Petloss.com Logo. Puff and Midget under the rainbow

ALL the Pet Loss Message Boards are moderated to make this an ABSOLUTELY SAFE place for you to find support.
You must REGISTER before you can post or reply.
Posts and replies cannot be viewed until after they have been checked for content & released by the Board Moderators. - EdW
Pet Loss Grief Support Message Board
Sign up  |   |   |  Latest Topics
 
 
 


Reply
  Author   Comment  
weasel_mommy

Registered:
Posts: 4
 #1 
this weekend i made the decision to release my sweet baby kitty and love of my life, weasel. he was diagnosed with aggressive lymphoma of the spleen in early june, and over the summer had his series of good days and bad days. now my little guy has no more good days, and i know it's his time. i spend my days wailing in pain as i can't imagine not being able to look at his little face every day. he makes my house a home and is the only thing able to comfort me through anything. i never considered him my pet...he is my child. i wouldn't consider taking my own life but this pain is so agonizing i honestly understand why someone would. absolutely nothing can offer my any comfort or joy these days, i can't sleep, and i have this overwhelming feeling of hopelessness like i don't want to go on any more. 
i guess i don't even know what i'm looking for by posting on here, i just feel so alone since although my husband is supportive, he also keeps encouraging me to 'choose' gratitude for the love our kitty gave us instead of just suffering his loss, and my mom is with me but she is as much of a wreck as i am because she loved that cat like he was her own. i can't remember feeling as sad or alone in my whole life. the only thing that would ever offer my any comfort in any bad times like this would have been little weasel, and now i'm about to lose him forever. 
Dogman

Registered:
Posts: 11
 #2 
It's damn near impossible. I have no idea how anyone survives it alone. I'd be gone. Thankfully you have family around


Blessings and Peace to you.
Brooklyn

Registered:
Posts: 2
 #3 
Weasel mommy, I just went through the exact same thing you are describing and I had no idea that others would have these same emotions I'm going through. My Brooklyn left me last Friday, and the procedure was so traumatizing that it left me with PTSD. I am reliving those agonizing last moments in my head over and over. The most painful thing I ever had to endure. I had doubts even at the last second if I'm doing the right thing, wish I could tell you that I'm not feeling guilty, because I am. But my wound is still very fresh, only 4 days old, so I am definitely not the one to give you any advice regarding this hurt. I felt like my heart has been ripped out. And I'm terrified about this coming Friday when I have to pick him up in a small box 😿 I just wanted to tell you I am so sorry for your excruciating pain, I am feeling everything you are. My sweet Brooklyn was 12 and half years old, a gorgeous tiger kitty, he was my life, I loved him more than people. He had a tumor in his colon...
weasel_mommy

Registered:
Posts: 4
 #4 
I'm so sorry. My heart is with you and I know today is the day you pick up your sweet Brooklyn. I pray for strength for you, I remember picking up the ashes of my previous little love, Timmy, and will need to do so again for Weasel next week. He gets put to sleep tomorrow... 

I think as much as we are suffering we know the 'right' thing was to release them from their sickness and pain, but our hearts always win out over our minds. And a broken heart in excruciating pain just can't be rationalized with or comforted. It takes a lot of strength and selflessness to give them that release but then we're left alone and in agonizing grief, and the one thing that could comfort us is gone. 

I completely understand the PTSD and loving Brooklyn more than people. That's how I feel about Weasel too. He's my whole life and there isn't anyone on the planet that matters to me the way he does. In just about 24 hours he will leave my life forever. I can't even function and it really feels like after this nothing will matter anymore. 

Wishing you strength and peace
Brooklyn

Registered:
Posts: 2
 #5 
Thinking about you all day...so sorry for your pain.
Baby Weasel β€οΈπŸ˜ΏπŸ™
twinkiesmom

Registered:
Posts: 839
 #6 
You have been in my thoughts today. All of us here know your pain and the devastating emptiness you are feeling. Please lean on us and allow us to offer comfort and support. Weasel was a very special kitty and will be forever in your heart. I am more sorry than words can express.πŸ™πŸ™
Previous Topic | Next Topic
Print
Reply

Quick Navigation:

Easily create a Forum Website with Website Toolbox.

If you can, please help support this Message Board with a donation: