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Rosie

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It will be one week tomorrow that I had to say goodbye.
Mickey was my best little angel and I still cannot believe he is gone.
He was diagnosed with ITP 3 years ago (ITP is a blood disorder) and on the Friday of Memorial day weekend I had a feeling something was wrong. He was extra lethargic and I promised him that we would have a special weekend together. By Memorial day he became so lethargic that we took him the the emergency clinic where they treated him for his back. (the poor little thing also had disc problems) but the next day we brought him back knowing that it was something more. He was admitted for 2 nights and had a series of tests run. I picked him up on Thursday with hopes that he would recover once he started taking his medication. It only got worse from there. The poor little thing couldn't even walk and wasn't even eating Chicken. He didn't move, he just lay on his bed sleeping constantly. It was so hard watching him lay there knowing in my heart that he wasn't going to get better.
We brought him back to the vet on Tuesday and we were told that his bloodwork had not improved. We knew in our hearts that we had to let him cross the bridge. I couldn't watch him suffer any longer. It was the worst day of my life and although I know he is in a better place, I am just so empty without him. He was with me for 14 years and was my baby and best friend. This house is just not the same. I keep looking for him and picturing him napping in the sunbeem or barking at birds through the door. My heart is broken and I do not know how I am going to continue on without him here.
This is the worst pain I have ever felt - I am just absolutely devestated:(:(:(
I feel like this is the only place I can come where I will be understood.
Thank you all for taking the time to read this and listen to me.


basil

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Your post is so heartrending, I am so sorry for your loss.  I can feel your pain, I have been there.  All on this site have been where you are now.  I am so glad you are here.  Perhaps, when you feel able, you can tell us a bit more about your baby.  Mickey is safe and well and healthy now, I know that it is no comfort, cos you want him with you.  I am so sorry.  My heart is with you and your family.  Much Love, Di xxx

DrewTenderHeartWolf

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Rosie, I'm so very sorry to read about the loss of your precious baby Mickey.  As hard as it was, know that you did what was best for him.  It is often said here in pet loss that you love them enough to let them go.  Mickey was indeed lucky to have you for a mom.  It sounds like he received only the best of care his entire life and even at the end, you were there for him and allowed him to make his journey to the bridge peacefully.  He sure sounds like he was a wonderful little guy.
 
I can feel your pain.  I have been very sad every time I've had a loss, but none so bad as when I lost my kitty Drew three years ago.  I went through what you are going through, so please do try to take care of yourself.  It's easy to let our grief overwhelm us to the point that we don't take care of ourselves.  Eventually, the pain will subside and you will remember all the happy times.
 
I am glad that you found pet loss.  Know that we are and are here for you always.
 
Your friend,
 
DrewTenderHeartWolf
 
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Benniesmom

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Rosie, I have found much comfort during the devastating loss of my Bennie here. I hope you too find some solace knowing that you are not alone in your pain and loss.

I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful companion. It is truly one of the worse pains we can endure in life.

Take time to grieve and cry and come back here for support when you need it.

Hugs and prayers.

Georgeann

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Dear Rosie:
I am so sorry about the loss of your Precious Mickey.  Your words broke my Heart as I have been walking in your shoes for months.  I lost my Little Angel Christopher over 14 months ago.  Not a day has gone by where I have not been in tears since that horrible day he went to the Bridge.  Like you, I had to let him go because he was in such pain.  He was my constant companion for almost 12 years.  He was my Heart, My Soul and My Best Friend.  I will Never forget the day he died in my arms-Never.  My Life is not the same and Never will be until I am with him again.  There are no words to help with the pain.  My only salvation has been this site as everyone here is absolutely wonderful.  My Petloss Family has been here for me day and night and they understand my on-going pain.  I just wanted you to know that we are all here to help you as best we can.  You and Mickey are in my Prayers.

Big Hugs
Georgeann and Christopher
Forever 
rupertsmum

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Dear Rosie

So sorry about your loss of Mickey.  It is heartbreaking to lose our beloved pets.  I lost my cat Rupert 19 weeks ago and some days it is so hard to go on.  I miss him so much.  I am going to create a memorial for him.  I have enlarged photos of him everywhere and I talk to them as it is all that is left.

The early numbness eases after a while and life will go on for you but it will take time.  Be kind to yourself and take each day at a time.  Best regards Ruperts Mum
AngelCareOne

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{{{{{{{Rosie}}}}}} I am so very sorry for your loss of your beloved fur kid Mickey. I do feel your pain and wish I could reach through this PC monitor and HUG you! I'm sending many Healing Prayers and thoughts!
 
{{{{{{{Georgeann}}}}}} Your beloved Christopher knows you love him and is waiting for you at The Rainbow Bridge the same as Rosie's Mickey and my Alex. Big Hugs!
 
Alex was also my best friend both human and otherwise. The best friend I've ever had and my constant companion for 15 years, 5 months and 11 days. I posted here today about Alex. God rest his soul. They are now all in the Arms of the Angels, young, healthy, happy, playful and they wait for us.
 
Much love to you and everyone who is feeling this most devastating loss. It's gosh awful and I do pray that someday our grief and sorrow may somehow be replaced with only the fondest of memories until we meet our most cherished best friends once again at The Rainbow Bridge.
 
 
Big Hugs to All and Many Blessings!
 
Always,
Angel xoxoxox 
 
WooWooWoo

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Dear Rosie,

Your post was so heartbreaking.  I am so very, very sorry you have had to say farewell to your beloved companion and soulmate, Mickey.  I know the pain is so intense right now and so fresh.  I had my beloved 16 year old terrier, Betsy, put to sleep January 11, 2008 and I still cry for her.  When one has had a little faithful companion for so many years, the sense of loss is terrible.   Grief comes in waves.  Our houses are so much quieter....and so still. 

I have two other beloved dogs so I am so blessed that I still hear the patter of little paws.  I thank God for that.  My surviving babies have become my heroes.

Please come post here and tell us more about your beloved boy.  We will be here for you.

Hugs,
Melissa
Betsy's forever mom

Rosie

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Thank you all so much for all of your kind words.
I honestly thought I was so alone in feeling so much grief.
I am sorry to all of you for having to feel this pain as well.
 Mickey was my first baby although I knew he wasn't going to live forever, I just never expected it to happen so quickly. I would pray that he would live to be 20.
He was a Maltese and was constantly giving me kisses. He was on my lap at all times and was my best little napping buddy. He had so many quirks that just made me laugh. I would love watching him sleep with his little tongue sticking out through his teeth. ( all of his front teeth were pulled and he only has his canines left)
I have sent out cards in his memory and am planning on doing a photo wall in our family room.
His ashes should be arriving tomorrow or Wed. and just thinking about that is heartbreaking. We cut off a little piece of his hair on that last night and it sits on my nightstand with his picture. It is so hard to look at it yet I am so happy that I have a little part of him.
Getting into bed without him there is so hard. I still kiss him and tell him to have good puppy dreams like I did every single night of his life.
I just pray that he has a special angel watching over him and is warm and comfortable. I feel so bad that I am not there to take care of him anymore.
I love him so, so much.......

WooWooWoo

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Oh, Rosie, little Maltese are so precious.  Maybe when you feel up to it you can post a photo of him.

Big hugs,
Melissa
kevinm714

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Rosie I am so sorry for your loss. I feel the same way right now. I lost my sweet cat, Romeo two days after Memorial Day. He was ten years old and had kidney problems. It was sudden and quick. It's as if I  have a hole in my heart. Keep coming here. It will get better. Allow yourself your tears. Sheddomg them shows how deeply you loved Mickey. Allow yourself to laugh also as you remember all the good times.  There are blessings in this process though. I have a friend whose dog of 17 years will die soon. I am thankful that now that I understand I will be able to assist him. We will see our kids again. They are watching out for us now from the Rainbow Bridge. 

Lucia

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Dear Rosie,

I'm so very sorry for your loss.  It's heart wrenching.  I know.  We lost our almost-15-year-old Norwich Terrier, Rebel, seven weeks ago today.  It still hurts so much but I found that if I talk to him aloud I feel better.  I still expect to see him at the door when I get home and I'm shocked when he's not around during the day and evening.  I still look for him in bed.  But, even though there's still pain, it isn't as raw as it once was.  You've come to the right place.  This website is filled with kind people who really do understand how you feel.  Please keep coming back.

Lucia
AngelCareOne

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{{{{{{{Rosie}}}}}}}} Mickey truly sounds like such an Angel from all you've said. I can certainly see why you miss him so much. What a wonderful and loving fur kid. My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you.

Yes, I'm certain that Mickey is a very special Maltese Angel indeed! Big Hugs and Love!

 
Always,
Angel xoxoxox
 
Georgeann

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Dearest Rosie:
I understand every painful word that you wrote.  Nightime is the worst for me.  Christopher slept in my arms every night.  Now I sleep with his ashes and his picture next to my bed.  When things get really bad I snuggle with his favorite blanket as it is the only thing I have of his that brings me any Peace.   We will miss our babies Forever and I know that they will miss us too.  May God's Angels watch over your Precious Mickey and keep him safe Forever. 

Big Hugs
Georgeann and Christopher
Forever

My Precious Angel
Please Watch Out For Mickey
And Keep Him Safe Until His Mommy Arrives.
You Are My Man And I Love You
Mommy
dianae2002

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Dear Rosie, I'm sorroy for the loss of your baby Mickey. I know a little how the character of maltese dogs so I know your baby was sweet and just adorable. The maltese dogs are like a little teddy bear you want to hold and never let go. He gave you 14 wonderful years and he will always be in your heart.
 
Diana Jessie and Neko's mom.
LooseysMom

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Rosie,

It gives me comfort to know that Mickey was waiting at the bridge for my Loosey as I had to let her go the day after Mickey left you.  Tomorrow it will be one week.  The first couple of days were almost a relief because she was free and I wasn't having to carry her around.  Then the emptiness started to settle in...

Like you I dealt with her health issues for years before the end... and gladly so!  You get used to dealing with the issues and then when the end starts to come into focus it's so hard to take.  The roller coaster of "maybe this will make my baby better" only to be let down.  And then to make the decision to do what's right for them.  I know I couldn't have done it without all of the support  I've found right here.  (I couldn't call my family... because I had to be alone with Loosey at the end.  But I didn't want to be alone so I found my  salvation here!)

So, I sit here  at my office picturing your little lap dog and my 'big lap dog' knowing that they are romping together right now (Loose is very gentle-don't worry!) and it makes me smile.  Course, when I go home to the empty house tonight it will a different story.  But I'll look to my friends here to keep me going...

My thoughts are with you, Rosie!

Tanny Loosey's Mom



JennyH

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Rosie, I'm so sorry for your loss of Mickey.  When you can, please  post a picture.  Everyone on here understands your grief and pain.  Being able to talk with others who have had a similar heartache does help.  Many friends just don't understand if they haven't loved pets like children.

We just expectantly lost the last of our babies a week ago Sunday.  I understand the silence in the house and thinking they are there and then realizing they aren't.



Our Ernie, 15 years old. 


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