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rete

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My dogs went nuts this morning and were barking at my weekend car (my dog and beach junk car). I had not been driving it because of COVID and staying put. I looked under and saw a black cat. I immediately yelled at my dogs to leave it alone and put them inside. I went back out and it was gone. I had a feeling it was under my hood so I went to look and sure enough there it was. I was like oh please don’t be sick and please don’t have kittens!!!

I went about my day. Later I was out front and I saw the cat and she looked startled. I said (yes, I talk to animals) it is okay, are you okay? And tried to have her come to me. She ran off. I looked to see if she went back in my yard but she didn’t. She walked past.

Around 6 pm tonight I went to let my dogs at and my 95 pound dog was going NUTS so I looked under and saw her. I was like are you okay and then I saw her jump and hiss to attack my dog. Hindsight I should have known she was protecting something.

I had to really work to get my two dogs away and I locked them up. My idea was to kind of scare her, humanely, away and then move my car closer to the house.

I did not want her in my back yard because I was afraid she may hurt my dogs and Vice Versa. I opened my gate so she could easily get out and I got in the car, started it, honked, put it in drive, put it back in park and honked again. I got out to check if she was gone and she was. So I just checked the hood again to make sure she was really gone.

Got back in and slllllllooowwwwwly pulled away. I heard a loud meow and stopped immediately and backed up slightly. I panicked and looked under the car and noticed a kitten kind of walking away but struggling and flipping like it was dazed. Then I noticed the other one...right where my wheel had been. I killed them both. Even though the one probably moved in pain for a bit, I knew it was going to die. It looked like a head injury. I cried and cried and my new neighbor heard the whole thing from his back yard.

I am beside myself. I am not exaggerating when I say I don’t hurt anything. I don’t swat flies or even kill mosquitoes. I go and actually collect the June bugs that have fallen in the pool each night to save them. I am THAT psycho. So this is a very traumatizing. I saw the momma cat come back and I cried and apologized. I also saw one more kitten jump up on the wheel.

I went to bury them and when I went out at 9:30 the one that had seemed to have lived longer was gone. It sent me into another cry fest. Then 30 minutes later I went to bury the one I actually ran over and it was gone. I don’t have any other predators in my yard. So it had to have been the grieving mother. I am so broken hearted. Two little kittens dead because I was trying to run the stray off. I am a horrible person. I wish I would have just let her be. She may have left on her own with three kittens in tow.
JerseyLola

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It was an accident. Please don't be too hard on yourself. This actually happens pretty frequently and there's nothing you could have done. My heart goes out to you!
rete

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Thank you @jerseylola. I am so destroyed by this. And thinking of the poor mom coming back to carry her dead kittens away haunts me.
Heidi4907

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I'm so sorry. I couldn't even read your whole story because it was so upsetting to me, and you are clearly devastated. So I don't know if you talked about the things I will mention here.
It's an extremely dangerous word out there for stray/feral cats, with coyotes, dogs, hawks, disease, cars, etc. Few last very long. What you CAN do now is capture the mother and have her spayed. If she is too feral to be homed you could release her where you found her. There are already too many unwanted cats in the world, and her quality of life would be much improved if she's not getting pregnant every 3 to 4 months. The reason I'm at this site is because of the death of my cat. I captured him and his brother and mother, living outside my apartment. I kept the 2 kittens, had mama spayed, found a home for her and she is now a very happy cat living in a beautiful house. I hope it's something you could consider doing. Maybe you could get help from a rescue in your area.
Again, I'm so sorry.   
rete

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Thank you. The mom cat has been a stray or a neighborhood cat for awhile. I am pretty sure this is not her first litter. The strange part is this is exactly what happened to my 17-year-old cat. Her brothers were killed by company trucks that parked in the back of my apartment and Kiki, my calico hung on and survived. I adopted her and I felt horrible for her siblings. Fast forward, I now caused this all...

And the one kitten that survived looked like Kiki, so I am and will try to make it right by earning her trust again and maybe taking them both in or at least fixing them and nurturing them as outdoor friends. Right now my 17-year-old is blind and slowing down. I have always been hesitant to bring anything into my house due to her age.

Ugh, I earned the strays trust before. She felt safe in my backyard even with my dogs and I completely destroyed everything.


Heidi4907

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You have a good heart and obviously care deeply about these cats. Thank you from a fellow cat lover for planning to get them neutered. I know I can't tell you not to be so hard on yourself, but I hope that will happen before too long. It was an accident. Kiki was lucky you came to the rescue for her. You saved her.
When I captured my 2 kittens and mom, in 2007, the kittens were about 12 weeks old, and the mother was already in heat!! I had no idea it could happen so quickly. I hope you'll be able to have her spayed before there's another litter.
Let us know how it goes.
Take care,
Heidi
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