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tysonsmum

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Hi all

I got my Tyson over 2 yrs ago, I didnt want a big dog, they told me he’s an English staffy but turned out to be nothing like on but I got him anyway, he looked so cute. So grew up to be 3x bigger than a staffy, he towered over my Amstaff and he was sooo strong but he was also the most loving, playful, the funniest and sweetest dog i have ever met. As big as he was, he would always want to cuddle, sit on your lap or lean his entire weight on you, he trusted me so much and it kills me.
I had to make my decision based on what happened that night, on Australia Day, they each had a bone but the other dog came too close to Tyson’s and so there was a scuffle, coz he’s bigger he bit my other dog on the side of her ear and would not let go for ages. I was scared! I knew that something would need to be done, he’s never hurt anyone, i dont think he wanted to hurt her but she always kinda eggs him on. The following day we took him to the vet(as per the advice of the vets as well that he will be put down), i cried and cried and cried and I miss him everyday. I have all these images in my head and no matter how hard i tried to stick with fun memories, it always takes me back to that day and i see it sooo clearly as if it’s happening over and over again! I blame myself for what happened, i failed him. I kept thinking, did i rush into it, he trusted me and i betrayed him and all he did was love me and my kids and i did that to him, i had him cremated coz I wanted him to come home but it hurts too much, everytime i look at it, it reminds me that he’s gone and i feel so guilty and im gutted that he’s gone and i wish he could somehow let me know that he forgives and that he understands. I still cry a lot, i miss him so much, i dont know if i’ll be able to forgive myself for what i did
tysonsmum

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Hi Tyson
I hope ure ok up there. I miss you so much, I can still hear you whining like crazy when someone gets home. I want you to know that I’m really sorry for what I did, I will carry that guilt for the rest of my life. I miss you everytime I go out the back and you’re not there to say hello to me. I miss your wiggly bum and your funny smile thru the glass door. I miss all the fur that I have to sweep up every day coz you shed so much. I miss you my baby boy, mummy will always love you, you will always be in my heart.

Love u lots
Mum
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