Registered: 1520483263 Posts: 2
I euthanized my 14 year old Sharpei/lab mix today. It’s the 3rd appointment I’ve made and I actually went to this one. She was old and had joint pain but seemed to feel well as long as she took aspirin every day. The reason I feel so guilty is that she used to love to play and ever since I had kids and other dogs (that she constantly attacked) I’ve barely played with her. I had her do a trick this morning she hasn’t done in years and for some reason that brings on a whole new wave of guilt. She was my baby since she was a baby. No other owners. She loved car rides and playing fetch. But I haven’t really done any of this with her in a while. We rarely had a time where it was just her without risk of her getting into one of her moods and going after one of our other dogs. She was always very content to be on her own. Maybe a sharpei trait? She was a dog that would rather just be in the room with you than be in the bed or your lap. Since being a puppy she wouldn’t sleep with me. So it’s not that she was unhappy with her life I just feel guilt that I let her stop playing with me. I keeping wishing I’d waited just a little longer and maybe done some of those things with her. Taken her on a walk. But at the same time she’s bit me, my husband, snapped at my son who was just petting her head. My kids know they cannot be means to dogs. She attacked a dog being walked on the street...but in all these attack’s she never once hurt a dog. It’s like she was all bark but she’s always the one to be injured due to her actions. Yes me and my husband had small marks from the bites. I wish you could reason with a dog. If her stubbornness could of just been tamed she would of been be best dog. She was clean and loved people. Easy to train. But it’s all over now and I feel so guilty. She was so soft and gentle looking after she had died. It’s really all I can think about.
Registered: 1520491849 Posts: 4
I understand that feeling. I had to put my girl down on Feb. 11th. She had cirrhosis from medication toxicity. $20K later she was very ill and I just couldn't put her through more surgeries and biopsies. The vet told me she wasn't suffering but her liver function was bad, anemic, bladder stones came back one month after a surgery to remove them and had an infection with complications. She was just shy of her 7th bday. I hate myself for not having more money, not having told the vet no 3 yrs ago before he gave her the Rimadyl that caused the liver issue to begin with. My anger is more that she didn't get to live as long as she should have. I feel guilty for not holding her when she wanted me to the night before we ended up at the emergency vet. For not waiting just one more day. I cry everyday and its almost a month with no relief. I don't have children. I do have her sibling who searches for her daily. Its tough....
Registered: 1520483263 Posts: 2
It's always easier to look at someone elses situation and say you did the right thing. Which in this case I think you did. People always say don't get another replacement but I think in your situation it might be good. Something to keep you distracted and a friend for your other dog. I actually picked up a rescue cat the day I put my dog to sleep. It kind of is replacing a life lost with a life saved because if I still had my dog I would never have got a cat bc she hated cats! It's kept me very distracted as well.