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I had to put my 7 year old Shiba Inu/Chihuahua mix Rosie to sleep on New Year's Eve. She had liver cancer that spread to her lymph nodes. It took over her little body so quickly. She was losing so much weight, unable to stand and so sad. I felt her misery.
I only had her 5 years. I adopted her after fostering her for 6 months. I thought I would have her until she was a little old lady. She was the best little girl. She just wanted to be wherever I was all the time. If I went away, I wanted to get home quickly just to be with my Rosie. Making the decision to call the vet to help her make the transition has been the most difficult decision in my life thus far. My heart literally just aches for her. I miss my little girl so much. I just pray she knows how much I love her and I hope to see her again.
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I feel your heart ache. It's never easy. I am so sorry that she left so soon at the age of seven. It sounds as if you had a wonderful bond with her. Your post touched my heart because I have a Shiba Inu/Chihuahua mix also. We think she is about 8 years old. She was adopted. It's an unbearable feeling to watch your pet go from a vibrant healthy dog to one that goes down hill so fast. That's hard, I know. It's sounds as if you cherished her with all your heart as she cherished you with all of her heart. I adopted Darla (my Siba Inu/Chihuahua) to help ease the pain when I knew I was going to have to let my Chihuahua/Pomeranian, Termy go to the Bridge. Termy was my life and my deepest love. So I feel your loss. Your going to hurt for a long time but the pain does ease. It's been two years since Termy left and I still cry. I can now smile when I think of him.Your little girl,Rosie knows how much you love her. You gave her the greatest and most unselfish gift of setting her free and releasing her from her pain. You are her hero and she knows how very much you love her. You loved so deeply and were loved as deeply. Be gentle with yourself and take time to heal. Remember the journey you shared with her. Love and doggie hugs Termy's mom
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Thank you for your kind words. I needed to hear them so much.
I don't really speak with anyone about this loss because it's so raw and heavy. So, I'm really glad I found this space where I can connect with people who understand. I'm very sorry about the loss of your own dear pup. I hope you have many wonderful years with Darla.
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Your post hits home, I had to make the same decision the day after new years. It's so fresh and I just feel empty. I also only had my Max for a short time, I adopted him and only got 8 years. Before his illness took over, I expected at least another 3 to 5 years with him as he was still so spunky and playful. I'm so sorry that you are also starting your new years off this way. We made an extremely unselfish decisions, one that was one more decision we made in protecting them. It's hard to see it that way, but I know it's the only reason we made that call. We want them to be safe and unharmed. If we were selfish and kept them around just one more week or month, they would have suffered and it would have made us feel guilty. The suffering we are currently experiencing is only because we took that suffering they experienced and made it our own. It's a powerful thing and a huge act of love. Not to make it about me, but personally I hope to feel somewhat better when his ashes are returned. If you need someone to talk to at the same stage of grief please don't hesitate to reach out to me.