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... and it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do.
We got Pepper when he was only 9 weeks old, and since them, him and I have been inseparable. I love him so much and I can't believe that this is actually it. The reason I have to give him away is because my younger sister, who has Down Syndrome, constantly chases him and stomps her feet around him loudly to scare him and it is stressing him out a lot. He's always off in a corner licking away at himself, or biting his nails and the vet told me that, because he does these things excessively, it's a sign that he's stressed out and anxious. So I put up an ad to sell him, and someone already responded. I talked to them for an hour and they're really amazing, a young couple that really seems as if they love him. The problem is, I haven't been able to stop crying. All I'm thinking about is whether or not he's going to be happy. Whether or not his new parents are going to love him as much as I did, whether or not he'll be able to adapt, whether or not he'll get any better. Not knowing sucks. I don't want to give him away I love him so much and I can't stop thinking about how hard it's going to be to have to let him go. He's leaving tomorrow and I don't know if I'll be able to handle it, I just don't want him to go. I know that, in the long run, it'll be better for him. He'll live with a smaller family, with no kids and he'll be less stressed. All I really want is for him to be happy, but holy hell it HURTS. I know I'm going to end up crying a lot tomorrow because I'll have to drive away without him. I won't have his tiny self waiting for me whenever I get home, I won't have to stop him from crawling all over my keyboard when I'm trying to get work done, I won't have his running up and down my bed when I'm trying to sleep, I won't have him meowing and circling my legs whenever I try to walk. I won't have him anymore. And I don't want that. No more holding him tight to my chest and no more petting his soft, gray fur. God, I don't know if I'll be able to cope. I love you Pepper, and I'm so sorry I have to let you go. I'm going to miss you, so much, and I'll never, ever be able to forget you. Love, Mama <3
Registered: 1539997776 Posts: 22
Your home environment is too stressful for him. You are doing the right thing. Until you live separately from your sister you shouldn't have animals.
You're a good person for seeking out a better home for him. In a long run it's for the best.
Registered: 1387660479 Posts: 46
Your post is beautifully written, but so so sad. I can only imagine how you feel. I'm sure the agony would be the same for me if I had to give up one of my beloved pets. A good friend of mine is seriously ill and is no longer able to keep his cat, so we are adopting him, but our friend is very upset and sad about letting him go, even though he knows it's for the best for him and for the cat. I hope the people adopting your cat will be as good to him as they appear to be so far. Will they let you come and visit him? That might be hard for you in a way, but maybe if you see he is happy with them, you will feel much better. I hope it works out that way for you.
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I am so sorry for your loss - and what will happen today is a loss, as much and a painful as any loss. Allow yourself to acknowledge that it is a loss and to grieve. What you are doing is very grown and mature, many who are much older try to hang on and hope things will get better rather than look at what is best for their companion - Pepper is so lucky to have such a wise young lady choosing what is best for Pepper and not selfishly choosing what she wants.