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Last year on October 5, 2005, I had to do one of the hardest things that I would ever have to do, bury one of my 3 best friends, my beagle Rusty. Then in March of 2006, another one of our dogs, Cassie, came up missing and we never found her. Now today, just when I thought that my furbaby tragedies would be over, I came home to find that JR, the puppy to Rusty and Cassie (not a puppy anymore) had been hit by a car. Somehow he had gotten loose while I was gone to class and my husband was in North Carolina. I feel that it is my fault because if I just would have came home from class when I was supposed to I probably would have found him loose and he would have been okay. But instead I talked to old friends and was in a good mood with no idea that anything was going on, except the feeling that I just should not have stopped to talk. I thought that it was just more of a "I don't want to bother these people" type thing. I guess I should have followed my gut. I guess there is nothing I can do now so there is no sense in beating myself up over it.
Anyway, for my sweet JR, I just want you to know that I love you and miss you very much. It comforts me to know that you will be reunited with your daddy, and I know that I will see you again one day. Please don't think that because in the end we didn't have as much time as I would have liked that you didn't mean the world to me because you were my everything, and there will never be anyone to take your place. I know that there is some good reason for why you have left us, and I know that you will be happy where you are going. You had a heart of gold, and were so forgiving no matter what happened to you. You will be sadly missed and I love you, Rusty and Cassie with all my heart. Goodbye sweet baby.
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I am so sorry to hear of all your losses. My heart breaks for you and believe me I feel your pain. We can never know the reason why and we always second guess ourselves no matter how our babies leave us. You are right that you should not beat yourself up over this. There is no way you could have known. All of your babies were very lucky to have a mom who cared so much about them. It leaves such an empty place inside of us when they are gone. I too had a baby go missing and I have had several losses just as you have had, so I truly understand how you feel. It's so hard when they are so close together. Please know that we are here for you and please try to take care of yourself. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
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April, I'm so sorry for your losses, and most recently JR. I too had a JR, JR Mewing, since I got my boy in Dallas. I lost him in November 2004, and he is still greatly missed as he was my first cat that was just mine as an adult. My thoughts & prayers are with you & your JR on his journey to the Rainbow Bridge.
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I just wanted to thank everyone for your thoughts and kind words. When I lost Rusty last year I came here and everyone made me feel a little more at ease with everything. It helps to know that there are people who do not think I am nuts for mourning the loss of a pet. I had hoped today would be easier but it really hasn't been. I had to go to work when the only thing I really wanted to do was stay in bed and cry, but I know I have to pick myself up and move on.
Once again, thank you all very much for helping me get through this.
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I'm so sorry for your losses. You really can't blame yourself. You don't know what time it happened & getting home earlier may not have prevented anything. I'mn having a hard time with one loss, I can't imagine 3.
Your in my thoughts,