Registered: 1175512324 Posts: 76
I've Booked My Room In Heaven Daddy... They're Ready When I am..... I'm sorry but I have to leave soon.... I'll miss you Daddy but I'll keep an eye on you.... Please save another kitten and treat him like you treated me all these years... Promise me Daddy, Promise me! I'm almost 17 Daddy, that is 83.8 in Human Years... I've known you since I could open my eyes... I’ll see you again someday and this time forever…. I’ll send your love to Demon, Merlin and Putty Tat when I get there. Please be strong Daddy….. I feel in my heart that the moment I've been dreading may be upon me... It may be time to bring Wizard to the Vet and help him to the Bridge. I don't know if it is the new medication as I gave him his only 1/2 pill eaterday at about 2 PM... It seems the negative effects should f worn off my now.... He's in my lap now, he purrs a bit when I pat him, but he looks like he's realll not feeling to well. Some diarea in the Cat Box so he's finally pooping, but he's also got a couple drops of diarea on the bed and over ny the food and water dishes.... He just pooped on the bed again now.... When he goes to clean himself he almost falls over doing it... He has this embarrissed face with those cute litttle eyes... One Blue and One Greenish/Yellow... It's Like "Sorry Daddy, I didn't mean to get it on the bed and floor." He's looks sad like he knows he's going and is going to miss me... I love him so and I'll miss him sooo much.... Unless he drastically changes in the next 3 hrs, I think I'll be taking him to the Vet's. I can't believe the Vet doesn't open for another 3 1/2 hrs...... This is killing me.... Bob Wizard's Dad
Registered: 1200561771 Posts: 251
I am so so sorry for everything you are going through. It is just the worst thing to ever have to go through isn't it? The most heartbreaking thing ever. I can tell that your Wizard is your baby, the love of your life. Wizard knows that you love him more than life itself, and if this is the time, it is the final act of love for your baby. Afterwards your baby will be out of pain, then you take his pain away and bear it yourself. I was crying as I read your Post. Wizard is just so gorgeous and the picture says a thousand words, he was so loved! I am thinking of you at this time, and know we are all here for you. YOu have come to the right place. A big cuddle for you, Nuggetsmum Alana
Registered: 1194492978 Posts: 5,100
I will be late for work but I have to write. I want you to remember something. You know that special bond you and Wizard have. Well, NOTHING, not even death can break it. His little body will go because it is worn out, just like ours will wear out one day. But, Bob, his SPIRIT will NEVER leave you, ever. You will feel him around you every day, as you type, or go about your business. I promise. When my Betsy passed my husband and I felt her everywhere. We even both heard her BARK one day! Seriously.
He WILL be with you Bob. He is just transitioning to another plane of existence--the Bridge--where he will wait patiently for you. He will still love you and you will still love him. So, other than his little body leaving, not much will change. Sure, you will cry, and cry. But, as you cry keep one eye open to let him know you KNOW he is still there, on her chest, invisible, trying to comfort his daddy. And, for God's sake, go out and save another kitty. You are a special soul, Bob. You have so much love to give and that is what Wizzy would want for you. He will choose the kitty when you and he are ready. God bless you my friend. God bless Wizzy. Hugs, Melissa
Registered: 1184112093 Posts: 192
Bob- I am so very sorry for what you and Wizard are going thru. my heart breaks for you, I know all the fine people on this forum feel the same way. we have all been thru this. the decision you are facing is so tough- and yet, I almost found it harder the days before I had to put Oscar to sleep. all the worrying, second guessing myself- not sleeping, and all the questions. like- is it time for Oscar? should I wait? should I not wait? is he hurting? when I finally made the decision, I knew it was the right one even tho so very hard. Oscar was ready to go, that much was clear. I know from your posts that you did all you could for Wizard and more. no cat could have a better life, 17 years of love. as my vet told me, and this applies to your Wizard, " you took him as far as he could go"
Wizard will always be with you, the bond is too strong to break. been a year since Oscar left me ( on earth) but I still feel his presence. praying for you. here is a poem I love, its meant for people but can apply to our friends as well
Death is nothing at all
I have only slipped away into the next room
I am I and you are you
Whatever we were to each other
That we are still
Call me by my old familiar name
Speak to me in the easy way you always used
Put no difference into your tone
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow
Laugh as we always laughed
At the little jokes we always enjoyed together
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was
Let it be spoken without effort
Without the ghost of a shadow in it
Life means all that it ever meant
It is the same as it ever was
There is absolute unbroken continuity
What is death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind
Because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you for an interval
Somewhere very near
Just around the corner
All is well.
Nothing is past; nothing is lost
One brief moment and all will be as it was before How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!
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Registered: 1205715660 Posts: 763
Dear Bob, I am so very sorry for what you and Wizard are going through. I feel like I know your little boy and I am so sad. You have been a wonderful Daddy to your boy. Wizard would want you to adopt a needy little kitten. He would want you to have someone to love and make you happy. Please know Wizard's spirit will be with you always, watching over you like an angel. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Donna, Mr. Meowgy's mom
Registered: 1183436105 Posts: 296
I just posted a reply on your other thread about keeping some of your Wiz's fur. I'm in the same predicament, as my Kirby (husky mix) has lost that "spark" and I feel the end is near too. The only difference this time around is that I always had another dog to comfort me. Kirby's almost 14 and has outlasted all our other pets, so he's the last one. I will pray for both of our fur babies. Hang in there, we can console each other! Laura
Registered: 1157563949 Posts: 43
I'm so very sorry that Wizard is not doing better. I was hopeful after reading your post yesterday that he may be able to stay with you a little longer. Try to be strong, I know how very difficult making that decision can be and just know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. Just remember, you are freeing him from the body that is obviously failing him and he will be whole and healthy again at the Bridge where he can run and play in the grass, forever free. You have been a wonderful furparent, giving him everything that he needs over the years and he will be eternally grateful for the love and devotion you have shown to him. This poem I have her at my desk and read it from time to time, I'd like to share it with you. Perhaps you have read it before but, it is worth sharing again. Lend Me a Kitten
I will lend to you for awhile a kitten, God said.
For you to love while he lives, and mourn when he's dead. Maybe for twelve or fourteen years, or maybe two or three. But will you, 'till I call him back, take care of him for me?
He'll bring his charms to gladden you and, should his stay be brief
You'll always have his memories as solace for your grief. I cannot promise he will stay, since all from earth return. But there are lessons taught below I want this kitten to learn.
I've looked the whole world over in search of teachers true.
And from the folk that crowds life's land I have chosen you. Now will you give him all your love, nor think the labor vain? Nor hate me when I come to take my kitten home again? I fancied that I heard them say 'Dear Lord Thy Will Be Done' For all the joys this kitten brings the risk of grief we'll run. We'll shelter him with tenderness, we'll love him while we may. And for the happiness we've known, forever grateful stay. But should you call him back much sooner than we planned, We'll brave the bitter grief that comes, and try to understand. If, by our love we've managed your wishes to achieve, Then in memory of him whom we loved, please help us while we grieve. When our cherished kitten departs this world of strife, Please send yet another needing soul for us to love all his life. Wizard is wise in asking you to save another, as most kitties are! I too hope in time, that you will be able to love another. I know it's difficult to even think or imagine that but, they do comfort and bring a new joy to your life, even when you thought you'd never experience joy again. After I lost my PJ girl, I still had Hawkeye and had no intention whatsoever of ever getting another kitten. PJ was the love of my life and I lost her very suddendly and unexpectedly, I was heartbroken. But, I volunteer at my local shelter and about two months after I lost PJ, a little tortie poked her paw out at me from her kennel and I knew PJ was sending her to me. It's a long story but, after another 2 months of her at the shelter, I brought her home to live with us. I have never regretted that decision for a moment. She brought so much joy and love back into my life. I grieved and cried for PJ for a year after that and I still do to this day but, I know she would be so proud of her mommy for saving another little one who needed me as much as PJ knew I needed her. Now that I've lost Hawkeye, PJ's companion for 11 years, I don't see myself getting another for quite a while. I have Zoey who is young and healthy and I have 20 farm kitties who are all spayed and neutered and they keep me plenty busy with the vet bills. I did find a rescue kitten for my dad and she has been a blessing and a God send for him. My dad loved PJ as much as I did and so, now he has a little snowshoe of his own to love and care for. And I have promised that if at some point my dad is no longer able to care for his little darling, that I will take her in as my own. She has brought me much joy as well, PJ has certainly been busy since she has been gone, keeping me on my toes! I do all my rescue work and volunteering in her and Hawkeye's honor and will always be grateful to them both for being in my life and loving me for all those years. I hope you know that we'll be here for you now and after your beloved Wizzy has gone on to join all our babies at the Bridge. God bless you for doing everything that you do for your baby. He will understand that what you are doing, you're doing out of your love for him. Sending love and hugs from PJ and Hawkeye's mommy Diane