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I know this will probably never be read but i need to get it out. I lay here in my bed after our Evie attacked our Holly. Evie has been a long time foster and been adopted and returned 3 times due to her aggressive outbursts. I had never really witnessed it personally until today - where essentially unprevoked she attacked Holly and it took both my husband and I to get her to stop. Since she is a foster the rescue group has decided this was her last strike - and deep down I know it’s the right decision - but she will be euthanized on Monday. I was in a previous post some saying - when she was in the right frame of mind she was a wonderful dog - and that describes Evie to a tee. But when her demons get ahold of her - she’s no longer my sweet Evie. Now after everything has calmed down, I am struggling with the guilt because she’s back to my Evie and how I am supposed to be the one that signs her death warrant. It’s absolutely the worst feeling in the world and I haven’t stopped crying. By I can’t put my other three dogs at risk anymore. I’m so sick to my stomach.
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Oh, I am so sorry for you and Evie. This has to be a very difficult decision for you. I know it's hard but as you said Evie has her demons and you'll be setting her free and giving her peace. Be with her and let her know that you loved her until the end and you did it out love. Stay strong and believe your doing the best for Evie.
Love and doggie hugs Termy's mom
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I am so sorry you are having to make such a hard decision about a dog you love. There is a story on here somewhere called The Gentle Ones and it is written from the dog's point of view on the demons and I think it might bring you some peace. I wish I could find it but I'm not very techy and I have no idea how to copy and paste it. Know that you are helping Evie - she doesn't want to be the way she is, she doesn't want to hurt anyone or any other animals and you are releasing the demons from her.
JoAnn - Jackie, Chan, Daphne, Scarlett, Noir, Stan, and Thomas's mom and mom to many other Bridge babies.