Registered: 1590387532 Posts: 1
I lost my 16 year old cat Butter two days ago. I had him since he was 2 months old, and he was my family and best friend. I don’t even remember a time when I wasn’t with him. Last few weeks he was eating and drinking normally but started to lost weight. Two days ago he would cry loudly after using the litter box, and started to shake and had difficulty to walk. I brought him to the emergency vet at midnight and they told me he had severe anemia, has fluid in his stomach and developing cancer. Even moving him a little caused him to cry, after 2 hours of crying and holding him, I had to let him go in his sleep.
I’m sure a lot of people go through the same thing. We make the decision because we couldn’t bear seeing them in pain for another minute. But after the reality of losing them set in, the doubts, regrets and guilt started to show up. It’s torture. Thinking if it was the right call and if only I noticed earlier how thin he became. My only comfort among all the pain and guilt is that he doesn’t need to cry anymore. No more pain and discomfort. Reading all the messages here pains my heart. Everyone lost a best friend and a family. I hope everyone and myself could eventually recover.
Registered: 1590813272 Posts: 2
I’m so sorry for your loss. I feel overwhelmed by my own grief and at the same time comforted by knowing I am not alone in this experience. I also hope we will eventually recover.
Registered: 1587134571 Posts: 28
Ya, I hear you...that torture went on for two weeks for me and still comes up here and there but I pretty much been through it so many times. I see how I made the decision, and promised him i wouldn't let it go on if it got bad. It was Easter Sunday. I still think ' what if i left him in the hospital for treatment. But i couldn't leave him sick alone in the hospital for days when he probably wasn't going to recover very well. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope it gets easier for you soon. I know it will get better.