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Our cat came down with a respiratory infection two weeks ago. The vet gave him antibiotics and fluids and he seemed to be getting better until his symptoms returned a few days ago. We took him back to the vet expecting more antibiotics and fluids, but was told there wasn’t anything additional we could do. He was losing weight, his kidneys were shutting down and the vet said he was uncomfortable. At that moment I made the decision to euthanize him; I didn’t want him to suffer an agonizing death. The decision has been eating away at me and I cannot stop thinking that I took the life of a cat who gave nothing but love to my family.
I am having difficulty coping with whether or not I made the right decision. The guilt is overwhelming and while logically I tell myself it was the most humane thing for him, my heart questions my decision. Perhaps it is just part of the grieving process; I just can’t get away from the thought that I may have stolen days or weeks from him where he would have been loved. Maybe it’s just human selfishness wanting more time and couching it in guilt to excuse it.
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I think it leaves all of us with some guilt afterward. There are always the 'what if' thoughts and second guessing. It sounds like you made a good decision for your cat if his kidneys were shutting down and he was uncomfortable, and he eventually would have been in very real pain. I've had to do this six times now in my life and it never gets easier and it is always always painful. I don't think I have it in me to do it again. I'm sorry for your loss. Time seems to lessen the pain and we have no choice but to move through the grief.
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I think your feelings are perfectly normal.
I too did the same thing. I brought my cat Pearl to the vet thinking she was going to get medication and care and the vet said "there is nothing I can do" and right there on the spot I went along with euthanizing her all because of the vet! I would have let her die on her own steam rather than kill her. Why kill someone because they are sick? I don't see that as humane. I see it as cruel. Like you are punishing them for being sick. I had a complete nervous breakdown afterwards that lasted years. I am really sorry you are in this situation. All I can say is I understand. What I did to Pearl truly ruined my life and I am in the process of recovering. I pray for you it doesn't take that long.