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I chose to have my 13 year old Min pin euthanized last Sunday. The guilt is terrible. He was 13 1/2, diabetic, blind, and almost deaf. I boarded him with my Goldendoodle the weekend before when we took my so to college. They told us he got to some of my Goldendoodle’s food. Willie was used to his diabetic dog food only. This triggered pancreatitis. He was sick for 5 days with vomiting, bloody stools, and symptoms of pain. I had him at the vet multiple times but chose not to hospitalize him. I gave him pain, nausea meds, and fluids at home. He just looked miserable. Maybe I should’ve given him more time to recover? His electrolytes were crazy. Maybe I should’ve hospitalized him. I’m sending two to college this month. The cost and the fact of Willie’s poor prognosis- I just didn’t.
Registered: 1499270086 Posts: 62
I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a fur baby is really tough and to euthanasia is especially tough. I know, I went through it myself. It is heartbreaking and you second guess yourself endlessly. BUT, in the end you must look at it as being MERCIFUL to your beloved baby. They suffer so and need us to make to tough decisions. Do we let them continue to suffer to be with us or do we let them go To be free From pain? We made the right decisions even if or when it feels wrong because it is counterintuitive to take a life. But in these cases, it is merciful to let them go. Now it is time to memorialize your fur baby, and tend to your pain and grief because it can be hardcore. I apologize if I am being blunt. I don’t know another way to say these things. I hope this helps you. My posts describe my emotional pain of the grief coming from the loss of a sudden deadly illness wear we only had a month to say goodbye, not even that. He deteriorated quickly. Try not to go over the minute by minute details of the last days. That is torture. I did that and it made things so much worse. My husband kept telling me, remember him when he was healthy not when he was leaving us. Thing is I have too good a memory when it comes to emotional things. I remember it like it was yesterday and it can pull me in, so I have to force myself to think of the good times and not look at the pictures of when he was ill. That is a setback. We took him to the vet, to the ER a few times. We were in denial. Thinking somehow with each visit it would change his prognosis. Heart failure is heart failure. But it did not change anything. Try not to guilt yourself for not taking him to the ER. You knew your baby’s state. Come back here. Its a place for those hurting looking for support and those who are able to give it. Jackie