouse and into the new house yesterday. It was both a happy and sad day for me. It was happy because I finally moved into the house I had searched for ever since January. But it was also sad because it meant I was leaving the last home you and I shared together. Once I finish cleaning up the townhouse and turn in the keys, I will never be able to go back to that home that was so very special to me and hopefully to you. Blackie, you have been gone for over 2 1/2 years now, yet I think about you every single day. I talk to you pretty much every day and I tell you how much I love and miss you, my precious boy. I remember when I first thought about purchasing a house, how I would talk to you about what I wanted in a house and how I specifically hoped to have a home that was in a quiet neighborhood near a park. I wanted to have a house that had a lot of sunlight so you could easily find places to sunbathe throughout the day. Blackie, I found the kind of house I was looking for but my heart is breaking because you are not here to enjoy it with me. It is so unfair that we cannot enjoy this moment together, that you are not here to explore the new house and the new neighborhood and the nearby park with me. It just isn't fair, my beloved boy. Blackie, even though I have moved into the new house, I still need to come back to the townhouse that you and I shared and clean it up from top to bottom. As I was moving some items out of the computer & living rooms, I found some dried up, crusty cat food that I think was probably something you had vomited back when you were super sick. I could not help but stop for a moment and reflect on our time together in the house, and if people had not been in the house helping me move, I am positive I would have stopped and cried at what I had found because of all the memories it brought back. Blackie, I am sure you are happy and healthy up in heaven, and for that I am grateful. But I sure do miss you. I remember the two moves you and I made together. I remember the first move, how you were really upset about moving and probably worried that you would be left behind or dumped, which is probably what happened to you that made you a stray in the first place. But once you realized I would always take you with me no matter what, you relaxed and stopped being upset and actually enjoyed the move, LOL! And I remember how well you adjusted to your new home on both of those moves - as long as we were together you were content and you made the transitions to your new homes with such ease! How i wish you had been with me yesterday to help Rufus & Squeeker understand that they had nothing to worry about. Poor Squeeker was such a nervous wreck all yesterday, and Rufus was also pretty uptight as well. But I think now that they have had some time to explore, they are slowly getting used to their new surroundings, thank goodness... Anyhow, I should probably get going and do some cleaning. I just wanted to let you know that I was thinking of you and to let you know how much I love and miss you. I will ALWAYS love and miss you, my beautiful boy. It is just such a shame that you are not physically here to enjoy your new home. I really miss having you around to help ME transition to a new home, too... Take care of yoursefl, Blackie. Please come visit me in a dream or two, OK? Until we meet again, all my love forever and beyond...
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That's so sweet, thank you for sharing. I don't think we will ever get over the loss of our pets, just get through it...no matter how many years it's been- I think we will always think of our loved pets. I think of my Foster boy every day.
Registered: 1219887733 Posts: 11,059
Your letter to Blackie is so sweet! It is comforting to write to our pets. I hope Blackie will visit you in your dreams.
Good luck in your new home!! Mare precious Christoph ~ 2 years now ~