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dhaight71

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I needed to share my story about my beloved Coco. I got Coco seven years ago. I had always been a cat person. Ever since I was a little boy. As an adult when one of my cats passed I went to the humane society looking for a new pal. But as I was looking I kept passing this cage with a puppy in it. She would be silent and every time I passed she would bark at me. I'd go looking for a cat and when I passsd again she would call to me. I told my now ex wife -I think I want to look at that puppy. She was shocked. So I took her in the little room. We played around. And then she ran around me three times and plopped in my lap. Thus began my journey with Coco. She chose me.

We were very bonded. And she was a joy. My marriage was not very good. But I had Coco. I really think she was sent to me as a guardian angel to help me through my hard times. (Thinking that now as she has passed makes it hard not to sob and I have sobbed so much.) She showed subtle signs of aggression here and there. Guarding her toys. Guarding bags in the floor and stuff like that. And she was very protective of me as well. It never bothered me. I just loved her.

Over the years it did get worse. She attacked the other animals in the house. And like I've read on other posts here - it is true - she was great 99% of the time. Sweet and funny and wonderful. When those things happened I made excuses. Dogs are dogs. They are animals. And Cocodid feel bad. She was a very bright dog. Super smart. My ex-wife didn't like her which made me defend her more. Coco did cause some serious injury to one of our dogs. And I did feel horrible. Truly horrible. But she was my angel

Eventually we divorced and it was me and Coco. Things were great. But as things go I met a woman. A much better woman A vet tech and fell in love. She has five animals. And when we decided to move in we were very good about Coco and the others. And things were great. Everyone was patient and good There were a few issues but my new love and eventual new wife knew how to deal with things and truly loved Coco. And Coco loved her

My new wife got pregnant. I think I knew in the back of my head that someday this would be the end. Even typing this I am crying. We got a behaviorist and put Coco on anxiety meds. Things went well. It was manageable. We had a beautiful baby girl. And at first t did go okay. We kept Morgan and Coco separate. But once Morgan started crawling Coco became more anxious. We were very tense all the time. Coco seemed upset and jealous. I tried giving her extra attention but it was hard. At times we had to separate her with gates.

Then Morgan started to crawl. This was the end. coco started growling and snapping at her. I tried everything to not do what I had to do. I did research. I read on these boards. But two days ago I put her down. It was the hardest thing ever. We did it at home where she felt good and happy and safe. And we had a great final weekend taking rides and spending time together. My heart is broken and I miss her so much and I love her so much. I just wanted to share my Story about Coco. My sweet sweet friend and dog. And hope my pain and guilt go away because I feel so guilty and sad I can hardly stand it. Looking for support....
Greyhoundmum

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Hugs, I get it. You did everything you could, but she would have been stressed and anxiety ridden. You did the right thing
dhaight71

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Thank you. That means a lot. It's been such a struggle. 
twinkiesmom

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I am so sorry! I had a similar experience many years ago and truly understand your heartbreak. In time you will be able to look back at the good times with Coco and the pain of her loss will ease. Seven years of love and affection, doing whatever you could to help Coco have a great life is a very good thing. There is no guilt where you are concerned, you need to try and remember that. Please take care and know you are among friends who offer comfort and support always.
dhaight71

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Thank you for your kind words - they mean a lot
KobasMom114

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I'm so sorry!!! My dog Koba was a resource guarder as well.. and I learned the hard way that it never goes away no matter how much you train them out of it. He was known to guard his food and I had no problems with that when taking him home. Two months in he guarded me from my aunt on my bed and she needed stitches. I still don't think he meant to hurt her and feel so guilty for what felt like murdering my best friend. I know it's horrible but you couldn't take that risk with a baby present. Coco forgives you, that's the thing about dogs like Coco and Koba.. they loved us so unconditionally and knew we would do anything for them. It's still only been a month for me so I can't say it's all sunshine and rainbows because I'm still in the thick of it, but take comfort in knowing you are definitely not the only one who has experienced this heartache. 
dhaight71

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Thank you so much for your kind response. It means so much to me. Its been so hard getting over this loss. Such a huge hole in my life and heart. I have been so down. Like a cloud over my life. I am thinking about getting a tattoo of her sweet paw. And I have been writing down the things she did so I won't forget her. But again thanks for the kind words
Pawprince

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So sorry for your loss. Thinking of you durikg this difficult time. ((hugs))
Newfanci

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I am so sorry for your loss. I know your pain and send healing live and thoughts your way. Know your beloved best friend is watching over you with love and does not want you to suffer
dhaight71

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Thank you so much - I really mean it. Sometimes even other family member don't understand or forget quickly (Coco was my dog) - so it's nice to come here and feel the warm care and support 
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