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“There is a kiss at the end of the rainbow more precious than a pot of gold.” This is from the movie “A Mighty Wind.” It seems appropriate for me today. June 9 th has a lot of meaning for me as today is my Mother’s birthday and the 14 th month for Chancey and Digby being gone from me. They get to share this day once a year and it gives me comfort to think that they are celebrating together with all the rest of our family dogs. Last year they would have shared this date but for some incomprehensible reason I didn’t make the connection. I guess I was still in shock and did not realize the significance of the dates. They share another close date in that Mom died on April 7 th and they died on April 9 th twenty-three years later. April is not my best month any more. I guess all I really want to say today is that I miss my family and I need them still. You never outgrow your need for your Mother and I need her to talk to about the loss of Chancey and Digby. So all I can do is hope that they are together on this day of all days. Even though there was no other way to do it, letting them go together was the hardest thing to do. It has been so hard with both being gone at once. I find that I cannot accept the loss of my two most precious loves. What we had was so good. My heart breaks all over again every morning when I wake up and know that I must get through another day without them. There is an emptiness that will not go away. Fourteen months does not even begin to make a dent in this healing process. TO SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS THERE IS NO WAY TO HAVE YOU WITH ME ANYMORE SO TO SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS IS ALL I CAN HOPE FOR. PLEASE COME TO ME BE WITH ME AWHILE LET ME HOLD YOU CLOSE TO ME AND GIVE YOU LOVES LET THOSE DREAMS BE ENOUGH TO HOLD ONTO AS THE YEARS PASS BY THEY ARE ALL I CAN HAVE NOW THAT YOU ARE GONE FROM ME. KNOW THAT IN MY HEART YOU WILL STAY FOREVER AND A DAY UNTIL WE GET TO MEET AGAIN PLEASE COME TO ME IN MY DREAMS COME AND SHARE YOUR WARMTH COME AND LET ME LOVE YOU ONCE AGAIN. TO SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS By Helen New photos have been added: http://www.immortalpets.com/Chancey_and_Digby/About.aspx
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Your words are always so tender and sweet - I feel as though I know Chancey and Digby personally. It's an honor to know them and you. I really resonate with your statement about how we always need our mothers. My mother passed in 2003 (Hazel in 2004, Cully in 2005), and not a day goes by that I don't have something I wish I could take to her. Loss upon loss...I, too, take comfort in the knowledge that they are together. You are in my thoughts, Helen - Barb
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We never appreciate our Mothers until they are no longer here, I dont think. Lost my Mum 6 years ago. The good thing is, I am sure that my Mum and Dad are giving all of my babies lots of cuddles and kisses. I am sure that they are all together, keeping safe, until I can be with them all once more. Thinking of you, much love, Di xxx
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Helen, Your gentle words of Love are so touching and so filled with the warmth of the life & Love you shared with your Loved ones. Bless you and let peace be in your heart through your days. Love, Max's mom Jo
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The entire time we were in oregon I thought of my Mom and Hershey. At times it was as soggy inside the car as out.
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Dear Helen-- The memorial to your Chancey & Digby is lovely and I have tears in my eyes just thinking about your 2 losses. I know, myself, that it's hard just losing Teddy, but I can't fathom the grief you must have gone through.
I lost my mother 6 years ago and I often believe that she is taking good care of my little girl, along with my dad who died many years before. They loved animals too, so I know that Teddy and all my other little furchildren are in good hands. HAPPY BRIDGE DAY, DEAR CHANCEY & DIGBY! Hope you're having a grand celebration with your Grandma up there and saving some treats for Teddy, too (otherwise, the clip artist will definitely get her paws in there somehow). My thoughts & prayers are with you today, Helen. Love, Teddy's Mom
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My heart breaks for you as I know what a nightmare your life has been. You must feel as if your Heart is breaking into a million pieces. I can only imagine the pain you must be in. These Precious Angels do so much to make our hectic lives better. And when they are gone they leave such a huge hole that nothing can fill the space. I think what I miss most since Christopher left for the Bridge is the Joy he brought into my life. I smiled every day and now that smile happens once in a while at best. If I was having a bad day he knew and he made it better. Now that void in my life remains and likely will Forever. Yesterday it dawned on me that nothing really seems important and life appears as if it is standing still. I am not sure if this description makes sense to you but it is the best I can do to describe this loneliness and heartache. I hope your wish comes true and I hope that Chancey and Digby visit you in your dreams very soon. As you say, that is really the only thing we have to hold onto for the years to come. I am still waiting for Christopher to visit in my dreams too. There is nothing I can do to make this pain better, but I am here if you need anything. I ask Christopher every night to watch out for Chancey and Digby and I know that he will do that for me. You, Don and your Precious Angels are in my Prayers. Love and Big Hugs Forever Georgeann and Christopher
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Your memorial to your Chancey and Digby was beautiful. When my heart hurts the most, I picture my Betsy being held by my beloved Grandmother at the Bridge. Chancey and Digby are in the gentle arms of your Mom. My heart is very heavy with your sorrow tonight. I cannot imagine losing two babies at once. I cannot find the words to say to you to help quell even a small part of the pain you and your husband feel. We never outgrow the need for our mothers....or our beloved furbabies. You are in my thoughts tonight and always. Melissa Betsy's forever mom
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You, and your Chancey and Digby, have always been close to my heart. Your words for them are just beautiful. I think of you all so often, and am glad to see this post now. I know that I've missed you, too, like you have missed this family. It is hard. It has been almost 16 months for me, since I lost Molly, and I agree that there are times when the pain and sorrow is just as great as in the beginning. The "rough edges" of the pain have softened, though, and I can think of so much that I could not remember at the first, about how funny and great my girl was. Sometimes in the midst of sorrow we lose some of the precious moments. In time, we can think of them and I think it helps.
Please know that you're always loved and appreciated here! Whenever you need us we are here.
I love the new photos of Chancey and Digby. They are so beautiful the two of them.
With big hugs,
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DEAR HELEN, MY HEART BREAKS FOR YOU AND DON. CHANCEY AND DIGBY ARE THE MOST PRECIOUS ANGELSTHAT YOU HAD IN YOUR LIFE AND I KNOW YOUR HEART ACHES FOR THEM. I PRAY THAT THEY WILL COME TO YOU SOON AND SEE YOU IN YOUR DREAMS. THEY ARE NEAR HELEN. I KNOW THEY SENT YOU THE RAINBOW YOU SAW. YOUR FAMILY IS ETERNAL AND THIER LOVE SHINES DOWN ON YOU EVERY DAY. I AM SURE YOUR MOTHER IS TAKING GOOD CARE OF THEM AND THEY ARE ALL CELEBRATING TOGETHER AT THE BRIDGE. MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU ON THIS DAY...... LOVE, AMY
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I want to thank every one for your kind thoughts. I can picture my Mother with all of our family dogs and know that she would have her hands full. We have had many in our family and she loved them all. She taught me to love and respect all animals. I am sure she had a very busy birthday as she would give each one special attention. Chancey and Digby never met her here on Earth so I hope that they get to know her there.
Thank you for helping me get through another hard day. Helen
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Beautiful tribute to your beloved Chancey and Digby....surely they are nestled comfortably in your mother's arms, she must be very well acquainted with them by now, and delighted with all of their antics. Thinking of you and your husband on the 14 month bridge day for your little sweeties. It must be hard having your mother's birthday and their bridge day overlap, but it is comforting to think of them being nurtured and cared for by someone that you loved so much. I do hope that all three of them visit you soon and often in your dreams. Hugs from Houston, MsSavion
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Dear Helen, I was so sad when I read your post. No matter how old we are, when we lose our Moms we feel like orphans. We have no Mommys any more and must "grow up" real fast. Your Mom sounds like a wonderful person. I am sure she is taking care of Chancey and Digby and perhaps my beloved Mr. Meowgy too. That is a lovely thought, that my boy would have someone so kind to look after him. I wish you peace and comfort. Donna, Mr. Meowgy's mom
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I loved your pictures of all your babies. What a full life you've had with them in it!
Just as I think I'm moving forward(it's been 8 months since Missy Moll left us), it hits me like a ton of bricks that she's not just at the groomer, or for a day at the vet, or boarded: she's not coming back here. Not the way I want her to be here.
I know she's here in my heart; it's not the same thing is it?
Wishing us both some peace today.
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I'm so sorry that again grief has visited you and you are missing your mom and your furbabies so much. I know your story well and whenever I look at Chancey and Digby's photos together, I can just see how loved they were and how much they loved you in return. Having to lose them both is a heartache I can only imagine is extremely difficult to bear. Thank you though for posting all the photos. What beautiful babies they were and so cute together. They make me think of the new situation I find myself in with my two new girls, Amy is our cockerpom-retriever and Molly is our rottie and they are a year apart. They too love to be together and it's just an amazing relationship. I never thought I'd have two dogs at the same time, but the situations were just right and so our family dove in without much thought. I am grateful for their presence, it helps with the loneliness. I know they will never replace those I've lost and I can see from your rich history, you know that also, as you have opened your heart over the years to new babies when you've lost others. Take good care my friend and know my thoughts are with you. Hugs to you, JasminesMom (Kathy)
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I want to thank everyone for your kinds words and thoughts. I felt I needed to share Mom's day with the dogs and let her know how much I still miss her.
I want her to know how glad I am that they are all together with her and will be "well" looked after. She was adored by all of our dogs and I know that Chancey and Digby will love her also. I probably would never have had dogs in my adult life if it hadn't been for Mom. She found one for us just before we got married and that started us on the road of being loved by dogs. It gave us the life we needed, to be parents to some very special dogs, the best roll I will ever have. Thank you all once again for caring. Helen