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It's been almost 7 months, and I still cry almost daily. I feel this terrible emptiness without Ace...I know that there are only a few people who truly understand, and that's OK. Nobody shared the bond that we did. I still find myself thinking that I should've done MORE. Especially being in nursing school now, I feel that I was inadequate to him.
I miss my angel so much....I don't even have the words to describe it. I will say that recently my faith has started to grow. I want things right with God so that I can spend eternity with my baby boy. It's been a long 7 months, but at the same time, I've understood that life must go on. For my family and me. My mother has promised to bring his ashes to my nursing graduation next year....seems silly to some, but he deserves to be there. Thank God for my best friend Trish....I swear I think Ace sent her to me. He's always finding little ways to make me smile. Sorry I'm rambling....just really felt the need to talk about him. School keeps me crazy busy, and sometimes coming here is still painful...but then I remember the amazing people who helped me survive. I pray that you are all coping...I certainly know that gut wrenching pain. Love to you all, Jill Mommy to Ace of Spades....the best Pit Bull ever! 10/06-3/10
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I am sorry you are missing Ace so much. I can believe that you have cried almost daily for your friend. I understand the emptiness. I think that no matter what, we all wish we did more.
I know that when Foster died, I also felt that my faith had started to grow. I would have though opposite since He "took" Foster from me. But He gave Foster a great life now and he will be there for me when I am ready too. I kept praying for a miracle that my baby would walk again and the night before we said goodbye I realized that the minute he died- a miracle would be performed because he would be walking again up in heaven. I don't think it's silly to bring his ashes to school graduation. I know others would and wouldn't understand it but I think it's a nice idea. I dont think any of us will ever forget our pets. We all will get through it, not over it, and the coping takes time. lots and lots of time. I'm glad that you have a friend that is helping you and don't forget we are all here for you too.
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It is really tough moving on without your best buddy. You miss them so much and wonder how you will get through the next day. You had a great bonding with Ace and that is hard to forget. Losing a pet is very painful. I believe that as the months move on, you will start to find peace in your heart. It's good that you have a friend to share your thoughts with, plus your petloss family. Ace wants you to be happy again, Jill. I will keep you in my prayers.
Mare precious Christoph ~ the only bunny for me ~
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I do how you are feeling. My Precious Sammy has been with Jesus for almost 17 months now. And yesterday it hit me that I am still in shock. I am still in shock that he is even gone. But I am truly Happy for Him that he is with His Lord. The missing them never goes away Jill. In fact I think it gets worse as time goes on. We just learn to live with it. What a Good and Faithful Servant Ace is though. He is taking you to The Lord. Yes, you want to go to Heaven... Ace is there, but you are getting ready to embark on a life with Our Lord. If I can help you in any way, please let me know. Another thing... I Thank God that someone like you is going to be a Nurse. How fortunate all your Patients that you will be caring for will be through out your career. It is so fitting that Ace be with you at your Graduation. God bless you Jill. I pray for your Peace, Understanding and Comfort. Love, Mayme ~ Sammy's Mommy
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Jill, Pitbulls are such wonderful dogs, aren't they? I feel your pain and heartbreak. Yes, life does have to go on, just not the same way it used to. I hope you find comfort knowing that Ace will always have that love bond with you, and even death can't break those bonds they forged in life. I hope Ace and my Bubba are playing together, waiting for the time when they reunite with us. Hugs to you Jill, good luck in nursing school. Your boy will be very proud of you.
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Thank you all so much for your kind words....I definitely feel that nursing is my calling. I wish with all my heart he could be with me...but I know he is in spirit. Bless each and every one of you. I love you all and I'm so lucky to be able to come here. Hugs...Jill