Registered: 1561516539 Posts: 5
Two days ago, I made a decision with my dad to put our 14 year old Italian greyhound to sleep. She was almost completely blind and deaf. She had stopped eating or drinking for 4 days and was incontinent at times. I had some supplies like syringes to help her eat and drink, but I was worried about whatever disease process that was happening. Was I doing more harm than good by forcing her to eat? She seemed to be ok with it and even perked up a bit.
But she still wasn’t eating on her own. Our previous dog did the same, but died quickly. Our beloved greyhound was holding on, slowing becoming emaciated and lethargic. I couldn’t bare to see her this way. Taking her to the vet, she began to bark in the car, something she hadn’t done in days. She was nervous and squirmy and I had a twist in my stomach, questioning myself if we were doing the right thing. The doctor examined her and advised us the help her cross the rainbow bridge, but left the option of the testing, xrays and diagnostics if we felt necessary. But, we decided we didn’t want her to go through that and together with my father decided that it was time. The first shot came and as she was still awake, I couldn’t stop kissing her and telling her what a good girl she was. I held her head until she laid down. Her eyes began to close and she was so relaxed. The second shot came and it was just so fast. My father closed her eyes for the last time. I knew she was in pain and I prayed that she crossed over peacefully. As I’m writing this I’m so overwhelmed with emotion. Knowing that she won’t be there when I visit my parents (I usually visit multiple times a week) is killing me inside. Seeing my parents, especially my father, grieve is so painful. I’ve never seen him cry like this. These last few days have been a roller coaster, and all I can do is cry. I miss her so much.
Registered: 1556003058 Posts: 13
My heart goes out to you and your family. This is never an easy decision to make. As much as we love these most special of family members and would like to keep them with us forever, we do not want them to suffer. Seeing them in pain is at the same time painful for us. Just as at times in our lives when we have been in pain, whether physical or emotional, our fur babies did not want to see us suffer and did what they could to comfort us.
Registered: 1561621507 Posts: 7
It's very early days for you and you have to let yourself grieve, a bit of a cliche I know. When our dog got old people told us we would know when it was time, I didn't believe them. When her time came it was so obvious, she just kind of gave up and we did the kindest thing and last act of love for her. That was three years ago, I still miss her and can shed a little tear, but I try to dwell on the good times we had. I always wish she was still here, but she couldn't be. Take it easy and give yourself time.
Registered: 1561646768 Posts: 21
I'm really sorry. Yesterday, I had to make the impossible decision of putting my special cat to sleep. I'm beside myself with grief. I understand.
Registered: 1561516539 Posts: 5
Thank you all for your kind words...