Registered: 1515668449 Posts: 2
I’m just wondering had anyone especially any mother can relate to what I’m going through right now. My Yorkie McKenzie a first time Mom gave birth to one female puppy this morning alone and it died. We have come to the conclusion that she needed help because the sac was still over the puppy head and face but not the body she was still trying to chew away at the cord when we arrived to her rescue but it was to late the little one had already passed
I just feel an incredible amount of grief for not being there for her. I feel like I failed her as a pet owner as a Mother of 3 myself.
I was not equipped with the right information and simply scared to pieces that I would do something wrong to even jump in and help. My daughter performed CPR on the little one but we just woke up too late she had already died.
I can’t stop thinking about it and I feel a deep pain. I never knew this puppy. I didn’t even know I was going to have one. But I feel so bad about this situation. It breaks my heart to see Little McKenzie searching for her puppy. After reading material this morning I’m starting to believe that maybe we removed the dead puppy too soon. It was just breaking my heart to see her continue to lick the puppy as if she was caring for it. I could tell she didn’t understand it had passed.
Just wondering if someone else has shared this type of pain . It feels like I losted a child I’m not sure why but if I sit still long enough I just start crying I couldn’t work yesterday and don’t won’t to go to work today I just want to be by myself in my bed alone with my Sweet McKenzie who is just clinging to me now.
Registered: 1158205770 Posts: 839
I hope you have not left petloss due to the fact that there were no replies to your post. I am so sorry for you and McKenzie. I know you are in such pain and poor little McKenzie is grieving horribly as well. She will need lots of extra cuddles which in turn will benefit you. I believe that possibly her baby was not alive when she was born. There could have been a deformity of some sort. Above all you are not to blame. I know most of us blame ourselves and that only worsens our pain which is the last thing we need. If your little Yorkie did not make any noise to wake you there was no way for you to know that her baby was being born.
Many years ago I was fostering a very sick mama kitty and her 5 newborn kittens. She had a horrible respiratory infection and I ended up trying to bottle feed 3 of the kittens. I believe is possible that the three were somehow infected like the mama kitty. Three died and I felt like such a failure. The other two grew fat and sassy and were adopted as was mama.
All any of us can do in any situation is our best. That is what we ask of our children but for some reason we feel the need to be perfect. Please be kind to yourself, you deserve no less. Easy for me to say? No because I have been "in your shoes" and know how heartbroken you are.
With deepest condolences,
Registered: 1515264344 Posts: 7
I'm so sorry for your loss, and to see your dog searching for her puppy must be heart wrenching. I'm not surprised you are grieving - it would have been traumatic to see what you did. Be kind to yourself, this was not your fault. All the very best to you.