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Lexicat

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I have two cats, 10 and 7 years old. Our family fosters feral kittens until they're ready to be adopted. In the summer of 2019 we decided to adopt one of our fosters and named her Jamie. I have fostered over 50 kittens and this was the first one that I adopted.

Everything went very well introducing her to our older cats. My 7 year old groomed her and they played together constantly. It was a really great time in my life and I felt like Jamie brough new life to our home. I have a husband and 11 year old son as well. We were in love with her and really enjoyed having 3 cats.

Then one day, she had blood in her stool. I brought her to the vet thinking it wouldn't be serious. I did all the testing they suggested and brought her home. A couple days later I got a phone call from the vet. I was told Jamie most likely had FIP and that she had weeks or months to live. She was 6 months old. I struggled to accept that she had no hope at all but after seeing 2 more vets and doing research it became clear that she was not going to be okay.

She gradually lost her strength and on the last day her legs stopped working. FIP causes tumours all over the body and each kitten is affected differently. For her it was going to be paralysis. I made the horrible call to the emergency vet (it was a Sunday) and took her to be euthanized. She was 7 months old when she passed.

Since this happened I have not been coping well. I think I look normal outwardly but it's like my world is sideways. I can't make sense of anything. Kittens don't die! I should have had more than 10 years with her. Before now the youngest pet I've lost was 14 years old and I've had pets all my life.

And when I'm not sad I feel angry - I've volunteered with rescue on and off for 25 years. I've never adopted a foster until now and she died. I'm scared I won't want to foster again or adopt.

And the worst possible thing is my 11 year old son watched his beloved kitten deteriorate and die in his arms. He has fostered over 15 kittens and this was the one he got to keep. It hurts me that this is part of his childhood.

I don't know how to handle this pain. It doesn't seem real some days and others I can't stop crying. It's been about 3 months. My older cat has stopped playing as much and seems to. be missing her terribly. Our family went from one of the happiest times in our lives to fighting more often and struggling.

Thank you for reading... i needed to get this off my chest.
TrekysMum

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Oh Lexicat I’m so very sorry this happened to your precious kitten Jamie You obviously have a huge heart fostering and have given more love to felines who would never had known love of a family. This little kitten knew unconditional love and you did everything in your power to give her the best life. This is so heartbreaking for your family and my heart goes out to you. I wish there were words to help you heal. Please be gentle with yourselves and try to remember the positive impact Jamie had on your lives.

Hugs from a fellow cat foster
Cindy
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