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Shilo, my 14 year old dog left me on 5/25/08 our usual Memorial Day weekend camping trip.  Two days before we went camping, I had a feeling that Shilo was not going to come back home alive, I had a feeling I was going to bring her body back. and I even packed extra towels and bed sheet for that feelings I had for some reason. 
We arrived at the Wenatchee National Forest Park early Saturday morning and we couldn't camp at our normal spot due to snow so we camped at another location probably 3 miles from our normal spot.  Shilo and I went for a walk to the river and I took one of the best picture of her, she was smiling.  After our walk, she took a long nap under the sun.  That night she walked by everyone as we all sat by the fire, it's like she was saying good bye to everyone, and she came to me last and looked at me and wanted me to pick her up and put her next to me on the chair like always and she was looking at the fire like she was trying to remembering all her camping trip.  I pet her she went to sleep, all relaxed and happy.  That feeling of mine all of the sudden came so strong that this is her last night and that she was not going to wake up in the morning.  When we went into our tent, it took her a while to lay down and go to sleep.  Just right before dawn, she was up and it's very unusual for her for the last six or so months.  My husband let her out alone with our other two dogs to go to the bathroom and she never came back. 
We searched and searched and we couldn't find her.  The first thought that came to my mind when I was told that she had gone was that she found a peaceful place under a big tree and went to sleep, I saw her curled up like a ball and took a deep breath and close her eyes and went to sleep, but I can't find that place.  I can't find the tree that she is under.  I even walked in the snow to our normal camping spot and thought she might be there, but she was not there.  I looked and searched all over, and I just can't find her.  I made signs, I called the animal shelter, I went to the rangers stations and I did everything.  Part of me knew and was ready for this, but part of me just refused to believe that she is gone.  Shilo and I had a connection, we can feel each other, but this time I can't feel anything.  Oh Shilo, I miss you so much, that pain I have everyday, every night, every moment... It has been two weeks now and I really need a sign from you where you are at....

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How heartbreaking. As I read your story, I cried, and I am not one who cries easily.
It could be that Shilo went off to die. I don't know. I don't know what to say to you.
I am so sorry for your loss.
Molly's Mom

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How totally awful for you.  It is the not knowing that is the hardest.  I am so sorry.  Thinking of you, Much love, Di xxx


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I am very sorry that you have lost your only makes it harder when you don't truely know what happened.  We lost our Brandy that way (kitty)....he went out one day and never returned.  I think our pets try to spare us from the pain of their passing and so they go off somewhere.....I hope that you can find some peace from being here.  I know I have since we lost our Macey 2 weeks ago. 

You and Shiloh are in our prayers,
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