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My sweet little man. It is soon to be 8 years that you were taken from me and the grief and pain are just as strong today as they were when I lost you.. Loving Frog Hug Pancho's favorite sleeping spot.He was such a gentle soul. God Bless his heart.. know your in a better place and I am being selfish but I can't let you go. I love you with all that I am from the first moment I met you. From that day we were never separated you were always there right by my side. I still feel you constantly licking my arm or leg when we sat in our chair. I am sorry old friend but I had to get rid of that chair I could not sit in it any more without feeling a heavy weight of despair crash down on me. You are the one I could always count on no matter what you were always there. I am already dreading Nov 28th it seems to come faster and faster every year. And every year I watch our videos and look at our pictures together and it tears me apart every year.. I am sorry I don't look at your pictures or have one hanging up but I can't my friend every time I see you I feel such sadness and I feel so alone I break down every time. I miss shoveling the yard every year so you had a place to comfortably do your business and we had the only yard that was green in a sea of white Mom or Grandma still has your picture hanging in the living room and I have to force myself not to look at her wall. I still wake up at times and be still half asleep and I swear your there standing over me staring me right in the face and when I open my eyes feel your tail start wagging but I wake up more and you disappear and I am left there with a hollow feeling of sadness to start out my day. They say time heals all wounds but it has not happened for me yet time has just made things worse and missing you has grown stronger and stronger. So thats why I am here now to write you this letter in hopes it will ease my pain.. Its hard to hear others say it will get better with time I have heard that so many times it makes me sick and it never gets better. And I know I will see you again but the wait is so very long. I miss you Little Man and you will always be my special little Bear... I love you Little man and will always your my best friend Love Daddy
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I just wanted to stop by and let you know how beautiful your tribute and letter to Poncho is. I had a dachshund growing up and I know how fiercely loyal and loving they can be to those they love. We did not have our dachshund very long - my mother adopted her after her first owner became too frail to look after her - but she had such a huge presence and made such a big impact in our lives for the short time she was with us. Sometimes we have such a deep bond with a pet that losing them is a very difficult thing to recover from. My mother loved cats and dogs, but she had one dog (her name was Lucky) that was her heart dog. She grieved deeply for Lucky after we had her PTS due to multiple cancerous tumors. My mother had other pets up until she died, but she never got another dog after Lucky was PTS, that was how deep her bond with Lucky was. I'm sure the same holds true for you and Poncho - for you, Poncho was one of a kind, never to be replaced in your life or heart with another dog... Hugs to you as you move through your grief journey... - Kelly Angel Blackie's mom Angel Squeeker's mom
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I am sorry for your loss, and also want to say thank you. The words you used in your dedication to Poncho couldn't be more fitting. I borrowed them and said them to my wiener dog Liriel just before she went to sleep. I'm really struggling right now, but I hope your pain of loss has gotten better.