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My wonderful, beautiful cat Ceylon was hit by a car in early October. Not even a year before my 10 month old kitten Kiki was hit by a car, too. I hadn't had Ceylon for a year either, but I loved her more than anything else in this world. Her loss was soul crushing and I still don't know what to do with out her. We are burying her today, and I'm not sure how to give my final goodbyes. She was my best friend, and she was amazing. I miss her and my heart aches. She was my tether to reality, my stabilizer, my constant comfort and companion. My depression and anxiety has become increasingly hard to deal with in the face of her loss. She was so young, and I planned to take her to college with me, to grow up with her. This was all taken away by a speeding car, the one time she got outside.
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I’m so sorry for your recent losses. I totally agree with you it is certainly soul crushing.
I lost my young cat suddenly to what we think was heart disease just over a month ago and like you I was and still am absolutely devastated, I really didn’t want to go on living. He was my special buddy who I bonded with as soon as he was born.
It’s so unfair when our fur babies are hit by tradgedy, we just question why but unfortunately there never is an answer.
I hope you will start to feel a tiny bit better as time moves on after you have laid her to rest. I didn’t have a special ceremony or anything when I buried my boy (in our garden) but I’ve made his grave as nice as I can, with lights and stones and I plan to plant a tree once I’ve found a suitable one. This helps me a little and I go out and talk to him a lot, even though I know his spirit is with me everywhere.
I also suffer with depression and this makes it all so much heightened so I feel your pain.
Just remember to be nice to yourself and sending virtual hugs to you xx
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I feel your pain. I too have suffered with depression and anxiety, my little girl helped with that and losing her was by far the worst I have ever had to go through.
I wish I could say in time you'll be completely 'over it' but truth be know whilst time does heal some of the pain, there will always be a part of you that still aches, but in time you'll find a way to live with. 18+ months on and slowly I am getting there. You just need to be easy on yourself and take time for yourself, allow yourself time to grieve and if you feel the need to talk about your baby to others, do so, it helps. Slowly you learn to live with it, but as far as ever getting 'over it' I doubt I ever will and have accepted that learning to live with the loss of my girl is enough for now. Hope this helps (hugs) Jaffa's Mummy