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This is my first post here so please tell me if I post anything I shouldn't. We lost our beautiful girl Saturday night. We had the priveledge of loving her for 3 and a half years. We rescued her from kennels where she had been dumped after being used for breeding. I knew when I saw her face that we had to have her, we fostered her at first but then we couldn't let her go. She had the best temperament ever. She looked after my kids like she was their mum, didn't like them out of her sight for any length of time. She was very nervous and didn't like shouting or loud noises. She must have had a horrible life before she came to us but I hope she managed to forget about that in the end. In 72 hours we lost her. She has started to breathe a little quicker and then started to pant. I took her to the vets and they admitted her for blood tests, xrays etc then I got a call with the devastating news that xrays showed a mass on her trachea and her lungs were in poor condition. I asked if he could try antibiotics.... Stupidly in denial. I knew this was the end and I knew she was distressed. We went to the vets and she was so happy to see us, tail wagging, jumping up, licking our faces, sitting on us like she always did. The vet took me into a separate room and told me she had lung cancer, her couldn't even see her heart properly she also had a tumour pressing around her trachea. How could we not have seen how ill she was?? Why didn't we take her to get checked out sooner?? I made the hardest decision of my life, I knew I had to think of her but that didn't make it any easier. She didn't seem poorly, apart from her panting - she was still giddy. We spent some time with her and took loads of pictures which I'm sure one day I'll look back on. We held her and told her we loved her and we cuddled her. She looked right into my eyes and then I knew her soul was gone. We are heartbroken, shocked, devastated, empty. Our house isn't a home anymore, no greeting when we come home, no sleeping on our beds (even though she "wasn't allowed") we miss her, I miss knowing she's around. She was only a small girl but she filled out hearts and house with her joyful dogginess. My boy is in bits, she slept on his bed every night, he's only 11. I know time is a healer but right not we are raw. I want her back. Our hearts are broken. Good night our Lexi Dog we love you so much xxx
Registered: 1529423348 Posts: 167
Reading your tragic story on the loss of your dog brought tears to my eyes too. A year after I too lost my cat to cancer, I'm still very much in mourning. And every little thing could bring me to tears nowadays too. The early days of grieving were super tough for me. I felt like I couldn't survive it, those early months. But I did, and you will too but be prepared for the heavy weather ahead. Take care!