Registered: 1208090473 Posts: 13
This Friday will be one month since my baby boy, Bosco passed away unexpected. Each day is different for me and today is proving to be a tough one. Two days after Bosco died, I bought a journal so I could capture our life together. I adopted him when he was 7, so we only had 4 1/2 SHORT years together and he was 100% the very best friend I ever had. My bond with him was like no other that I've had even with family members/boyfriends, etc.
In journaling (i love to write) I hope I gain more comfort. I can't stop replaying in my mind how I came home from work, opened the front door to find him laying there dead for hours. So I'm going to from now on, before I open that front door, think of happy, happy memories and walk inside.
I just really really miss him. I know he's with me but I physically miss my boy as well.
I just got finished crying (I work in a special needs school, so I just went to the Psychologist's office to chat) and she has been great.
Thanks for reading, thanks for loving animal companions as much as I do and god bless.
Registered: 1210093624 Posts: 10
That's a beautiful picture of Bosco. I'm sorry you're having such a hard time today. It's really tough to get through the bad days sometimes. It sounds like you had a wonderful relationship with your sweet dog, and I hope you're able to focus mostly on the happy memories. It's really nice of you to adopt an older dog, and I'm sure you made his remaining years full of fun and love. I hope you feel less sad soon.
Registered: 1192025607 Posts: 201
I am so sorry for the loss of your Bosco. It is hard when the waves of grief return to open the wounds of sorrow.
I try to remember that it is of little importance how our pets come to us or what brings about our parting, but rather how their life was with us in between. You took a 7 year old dog that might not have had many days left had you not adopted him and you gave him a wonderful home where he was loved and cared for. He in return was able to give you 4-1/2 years of unconditional love. Stephanie that is what was important to Bosco.
Fridays are always days of rememberance for me for that is when I had to say goodby to my Tremor. So I know full well the waves of grief and having good and bad days. I hope that you will have fewer and fewer of the sad times and that you begin to smile over all the good times,
Registered: 1174875149 Posts: 2,245
I am so sorry you are having such a difficult day. And it is so hard when you are at work. It took me months to function at work after I lost Christopher. I understand your pain as I have lived it for over 13 months. I lost my little Angel Christopher over 13 months ago and I still cry for him every day. Last night was another very difficult night for me. The pain and tears just seem to come in uncontrollable waves. While I too know that he is with me I also miss his physical presence. These Precious Angels steal our hearts and take our souls with them when they leave. I know that the day will come when we will be with them once again. I know that our babies miss us too. You are in my Prayers. May God's Angels always watch over your Precious Bosco. Big Hugs Georgeann and Christopher Forever My Precious Angel My Heart My Soul My Best Friend You Are My Man And I Love You Mommy
Registered: 1207195264 Posts: 39
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I completely understand about having bad days. I lost my Barkley 6 weeks ago. There are days I think I am handling it ok but some days I know from the moment I wake up in the morning I am going to have a tough day. What helps me is talking to her everyday. I think in the beginning, my daughter coped by acting like Barkley was still with us. Her body may be gone but her soul and memories will forever live on with her family. I also work in a school. The first month was so difficult to go to work because I had to be "on" for the students. I just wanted to write to let you know I understand. Take Care and my thoughts are with you on this tough period in your life. Barkley's Mommy
Registered: 1206127672 Posts: 331
Your Bosco is beautiful...I just wanted to let you know how much you helped me after my Zip left for sunshine and rainbows....the books you recommended helped me thru some of the toughest times I've ever faced in my life...I was destroyed by his passing....thank you my friend ...
Registered: 1201648552 Posts: 846
I'm so sorry you're having such a rough day. I understand all too well. I miss my girls Luna and Gypsy Girl terribly and I too have good days and bad days. Bosco is one beautiful boy, and I'm sure he loved you very much. How special it is to hear about people who adopt older dogs so they too can have wonderful twighlight years. You know he's always with you and his spirit will be with you always. You will hold your baby again some day - don't forget that. He waits for you at the bridge. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
Big hugs to you, Gerlie (Luna and Gypsy's forever mom)
Registered: 1197081544 Posts: 686
Your Bosco is a sweetheart. How lucky you both were to have found each other. There is no love like that between an animal lover and their furbaby. I am so sorry you are having a bad day. I pray that your tears begin to give way to smiles as you remember the wonderful times with Bosco. He is always with you and will forever be in your heart. Thinking of you, Kate (Gus' mom)
Registered: 1210209740 Posts: 143
We just had our dog put down today and my heart is breaking. It was the hardest decision I have ever made. My heart goes out to you. I hope it brings you comfort to spend some time here where people understand.
Registered: 1206127672 Posts: 331
Thank you for making me smile today,yes I did purchase" animals in the afterlife "and am reading it at the same time as" animals in spirit "and between the tears I still shed for my Zip.Before Zip left we communicated almost daily, he began telling me he was leaving soon I just did'nt realize it was so soon. I am not saying in anyway shape or form I have the gift...However this is not the first time this has happened to me...More importantly, I plan on getting the new book you recommended, I think Bosco and Zip are becoming great friends...My thoughts and prayers are with you Toni