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monica0107

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I lost my sweep pup Teddy, my Yorkie of 15+ years yesterday and cannot stop thinking and crying all my tears for him. He went so suddenly, which I feel is even harder as I did have a chance for a proper goodbye. Playing this morning and licking my arm, barking at the mailman, as he would every morning. He had congestive heart failure, fluid filled his lungs and had trouble breathing early afternoon. I rushed him to the vet and it was not a good prognosis. Within two hours of the event he was laid to rest. He was a part of me that I lost. I worked from home and he literally did not leave my side EVER. He was so loyal and there for me for everything. He was my best friend. Unfortunately my husband doesn’t understand and says I should “get over it”. It makes my grieving feel like I need to hide it, but I can’t stop the tears. I can’t eat, my head is hurting from all the emotions. Oh how I wish our fur babies could be with us longer. I feel so lonely. Do others on here go on to get another pet soon? To fill this huge void? I cannot think of life without my sweet boy being there for me all the time.
bossy111

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I feel your pain cry as much as you like not everyone understands the hurt it causes it will get easier as each day goes by
I lost my boy on Tuesday morning of 5 1/2 years like you i had been working from home for the past 4 months he was where ever turned always by my side 
Our fur baby's break our hearts when they leave us 
You will know when you are ready for another and he will grow into the void left behind trust me I have had to say goodbye to 3 but you will get over it.
All the best wishes from Nick


Dawn1118

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Monica....I had a yorkie too that I passed one week ago today.  My Mocha (female) who just turned 16 in March.  i thought she was doing good considering her age.  She had cataracts and her hearing was becoming less but I would tell her that she and I were getting old together.  I had noticed she had lost weight but I chalked that up to age.  It was just me and her~  I found out that she was actually in kidney failure.  I did all I could for her but she stopped eating and i had to make that dreadful decision.  i have been beside myself with grief!  I know exactly how you are feeling!  I am frozen, I can barely move!  I have been blessed with people who understand what I'm going through and it has helped me.  I'd like to be that person for you.  We had the same kind of dog and maybe we can help each other.  I hope you have a "go to" person.  I don't know what I would have done if I didn't..

Mocha's Mom
monica0107

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Thank you, both. I appreciate you sharing your thoughts. Mocha’s mom, my Teddy was also doing well I thought for his age, and was starting to lose his hearing. He would search the house for me if I left the room and I would call and call him. When he finally saw me it’s as if he won the lottery. He was always so happy to see me. I always dreaded the day as he got older but tried not to think about, now I think about what I could have done differently. Oh it’s so hard 😔
Dawn1118

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I wish I could have her back!!!!!!!!!!
monica0107

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Me too, I would do anything to have Teddy back. 💔😓
monica0107

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Everything I do I think how teddy would be next to me, when I put my daughter to bed he’d be there laying on the floor waiting for me. It’s so hard to look at the videos I have of him on my phone, like I’m torturing myself. I can’t do it anymore. How I miss him, how I could have one more pet, one more kiss 😓
monica0107

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I feel so alone. But I know I am not and you are all also going through the same pain and loss. It just so hard😔
Dawn1118

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I know how you feel!  I'm having a bad day.  It might be cuz it was a week ago at this same time right now.  I feel like I took her for granted.  Are you going to get another pet Monica?
monica0107

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Dawn, I think I would like to eventually. I feel as though I have to fill this huge void and occupy my mind. I know it will never be the same but I think I need to do, and so my twins can experience a dog as well. They are so little and don’t understand what happened. My daughter just asks me not to cry in front of her because she gets really moments. So I’m trying my best but I have good & bad times. Like my feelings will creep up on me and I think of where he would be next to me and I burst out crying. I also have trouble in the early morning and evening because that’s where I would spend the most time petting and giving my pup kisses.
What about you? I feel as though a dog’s companionship is unmatched..
georgesmom

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I'm very sorry, monica0107 and Dawn1118, for the loss of your beloved yorkies.
Just know that grief and sadness are normal, don't let anyone make you feel bad for having those feelings, because it will always be there, just lessens over time.

I lost my 13 yr old cat, George, 3 weeks ago. He had kidney failure, and became very ill, within a week he was gone.  The worst part is coming home and not having him greet me or sleep with me.  People have told me not to be sad - but you cannot stop how you feel. 

You will have some better days, and then relapse into deep grief, and this will happen on and off for awhile.  Time does help and talking to people who understand.  Your hearts will heal, the memories will always be there. God Bless.


Pawprince

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I'm so sorry for the loss of your beloved Teddy. I understand how lonely... and terrifying if can feel for our other loved ones to act cold and dismissive toward your loss. That makes the pain and grief even worse, for sure. I hope that you take the time to grieve the loss of your dog. If you feel the need to cry -- just let it out. I don't think it's healthy or fair to yourself to not be able to cry, to grieve. When the time is right for you, I hope you will feel better. And then maybe you can think about getting another pet. Or maybe not. Please just allow yourself time to process this loss and hopefully heal a bit. ((hugs))
monica0107

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Georgesmom and pawprince- thank you for your words. It does help to talk to people and you all understand how it feels so it makes it easier to spill my feelings. I agree with the good days and bad. Today I am in a deep depression, tears throughout most of the day. Since I work from home the loss is so hard on me, being in the house alone and feeling the memories of my Teddy having him with just last week. I miss him so much. If he were here, he’s be comforting me just like he has for the last 14+ years, since I graduated college and my entire adult years. I’m so devasted. Tomorrow will be one week, and I’m dreading the call from the vet to pickup his ashes. Almost like I still don’t want to believe it. ;(
georgesmom

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monica0107, I know, I picked up George's ashes a week ago - I dreaded it too.  I had a lot of anguish over trusting them with his little body, but I was relieved to bring him home.  I do cry every day looking at his little box and paw print.  I have a little flameless candle next to him lit every night and I try to think that he's not feeling any pain and I will see him again in heaven one day.  I can't talk about him without getting choked up.  I wish this all was a dream.
I offer comfort to everyone so I can also comfort myself.  

Lloydsmum

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I still cry for Lloyd every day. I'll never get another and I know what you mean- I wish this was a bad dream so so much. The hardest thing is looking at his videos and I feel like I could just reach out and touch him. Can't believe ill never see him again 😢
Lloydsmum

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I know exactly how you feel. I wish so so much it was just a bad dream. I look at pictures of Lloyd and feel.like I could reach out and touch him. Can't believe I'm never going to see him again.
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