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It's been 23 hours and 37 minutes since we rushed our Charlie dog to the vet. He was fine Friday evening into the early hours of Saturday. Then when I woke up to make a cup of coffee and let him and our pug out, he could stand up. He tried with a worried plead in his eyes that he couldn't and then just let out a sigh and laid his head on his paws. He was a large dog, over 100lbs, the vet said he could have blown a spinal disc but even if we got him diagnosed, did surgery, his quality of life would not be there. We made the decision to say goodbye. I have been in so much pain and sadness since. I am trying to do even simple tasks of having coffee or cleaning but all I can do is cry as I am reminded of the hole in my heart and the emptiness in our house. I know it will get easier each day but right now I am paralyzed with grief. I just need to know from others who have felt like this that it truly does get better and you can adapt to the new normal. Do the tears ever stop?
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Dear Charlie's Mom,
Please know that you are not alone. What you did was the ultimate act of selfless love for your sweet Charlie. Adjusting to a new normal is not easy, but you will get there. I am so sorry for your loss. My sweet Rosie crossed to the Rainbow Bridge almost a year ago. I cannot believe it has been that long. I am still crying about it but I know I did the right thing as she was a Jack Russell Terrier full of live who, in her last year, succumbed to heart failure. The sadness of seeing her decline broke my heart. We are all here for you. Love, Jackie in Seattle, mama to Angel Rosie, LuLu, KitKat and Blossom
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Thank you Jackie. Your response means a lot to me. There are so many things that have come up today from the realization of just having one dog to let out, our little dog playing with one of his toys, and even the clumps of fur he left behind. It is all a brutal reality that he is no longer with us. This pain seems to have no end as he was enveloped our daily lives. This new normal just plain sucks and hurts so much.
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Dearest Charlie's mom,
I know it hurts to get up everyday and see all the triggers that remind us that our babies left to go to the Bridge. Do anything that makes you feel some what better. I haven't put away my beloved Termy's harness, dishes and leash and he went to be an Angle over 19 months ago. I still cry for my loss and still feel the emptiness of not having him here. Your tears will subside but will never go away. You will have some really sad days for awhile but over time the tears will lessen and you will start to remember the journey you walked with Charlie and smile. The tears may fall and you will get use the new normal although it's hard. Cry as often as you feel the need to but be gentle with yourself and remember you loved and were loved. Charlie is still with you and always will be. His spirit remains by your side, still guiding you and loving you. That's their gift to us, love that never dies. You will see Charlie again and walk across the Bridge together. Love and doggie hugs Termy's mom Bonnie